The Following is the 'Ana Creed' that I found on the web, a 'Code' that those with Anorexia can identify with and use to motivate them in their quest to starvation:
I believe in control, the only force mighty enough to bring order in the chaos that is my world.
I believe that I am the most vile, worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet, and that I am totally onworthy of anyone's time and attention.
I believe in oughts, musts and shoulds, as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behaviour.
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.
I believe in salvation trough starvation.
I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of god, and memorise then accordingly.
I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily succeses and failures.
I believe in hell, cause sometimes I think I live in it.
I believe in a wholly black an withe world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the alonegation of the body and a life ever fasting.
In this blog I do not in any way want or try to condemn the 'Ana-lifestyle', I will just be looking at the peculiarity of its existence. I am aware that to judge or condemn something that exists in this world, is to prevent yourself from actually getting to know this world and why certain things exist.
The mistake that many people make who want to 'help' girls that 'suffer' from Anorexia, people like parents, teachers and psychologists, is that they judge and condemn what is happening to these girls, or rather what these girls are doing to themselves. They then force the girl to get treatment in some mental Institution or to go see a therapist - which is all based on this idea that 'there is something wrong with them', which in itself is a judgment/condemnation.
And judgments always come from a place of arrogance, wherein we have a certain opinion about what is 'right' and 'wrong' in the world, an opinion that we obviously learned and copied from somewhere, that we are trying to impose on reality and all the beings in reality - yet it is this arrogance, of believing that we 'know' what this world is all about and how we should deal with things in this reality based on our desire to 'do good' and 'do the right thing' according to our ideas of 'right' and 'wrong', that in fact blinds us from ever seeing why things exist the way they do in this reality in the first place, things such as the 'Anorexia'-phenomenon. This then leads to us trying to force what is going on in this world to comply to and fit into our idea and belief of 'what it should be', just like we try to force these girls to eat so they can become 'normal' again and live a 'normal life' just like the rest of us, which then doesn't actually work and in most cases we only make it worse as we don't actually have a real understanding of why this 'problem' exists in the first place, because we're not really interested in that.
We're not interested in really investigating this world to truly understand exactly what is going on and why, we only do our investigations from the starting point of already seeing that which we're investigating as 'wrong', 'bad' and 'a problem that needs to be fixed' which implies that we already have an idea in our minds of 'how it should be'. Though this just comes from a misplaced desire to play god over reality, which is the very same desire that led girls into deliberately starving their own body - the desire for power and control. It seems that we are not aware that in fact, in our judging and condemning these girls and trying to get them to change their ways, we are doing exactly the same as what they are doing, which is to try and exert power and control over the physical reality, we do unto them what they are doing unto themselves, and in that we are subconsciously living as the example and thus being the very cause and reason why they would think that it is ok to do this in the first place.
To get back to the above stated 'Ana-code', what comes through within the words is that the whole point of Anorexia seems to be the desire for perfection, the desire to push themselves, the desire to work hard and precise which are actually really cool qualities however what they seem to have done is use these qualities from the starting point of wanting to punish themselves because apparently "I believe that I am the most vile, worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet, and that I am totally unworthy of anyone's time and attention." This is actually the ego, where all the attention goes to themselves and they are stuck in this one emotional/energetic experience wherein the rest of the world simply gets fazed out and all that matters is how they feel inside and them being able to experience this energetic experience of self-punishment.
We all have this point of ego, as the belief that our inner experiences are the center-point of the whole of reality, where some will exert their anger and frustration unto others, and others will do this towards themselves. This is in fact the reason why there exist starvation and poverty in this world, as human beings that have forcibly been put into this position of being completely neglected and pushed aside to literally rot by the rest of the world, as the rest of humanity is too busy only noticing themselves and how they personally feel about themselves and reality, which doesn't in any way have anything to do with what is actually really going on in this world.
This is so nicely demonstrated by these Ana-girls, because these are girls that 'have it all' in this world, they often come from rich families and enjoy all the comfort they need in this world to live a dignified life. However, through the emotional relationship with their family, they got completely consumed with a certain emotional/energetic/reactive experience within themselves wherein they don't see the bigger picture of this reality, all they see is themselves and their personal emotional experiences/reactions to their personal environment. An environment that obviously programmed them into thinking/believing that all that matters in this world is themselves and how they feel within, instead of teaching them to see the bigger picture of this world and to thus use their qualities and talents of self-determination and dedication to assist and support this world to become a world that is best for all, where all living beings may live in dignity.
What the existence of Anorexia shows us, is just how self-involved and ego-centric we as humanity have allowed ourselves to become - to have on one side human beings that are being forced into starvation and suffering and on the other side human beings that starve their own body within and as some kind of personal power-trip, while they have all the money, food, clothes and comfort of this world at their disposal - and not once has it crossed their minds that how they personally feel about their own body is completely irrelevant compared to what is going on in this world and what is required of us to create a solution, a way in which all human beings may enjoy this comfort.
What is clear is that Anorexia is a disease of self-interest, which we are all infected by, it is a result that is produced by who we as humans have allowed ourselves to become in this world, which is completely self-interested beings that are consumed with and by the ego of the mind as that which makes us feel like our personal thoughts, feelings and emotions are what is most important in this entire world, without ever noticing the consequences that such an attitude is creating in the physical reality. Watch the documentary 'Century of Self' to gain a broader perspective on how the ego of the human has been fed into who we believe ourselves to be today.
Investigate Desteni if/when you realize that it is time to get real and to stop the lie of self-interest that we have been living as throughout time, as that which has created such atrocities as the polarity of starvation and anorexia - and to dare yourself to stop the ego of the mind and start caring about this world.
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