Saying "I Love you" is my Greatest Weapon!

I've noticed something interesting with certain people and how they express themselves in the comments on my Youtube-Vlogs, even I used to do this as well and it is only now that I came to realize what this specific way of expressing is all about.

To demonstrate, I will use comments that someone posted on my vlog "2012 Is David Icke the result of Consumerism":

"In my view, that is robbing from others the need to develop their own system of discernment. Nonetheless, I come back to my original statement. I feel you are a person with a very good heart who wants to promote a better world. I am only suggesting that there may be better uses of your time and energy in doing so. May the One Beyond All Names bless you in all ways !!! "

Here in this comment, he is clearly not agreeing with what I said/did in my video, yet he then goes and says "may the one beyond all names bless you in all ways!!!", which is like saying that 'my ways' are OK and good as they apparently should be 'blessed' by 'the one beyond all names', which is completely contradictory with everything else that he said wherein he certainly did not agree with 'my ways', I would even call this 'hypocritical'.

 "Hence, in the midst of the current chaos and pain in the world, let's IMagine a better version and do all we can to embody and promote our vision ... And do less mud slinging, in an attempt to caution others to "tune out" to someone else's message. Don't get me wrong ... I respect your opinion ... It is more that it baffles me why you feel the need to produce this kind of video to assert your opinion out into the world as a way to convince others to "see the light"?"

Again here, he clearly indicates in his words that he does not agree with what I am 'doing' in my video, which according to him is 'mud slinging', and presents a 'better way' when he says "let's IMagine a better version and do all we can do to embody and promote our vision", yet then he goes over to saying that he "respects my opinion", which is again basically saying that what I said/did in my video is ok and good and all right, contradictory with what he actually mentioned in the beginning of his comment.

"Dear Friend ... We are not "connecting" ... And I do not feel that you understand anything I am saying. Instead you seem to interpret everything as an "attack" on a idea that you feel is so vital, so you have to STAND UP for this truth ... Whether you believe it or not I am actually a Being who has committed my whole life to contributing my part to give birth to A New Way of Being where poverty and starvation and abuse is eradicated. Again, I send to you Love and Light ... We have the same goal."

He makes it really difficult to take anything he says seriously because he says that we "have the same goal" yet at the same time I apparently don't understand anything that he is saying and we are 'not connecting'. then how could we 'have the same goal'? Either he doesn't fully understand his own goal or he doesn't understand mine because if we really did 'have the same goal', there would be no discussion/disagreement.

So all this basically reveals is that he is not certain of his 'goal', which is probably because his goal is of a self-interested nature and not so 'noble' as 'committing his whole life to contributing his part to give birth to A New Way of Being where poverty and starvation and abuse is eradicated'. When it comes to doing what is best for all life in this world, and to thus truly stop poverty and starvation, there is only one road/way to get to that 'goal', and the other road/way is self-interest. So it is not possible to disagree with someone and at the same time 'have the same goal', you are either self-honest and stand/live as what is best for all life or you are self-dishonest and choose self-interest in the form of the 'freedom of choice'.

The only thing that I can see from this person is that he is just not willing to realize that he has taken the road/way of self-interest and thus cannot be clear to me when disagreeing with me, by still 'sending me Love and Light' and wanting 'the one beyond all names to bless me in all ways' -- if he really cared about stopping poverty, starvation and abuse in this world no matter what, he would realize that there is only one way to do that, the way of common sense, the way of stopping all illusions/delusions of the mind under the guise of 'free choice', and he would be clear about what he will allow and what he will not allow because he would see what is real/common sense and what is not/mind-bullshit and because he would realize that the only way to get the human being to wake up and stand up in this world is to expose the self-interested mind-bullshit of every human so all may stand up and take responsibility for this world to direct it to a world that is best for all, and not by 'sending Love and Light' and 'blessings' to everyone even if/when you don't agree with what they say/do as that would actually be supporting the abuse in the world.

"I don't believe that you understood, heard, or appreciate anything I said. I rarely comment - yet for some reason felt divinely directed to do so. What I hear in your responses is this. You feel as you feel. So Be It. BTW, I cannot speak for D. Icke, because I do not live in his skin. But, I AM NOT someone who just cares about myself, my thoughts,my feelings. But, I don't feel the need to convince you of that. May the One Beyond All Names bless you in all things. Sending you Love and Light."

"I can feel that you have a very good heart. What I do not understand is why you (and many others) feel compelled to find the "glitches" in what other good-hearted people are doing in the world and then beating this drum of interpretation so that others will recognize the limitations in person "x". We ALL operate in the world with some form of "filter", because not one of us can possibly understand or comprehend the WHOLE cosmic picture while in human form."

"This will be my last comment: I Love you, and wish for you the best."

  How is saying "I love you" the Greatest Weapon in this case? Because it protects those that say it, for instance this person that commented on my vlog, from being exposed to their own self-interested nature. Because if he were to be clear about where he stands (does he agree with me or does he disagree with me?), he would actually have to look at himself and his standing point and be faced with who he really is and where he really stands.

But by saying that he sends me Love, Light and Blessings and that I have a good heart, he is covering up the fact that he actually doesn't like what I said in my video and that he did not agree with it, thus muddling his real 'goal'/intention/standing point for himself and all others, so that he could happily and blissfully continue his self-interested ways wherein 'everything is ok' and 'everyone has the freedom to express themselves' even when what people say/do is contradictory to what is best for all and is only adding to the abuse and ignorance in this world. You cannot change the world into a Heaven on earth for all and still allow others to freely abuse their environment by not taking the rest of the world into consideration within their expression, you'd be shooting yourself in the foot!

So if you say that you want to change the world and stop poverty, starvation and abuse yet still promote/allow/support Free Choice as in the Freedom for human beings to preach whatever personal mind-bullshit they like to others as if it is 'the truth' and 'the solution' to this world, you just prove yourself to not be interested in actually investigating this world and what is being presented to us as the apparent 'answers' and 'solutions' by for instance David Icke or any other New Age Guru so as to make sure that what they present truly is assisting and supporting humanity in stopping all abuse and changing the world to provide a dignified life for all.

You obviously just want to continue believing that you are 'committing your whole life to contributing your part to give birth to A New Way of Being where poverty and starvation and abuse is eradicated' within whatever you are doing in your life here on earth so that you can feel as though what you do is benevolent in order to feel good about yourself - and in that also supporting this deception in others who believe themselves to be benevolent and 'saviors of humanity' in their own personal way of life/living as well, with which you will simply 'agree to disagree', and all you've done within this is support the other person's illusion of 'being right' so they would support your illusion of 'being right' thus basically making the line between what is 'right' and what is 'wrong' blurry because apparently 'everyone has the right to speak their mind' and be respected for it and live their life according to 'their own system of discernment'.

In other words, what is revealed in these words is a lack of integrity, principle and morality as a clear standing within and as the awareness of what is in fact 'right' (as in 'best for all') and what is 'wrong' (as in 'not best for all'), which is actually the basic idea that has been promoted by consumerism within the point of 'individuality' and 'power to the individual', as now everyone has their 'own system of discernment', their own personal value-system where basically 'anything goes' and 'everything is ok'.

Watch the BBC documentaries 'Century of Self' and 'The Trap' to assist and support yourself in understanding and realizing how this whole glorified concept of 'freedom of choice' and 'freedom of speech' has been perverted by corporations and governments to turn the human being into the ultimate robot of self-interest that will never actually stand up in this world and change the world to what is clearly best for all life but that will rather be whisked away by beautiful ideas and inner experiences wherein they can personally FEEL like the hero/savior/'benevolent being of Light and Love' yet not actually doing what is necessary to be done to make this 'Love' visible in this world.

This is why 'feelings' have been put on a pedestal during the last decades, with the uprising of the 'New Age' - because feelings are easily manipulated/molded/directed to make beings FEEL powerful and special within themselves so they wouldn't notice just how dis-empowered and insignificant they really are in terms of making a difference in this world.


Only within living by Principle, as the principle of stopping all abuse and dishonesty in this world and only doing what is best for all in every moment in every way, can we make sure that this world actually become a world that is best for all living beings. Because it is an illusion to assume, think, hope and believe that the world will change by itself and that you can thus simply keep on 'agreeing to disagree' with everyone, without you actually standing as the living solution, as what you will and will not allow here on this earth within yourself or another.


Investigate Desteni, where we learn to walk within this world by principle of doing what is best for all in every moment in every way as we realize that that is the only way a world that is best for all will ever become a reality - if and when we do not allow anything less of ourselves or anyone else but who they really are as life itself as the living statement of what is best for all as oneness and equality. Listen to this interview "Freedom of Choice and Equal Money" by Bernard Poolman for more perspective on how what we see/experience as 'Free Choice' today has consequences that are not at all understood by Humanity. 

2012 The Secret Deception of Science

Science has evolved immensely over the last century, in terms of it being able to explain pretty much everything about how our body works and how the entire physical universe works. Science has been able to prove beyond a doubt that everything about ourselves and about reality is able to be explained - all emotions, feelings, thoughts, as things that many of us experience to be 'magical', mystical and inexplicable as the apparent 'magic' and 'mystery' of the human existence. Nothing but chemicals, hormones, neurotransmitters, neuronal pathways in the brain and glandular excretion, as proven by Science.

We are nothing but physical systems that function together and that results in the experience of ourselves as how we experience ourselves daily, just like nature and animals is nothing but a system that all functions together like a well oiled machine that is 'life'.

However there is a point about/within science that we have come to simply accept yet have never realized to be quite strange. There is a major contradiction in our trusted scientific way of looking at life that has seemed to have gone unnoticed for quite a while.

Science will tell and prove us that literally everything about ourselves is part of a machine/system that is the physical human body wherein everything about who we think we are is able to be examined and read as physical processes - yet have a look, at the same time science will also tell us that it is 'normal' that 'we' as a 'being' have no clue of what goes on inside ourselves as our body and thus we need doctors and scientists to tell us what is going on with our body. We must trust doctors and scientists at all times because they have all the knowledge and information about how the physical reality operates. Though doesn't this all trike you as contradictory?

If we really are the physical body as part of the physical reality as all that exists here, then wouldn't it in fact be natural and normal for us to be completely aware of what goes on within ourselves as the physical? In fact it would even be natural and normal for us to be able to heal ourselves as, according to science, we ARE the physical body. So then what is up with science creating a separation between 'us' as a being and 'the physical' without expanding any further on who we are? Because, if we are not the physical, then who/what/where are we?

What science has done here looks exactly like what religion does, to tacitly imply that the human is somehow 'more' than what exists here as the physical, though not making an effort or being able to pinpoint what that 'more' is exactly. Yet, contrary to religion, science seems to be more deceptive within this, by claiming that they consider the human to be only the physical body as what can be seen, touched, and proven within this physical existence/experience of ourselves here on earth, yet at the same time implicitly feeding us the idea that we as beings actually have nothing to do with the physical reality and thus have no way of ever being able to grasp/see/understand what is going on inside our human body or in this physical reality and so apparently we need doctors and scientists to tell us what is going on inside of ourselves.

What the hell is going on here? Why has this question never been asked of 'who are we' if not the physical? 'who are we' if not what science has proven to be 'who we are' as the physical processes that make up the human body and the entire experience of ourselves within ourselves? Why is their aim to get us to believe ourselves to be 'more than' or 'different from' the physical body by making it clear that there is no way that we would ever be able to be aware of anything that goes on inside of the body without a doctor/scientist telling us - when at the same time they will reject and scoff any being that professes the spiritual/religious viewpoint of the human apparently being 'more than' this physical realm, as if to say that to believe that we are 'more' is utter bullcrap and not to be taken seriously?!

And most importantly, why have they not expanded their investigation as to asking themselves the question of why the human has over time separated itself from itself as what it really is as a physical body, by believing that it is in some way 'more than' the physical, when in reality, even this idea of being 'more than' is a system of the mind that also exists within the body? Why is science only supporting this apparent separation in spite of the obvious evidence that it has gathered about who the human really is as 'just' a physical system?

could it perhaps have something to do with money? Could it be that science, scientists and doctors, contrary to what it tries to make itself out to be, doesn't really care about this world or about the human being and that it only serves one true God that is MONEY, as the God that all of us that exist here in this world must bow down to, the God that can make or break us in this world?

Could it be a possibility that there is a profit to be made within science - as a convenient tool to herd the humans towards the doctors, hospitals and pharmacies within their fear of themselves as the body as they believe themselves to be completely separated from the body AND the mind as what scientists have been tacitly conveying by pushing the pharmaceutical industry as the apparent solution to malfunctions in the physical system that they themselves have proven to exist within and as the human physical body, instead of stopping to consider the common sense that there would be endless possibilities of what the human would be capable of if made to realize themselves AS the physical body, to move and exist as ONE and EQUAL with and as the physical human body, within and as complete awareness of themselves AS the physical reality.

It is quite a clever scheme to render the human being helpless, hopeless and powerless by blowing their mind with knowledge and information about themselves as the physical body and then implicitly getting them to believe that they exist in complete separation, nay, as an utter victim of what they just found out to be the vast universe of the human body and its functions - losing all sense or awareness of themselves AS the body. Wherein the human then actually will start to believe that it is somehow 'natural' and 'normal', according to science, to not have a fucking clue of what goes on within the body as if the body is not they THEMSELVES - and in this they have even allowed themselves  to be trained to automatically reject everything and anything that dares question their precious new religion of science as the apparent pinnacle of rationality and 'reality', herein unfortunately ignoring the obvious contradictions and aberrations.


If one dig into the accepted values and ideas of 'what is real' in this world with a genuine interest to truly find out what the hell is going on in this world, one would find many 'curiosities' that eventually prove themselves to even be deceptive as a result of a money system that forces human beings to turn against each other and manipulate, cheat and deceive in the most subtle ways, all in the name of personal survival and supporting ones own family.

Religion and spirituality is no different - they offer nice explanations and messages of light, love and understanding that are apparently benevolent, yet for one that dare to scratch the surface and consider common sense, there are obvious contradictions in all these messages.

Investigate Desteni if you are willing to consider finding out the truth about this reality for yourself and scratching the surface of what we have always been presented with as 'the truth' by the generally accepted institutions of this world - Desteni is a group of beings that are determined to find real, lasting and effective solutions to bring about a world that is best for all living beings and to find out what is really going on in this world within asking themselves the question of 'why have we never been able to simply change this world into one where all life is supported equally within stopping starvation and poverty?'. The answers and solutions prove themselves to be so simple that it becomes more and more obvious that humanity has been deliberately abdicating their responsibility for this world by hiding behind the apparent 'complexity' of reality as apparently proven by 'science'.

Also investigate Equal Money to discover just how simple the solution can be.

 

                                                                              Art by Cameron Cope    
                                                 

2012 The Ana Creed and the Self Interest of Starvation

                                                               Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo



The Following is the 'Ana Creed' that I found on the web, a 'Code' that those with Anorexia can identify with and use to motivate them in their quest to starvation:

I believe in control, the only force mighty enough to bring order in the chaos that is my world.

I believe that I am the most vile, worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet, and that I am totally onworthy of anyone's time and attention.

I believe in oughts, musts and shoulds, as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behaviour.

I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.

I believe in salvation trough starvation.

I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of god, and memorise then accordingly.

I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily succeses and failures.

I believe in hell, cause sometimes I think I live in it.

I believe in a wholly black an withe world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the alonegation of the body and a life ever fasting.

In this blog I do not in any way want or try to condemn the 'Ana-lifestyle', I will just be looking at the peculiarity of its existence. I am aware that to judge or condemn something that exists in this world, is to prevent yourself from actually getting to know this world and why certain things exist.

The mistake that many people make who want to 'help' girls that 'suffer' from Anorexia, people like parents, teachers and psychologists, is that they judge and condemn what is happening to these girls, or rather what these girls are doing to themselves. They then force the girl to get treatment in some mental Institution or to go see a therapist - which is all based on this idea that 'there is something wrong with them', which in itself is a judgment/condemnation.

And judgments always come from a place of arrogance, wherein we have a certain opinion about what is 'right' and 'wrong' in the world, an opinion that we obviously learned and copied from somewhere, that we are trying to impose on reality and all the beings in reality - yet it is this arrogance, of believing that we 'know' what this world is all about and how we should deal with things in this reality based on our desire to 'do good' and 'do the right thing' according to our ideas of 'right' and 'wrong', that in fact blinds us from ever seeing why things exist the way they do in this reality in the first place, things such as the 'Anorexia'-phenomenon. This then leads to us trying to force what is going on in this world to comply to and fit into our idea and belief of 'what it should be', just like we try to force these girls to eat so they can become 'normal' again and live a 'normal life' just like the rest of us, which then doesn't actually work and in most cases we only make it worse as we don't actually have a real understanding of why this 'problem' exists in the first place, because we're not really interested in that.

We're not interested in really investigating this world to truly understand exactly what is going on and why, we only do our investigations from the starting point of already seeing that which we're investigating as 'wrong', 'bad' and 'a problem that needs to be fixed' which implies that we already have an idea in our minds of 'how it should be'. Though this just comes from a misplaced desire to play god over reality, which is the very same desire that led girls into deliberately starving their own body - the desire for power and control. It seems that we are not aware that in fact, in our judging and condemning these girls and trying to get them to change their ways, we are doing exactly the same as what they are doing, which is to try and exert power and control over the physical reality, we do unto them what they are doing unto themselves, and in that we are subconsciously living as the example and thus being the very cause and reason why they would think that it is ok to do this in the first place.


To get back to the above stated 'Ana-code', what comes through within the words is that the whole point of Anorexia seems to be the desire for perfection, the desire to push themselves, the desire to work hard and precise which are actually really cool qualities however what they seem to have done is use these qualities from the starting point of wanting to punish themselves because apparently "I believe that I am the most vile, worthless an useless person ever have to existed on this planet, and that I am totally unworthy of anyone's time and attention." This is actually the ego, where all the attention goes to themselves and they are stuck in this one emotional/energetic experience wherein the rest of the world simply gets fazed out and all that matters is how they feel inside and them being able to experience this energetic experience of self-punishment.


We all have this point of ego, as the belief that our inner experiences are the center-point of the whole of reality, where some will exert their anger and frustration unto others, and others will do this towards themselves. This is in fact the reason why there exist starvation and poverty in this world, as human beings that have forcibly been put into this position of being completely neglected and pushed aside to literally rot by the rest of the world, as the rest of humanity is too busy only noticing themselves and how they personally feel about themselves and reality, which doesn't in any way have anything to do with what is actually really going on in this world.

This is so nicely demonstrated by these Ana-girls, because these are girls that 'have it all' in this world, they often come from rich families and enjoy all the comfort they need in this world to live a dignified life. However, through the emotional relationship with their family, they got completely consumed with a certain emotional/energetic/reactive experience within themselves wherein they don't see the bigger picture of this reality, all they see is themselves and their personal emotional experiences/reactions to their personal environment. An environment that obviously programmed them into thinking/believing that all that matters in this world is themselves and how they feel within, instead of teaching them to see the bigger picture of this world and to thus use their qualities and talents of self-determination and dedication to assist and support this world to become a world that is best for all, where all living beings may live in dignity.


What the existence of Anorexia shows us, is just how self-involved and ego-centric we as humanity have allowed ourselves to become - to have on one side human beings that are being forced into starvation and suffering and on the other side human beings that starve their own body within and as some kind of personal power-trip, while they have all the money, food, clothes and comfort of this world at their disposal  - and not once has it crossed their minds that how they personally feel about their own body is completely irrelevant  compared to what is going on in this world and what is required of us to create a solution, a way in which all human beings may enjoy this comfort.




What is clear is that Anorexia is a disease of self-interest, which we are all infected by, it is a result that is produced by who we as humans have allowed ourselves to become in this world, which is completely self-interested beings that are consumed with and by the ego of the mind as that which makes us feel like our personal thoughts, feelings and emotions are what is most important in this entire world, without ever noticing the consequences that such an attitude is creating in the physical reality. Watch the documentary 'Century of Self' to gain a broader perspective on how the ego of the human has been fed into  who we believe ourselves to be today.






Investigate Desteni if/when you realize that it is time to get real and to stop the lie of self-interest that we have been living as throughout time, as that which has created such atrocities as the polarity of starvation and anorexia - and to dare yourself to stop the ego of the mind and start caring about this world.

Have we allowed Child-Abuse to be the Chronicle of Life?

I just finished watching the movie 'chronicle', wherein a few boys receive superpowers from some magical crystal that they discovered.

One of those boys gets physically and verbally abused by his father at home and throughout the movie, you see him evolve while he explores his newly found power of telekinesis from feeling more secure about himself because he suddenly receives positive attention for his 'talents' and has a group of friends that support him in his self discovery to a being that starts to use his power on other beings to exert his rage build-up from years and years of abuse in his own house and in school from the other children.

The movie ends where his own friend had to kill him because he was becoming so destructive within his power that he was literally demolishing the entire city of New York.


A point that came up when seeing the situation of this kid with his family, of being abused by his father, is that this is actually a point that is being tacitly accepted as reality by all of humanity. We seem to be ok with this shit happening in children's lives, because we agree with parents not needing any training to prove themselves worthy of parenthood and to prove themselves as respectful, trustworthy beings that can actually take care of and responsibility for the upbringing of a child in this world. We call this 'the freedom of choice' that is the apparent gift of humanity as that which makes us 'human' and gives us apparent 'freedom of expression' wherein we can apparently 'be ourselves' - which is justified all around and glorified as 'the human experience' even in the face of the abuse that it produces behind closed doors in families all around the world.

The very fact that we are aware that this actually happens in this world to children, when seeing it portrayed in a movie like 'chronicles' and that all we do is shrug our shoulders and say 'oh well, it's not cool but who am I to stop or question this?' - only shows that we don't care about what happens to children, we don't care about what happens to life because we are not willing to stop child-abuse and because we actually then attempt to justify this by coming up with excuses that basically all stem from the fear within human beings of losing their own free choice, because they think 'well, if we're going to stop parents from abusing their children like this, then I will have to start answering for my own behavior in my own life as well' and we don't want that because we know that what we do towards our children is for the most part abusive - due to the simple fact that we don't actually know what we are doing. We don't understand the consequences of our actions as we just go about doing what we think and believe is 'right' and 'good', but which we never actually investigate or truly look at from the perspective of making sure that we are truly doing what is best for the child in fact, because in essence it is all an act that we hide the true nature of 'raising children' in this world behind, which is the opportunity that parents have to abuse, to feel powerful and to experience power and control as they have this being or beings at their disposal that they can mold and shape in their own image and likeness - having children in this world is the ultimate power-trip for human beings to feel like and experience themselves as 'God'... and this is the only reason why parenthood does not happen out in the open and why we don't as humanity collectively make all parents answer for their actions towards their children to make sure that each child in fact actually receives the proper care  and support.

And the fact that there does not exist a 'parent-course' and 'parent-curriculum' that serves to correct parents and guide parents into effective parenthood, is only PROOF that we have got something to hide -- as we are not willing to look at what it is that we are doing to our children and will immediately attack anything that so much as suggests any form of control within raising children, because 'they are trying to take away our precious free choice', which is obviously nothing but the 'freedom' to abuse as this 'free choice' is what happens behind closed doors in the secret confinements of family.

And then you have the general attitude that parents take on of believing that they are a 'good parent' and a 'good person' because they are apparently not abusing their child and they are making an effort to not abuse their child - wherein they then compare themselves with the apparent 'bad parents' that ARE abusive towards their children. Yet they don't realize that their behavior towards their own child and the way they raise their own child is NOT VALID if they do not treat ALL CHILDREN in the same way. I mean, how can you expect your child to respect you and respect what you are trying to share with them and teach them about what is 'right' when you are not even consistent in your words and actions as you will not apply what you believe to be 'right' to ALL of reality - this in itself proves that all your principles are not in fact real and that you as the 'good person' that you believe yourself to be are not in fact real.

To keep 'parenthood' limited to only two people as the 'biological parents' and grandparents is not what is best for the child, it is only within a self-interested starting point of the parents where they want to play god over the children -- which is also the reason why in many families you will have arguments and discussions and manipulation playing out between parents as both parents want to raise the child in THEIR WAY, in THEIR image and likeness to be able to experience the most power and control within themselves, wherein they experience the other parent to be getting in the way of their personal plans for THEIR child.

The most effective parenthood that is best for the child is within the openness of a community, where all grown ups realize their equal responsibility for all children within the community. I mean obviously the child still lives with their biological parents, however within the raising of the child, the parent may not have any feelings of jealousy or ownership or greed within sharing responsibility over the child, wherein they would attempt to keep others away from THEIR child, because all of these emotional and feeling experiences only have to do with the personal desires of the parent and do not consider what is in fact best for the child itself. There is no other reason why parents would want to keep the way they raise their children hidden and secret within their own family and home than self-interest wherein they strive for a feeling of OWNERSHIP over their child, wherein the child becomes their POSSESSION as they become possessed with the feeling of power and control that they have over this being.

Within a community, there is a healthy aspect that is called 'social control', not in the form of policing but within everyday interaction between the beings within the community, where abusive beings are easily picked up and forced/supported/suggested to correct themselves because a community cannot work when there are some beings that are trying to use and abuse other beings for their own personal desires -- that is individualism and the attitude of consumerism that is the illness of the current human that is becoming more and more used to complete isolation and secretism from everyone else and is going further and further away from the realization that in fact the earth is a grand community of beings that need each other and influence each other in their everyday actions and thus would or could not possibly be able to function effectively if there is no mutual respect and consideration. (see the documentary 'The Trap' for further understanding of this phenomenon)



To stop Child-Abuse we have to first establish our starting-point to stand as a respectful and trustworthy being that is dedicated to bring about a world that is best for all. Investigate Desteni and find support in starting your process of stopping the mind and birthing yourself as Life.

System Design of The Whiner

At first Glance, I wouldn't exactly define or describe myself as a 'whiner', because I never openly nag, complain or whine about anything. In fact, I keep very much to myself. However, I do remember that I was a HUGE whiner when I was little, especially towards my father. I remember that my father often wanted me to do all sorts of stuff that I really didn't want to do, but for him it was 'fun' and 'healthy', and he just wanted me to live a normal and healthy life, so he signed me into all sorts of sports-camps and sports clubs and the Scouts to make sure that his children will be accepted by society, that they will look and act healthily. But this just made me completely resist everything and anything that he wanted me to do, I started HATING sports and I HATED going to the Scouts, and being there with all the other children, because to me it was completely forced, like I was going on prison-camp and I didn't know what the fuck my dad  expected of me and why I was there because it wasn't out of my own Free Will. All the while that I was there, I was only thinking about me HAVING to be there, because my dad forced me - so I remember me often sitting on the side lines, feeling horrible, moaning and whining within myself about how much I just didn't want to be there and how my dad doesn't care about me, blablabla. Feeling like a victim of the entire situation.

So from the moment that I could decide for myself, I stopped sports and Scouts, because all I could remember or pick up from it was that it was a horrible experience like a torture to be around those other children, having to play all those games of pushing and pulling and getting footballs flung to my head. lol

So, within this, I kind of developed a personality-suit of being a whiner, someone who always feels like the victim and who always believes that she is forced into everything by other people - constantly feeling inferior, helpless and powerless - within massive BLAME towards all the people around me. Because I felt as though I HAD TO whine to get what I wanted, to get my dad to consider what I was saying. I had to make it seem as though I really am the victim of some major torture that he is putting me through and that I am in serious pain and suffering - to get him to listen to what I wanted to do and to stop him from trying to get me to do all this shit that I really didn't want to do and of which I didn't even know or see why I had to do them.

And although, through growing up, I developed a personality of presenting/projecting myself as a strong person that DOESN'T WHINE (apparently), inside of myself I experienced myself in a constant state of 'why me?!!' lol
I even went into depression once because I didn't get the attention I wanted from a boy that I really liked. I didn't get what I wanted so I went into major whine-mode and even thought about killing myself, losing myself completely within absolute self-pity.

I remember also using the whining-card on my mom, when she once got really angry with me and I was afraid that she would throw me out of the house. So, I immediately started to 'break down' and cry, saying things like 'I don't know what is happening to me' 'I don't know why I am doing this' 'I am just trying to do my best' 'I don't know what is wrong with me' - which was definitely my low-point because within that, I was abdicating any and all responsibility for my actions, completely reducing myself to being an inferior being and the apparent victim of my own mind. She immediately gave me a hug and tried to comfort me, but I felt really disgusted with myself because I knew what I was doing, that I was manipulating her because I feared to lose something that I thought I needed and thus used manipulation, as the technique that I had developed throughout my life, to get what I wanted.

I lost respect for myself because I had allowed myself to reduce myself to such an inferior expression of blaming everyone for how I experienced myself instead of taking responsibility for myself



Also within this process - I have noticed that whenever I am being faced with a transcendence point, and the experience of resistance comes up as a fear within myself and thoughts of 'this is too big, I can't do this', I tend to go with the fear and distract myself by giving into some desire by actually believing that I am a victim of my own experience of fear, a victim of this world.



i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to whine and exist within and as the construct of the whiner within and as the belief that i am the victim of reality as my environment

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to whine within myself whenever I experience fear of doing something to create the idea within myself that it is really too difficult as an attempt to create an excuse for myself to not do it

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that i am the victim of my fears of reality

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create excuses and justifications within myself whenever i experience fear of doing something, to not actually do it

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotional experience of self pity wherein i confirm to myself that i am an apparent victim of my experience of reality, of my thoughts, feelings and emotional experiences as how i have allowed myself to be programmed during childhood by my parents - as i noticed that whining within and as self-pity was the only way that i could get what i wanted from my parents

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use whining within and as the rotten child syndrome that i have allowed to be programmed into me, to get my reward from my environment as i noticed that whining was a technique that i could use with which i could manipulate my environment into giving me what i want

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself within and as the whiner-system design

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate my environment through participating in whining and self-pity

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop whining and the emotional experience of self-pity within myself as a reaction to a situation wherein i don't get MY WAY to attempt to manipulate and control my environment to get what i want and to have things MY WAY

i forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to grow up to become an ego as the desire to at all times have things MY WAY and only want to fulfill personal desires wherein i do not hesitate to take advantage of another being and abuse another being just to get what i want - wherein i have constructed various mechanisms of manipulation within myself of 'dealing with my environment' to in every situation get what I want and have things MY WAY

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have failed to see and realize that i have been programmed by my environment within and as the reward system wherein i have allowed myself to become programmed to only be motivated to move myself in this world by self-interest as the promise of receiving a reward, wherein i act within a complete lack of principles, morality or respect for anything or anyone only driven by a self-interested desire to get a reward as something that will make me feel good inside like the candy and sweets and presents that i got from my parents and family when my behavior pleased them

and thus i forgive myself that i haven't allowed myself to see and realize that my entire identity as my thoughts, feelings and emotions as who i have always believed myself to be, is nothing more than the result of the rotten child syndrome that i have allowed to be programmed into me by my parents and family that is all only motivated by the self-interested desire to get my reward as a good feeling, wherein i am completely fixated, obsessed and consumed by wanting things MY WAY

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use whining and the emotional experience of self-pity as a manipulation technique towards my father as my way of getting him to give me what i wanted, wherein i was only focused and obsessed with this one point of self-interest within myself and did not see or consider the bigger picture of this entire reality as what is going on HERE

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pity myself when a situation doesn't go MY WAY and when i don't get the attention and recognition that i want and desire from other people, as an attempt to control the situation by trying to play into other people's emotions and feelings towards me to still get what i want and to thus not take responsibility for myself within the situation, within and as the justification and excuse that i am a victim of the situation and am thus not responsible for how i experience myself -- instead of realizing that i have allowed myself to define myself within and as the ego of the mind as self-interest as the rotten child syndrome as the belief that i MUST get my reward at all times as how i have allowed myself to be programmed

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to be programmed by the self-interested nature of my parents as who/what they have allowed themselves to become as I allowed myself to become programmed within the reward system that has taught me to only consider my own personal feelings and desires and do anything and everything to get the reward, which was then also supported by the educational and economical systems within society as my environment wherein everything is designed within creating 'prizes' and 'rewards' to motivate me into buying something, go to the same job everyday and never question what is going on in reality as i was too preoccupied with the constant search and desire for my reward

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing the whining-system to direct and influence me whenever i am facing a point that i experience resistance towards as a point wherein i am faced with the opportunity of change wherein i have to push and walk through the resistance to will myself to change, by allowing myself to give in to resistance due to whining and self-pity as the apparent excuse and justification for my giving up as apparently 'i am too weak to do this on my own' and 'i cannot do this' and 'i can't help it' etcetera

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to thoughts like 'i can't do this' as the whining system that comes up every time i am faced with a point of change that i as the mind experience resistance towards, by allowing myself to give up and give in to resistance - instead of realizing that the whining system as self-pity and thoughts of giving up because apparently 'i am too weak' and ' i cannot do it' is a self-sabotage technique of the ego of the mind wherein i simply don't want to change and thus use the whining system as self-pity to create excuses and justifications within the mind for me to apparently 'justify' me giving up in that moment

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to use the whining system within and as relationships with other people, wherein i exist within and as self-interest and am constantly trying to manipulate other people to get what i want, wherein i have allowed myself to create the illusion/idea/experience within myself that i do not exist alone and am not responsible for myself HERE - instead of realizing that i have designed the experience of myself within and as the whining system as i have allowed myself to be programmed by my parents as a rotten child within and as the belief that i am special and must always get WHAT I WANT

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for not listening to what i wanted and for forcing me to do things that i didn't want to do, thus blaming him for the self-pity and powerlessness that i experienced within myself - instead of realizing that the emotional experience of powerlessness and self-pity is part of an energetic polarity that can only exist if i allow myself to participate in the conflict/battle for power of the ego, wherein i can only feel powerless if i desire to be powerful and thus try to fight for my power and control over my environment with my parents, thus ending up feeling powerless as i could never win this battle

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for my life here on earth by allowing the whining-system as self-pity to exist within myself and by allowing myself to be directed by the whining-system wherein i always immediately give up in any situation wherein i experience a little resistance to manipulate other people so i can get what i want without ever taking responsibility for my life

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fail to see and realize that i AM completely responsible for my existence here on earth and that whining and the emotional experience of self-pity is nothing but the ego of the mind as the system-program that i have allowed to be programmed into me through my childhood-upbringing within my family that have taught me to give my power away to them as they have given their power away to their parents through the reward-system wherein I found that the easiest way to get a reward from my environment was by giving my power away and participating in the whiner-system and self-pity

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define myself within and as giving away my power to my environment within and as the desire for getting rewarded by my environment as what i have allowed to be programmed into me by my parents within the first 7 years of my life

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to define myself within and as the reward system as the constant search and desire for a reward as a positive feeling within myself just like i got rewards when i was a child - wherein i use techniques and tactics that i have developed during childhood to get this reward as what i believe i MUST HAVE

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to still play out manipulation techniques that i have developed during childhood to get a reward from my parents - wherein i limit my expression and experience of myself here in this reality extensively and trap myself within and as the ego of the mind as the system-construct that i have designed for myself  within the first 7 years of my life as reactions to my environment - instead of realizing that the entire ego as the experience of myself within reality is an illusion as it is all based on the illusory world that my parents presented me with as their version of reality that they tried to program me with wherein they tried to design me as their slave within using the reward system, as they did not realize their responsibility towards me and the impact of their actions within my life and the kind of life that i would be living as a play out of what they have imprinted and programmed into me during the first 7 years of my life

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to have failed to see and realize that my entire life experience and the experience of myself within reality in the NOW of consciousness within and as TIME has all completely been designed during the first 7 years of my life as I constructed and built my primary subconscious experiences, thoughts, feelings and emotions as 'my view of myself and reality' that would become the pattern and construct that I would be living out during my entire life-time here in this world, wherein I would be completely confined, limited and trapped within the mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions as the preprogrammed experience of myself within and as reality

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself within my expression and experience of myself within this reality by defining myself within and as the reward system within which i was programmed by my parents during childhood wherein i developed certain 'life-skills' that were only based on 'getting a reward' from my environment the best way i saw how, which is through giving my power away to my environment within participating in the whining-system as self-pity, instead of realizing that the reward system as the desire to feel good within getting a reward from my environment such as money, attention, presents and sweets is not who i really am as it is in fact the system through which my parents have attempted to program me into becoming their slave, so they could control me better, as they never considered the consequences of their behavior resulting in producing rotten children which will grow up to become rotten adults as human beings do not create themselves, just like they have allowed themselves to become the rotten adults as the product and result of their parents not taking responsibility for their actions within and as the upbringing of their children

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to live out a pattern of giving up on myself and going into self-pity whenever experiencing only a slight discomfort, resistance, doubt or insecurity within what i do in my life as a pattern that i have created during childhood within the reward system that i had allowed to be programmed into me by my parents, as a pattern that i would use to best get my desired reward, but which doesn't in any way what so ever have anything to do with reality and with how reality really functions as the reward system was purely and solely created by my parents within the isolated environment of family in their attempt to exert power and control over me, as they did not take any responsibility for the consequences of their actions towards me as how they were programming me to become a spoiled rotten child that would inevitable grow up to become a rotten adult, driven by a constant self-interested seeking/desire for a reward, that essentially does not have any real skills to live as an effective human in this world as a being that actually takes care of this world and all life that is here

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to fail to see and realize that my entire experience of myself within this reality as a whiner and as the emotional experience of self-pity is in fact a lie and an illusion that is completely based on the image/vision of reality that my parents have imprinted and programmed into me during the first 7 years of my life as the reward system wherein they attempted to insert and integrate the pattern of always getting a reward as motivation for my actions in this reality into me as a false survival system that functions within punishment and reward wherein they could play God as if it is actually real, wherein they did not bother to be truthful and honest about what is really going on in reality and how reality actually functions as they themselves have allowed themselves to base all their decisions and actions in this reality on self-interest as how they had allowed themselves to be programmed by their parents before them, ultimately creating slaves themselves as children that would become adults that are in no way equipped, capable, able or skilled to function effectively in this reality as they would base their entire experience of themselves within and as reality on a false survival- and value-system as what they had been programmed with during the first 7 years of their lives by their parents

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to develop 'survival-skills' that are entirely defined within and as the illusion of the reward system as the fear of being punished and the desire to receive a reward, as how i have allowed myself to be programmed by my parents within the first 7 years of my life, as a false value system that is entirely defined and designed by the self-interest of my parents that did not take responsibility for the consequences of their actions within and as the upbringing of their children, and to never realize/see/understand that this 'survival-system' that works within fear and desire is in fact a complete LIE that has been programmed into me by my parents' self-interested search and desire for power and control as how they themselves had allowed themselves to be programmed by their parents

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to become a mind consciousness system as a programmed robot that exist within the mind as a preprogrammed false experience of reality - instead of standing within and as reality, constant and stable within and as the clear understanding and realization of what is in fact real and what is not within and as the absolute awareness of myself as life itself to never allow anything to exist within myself that is of illusion as a programmed experience of and as the mind that does in fact even really exist HERE as reality itself

i forgive myself that i have allowed myself to, in the face of fear, immediately go into emotional reactions of self pity and whining and make up excuses and justifications to not go through the fear and not realizing that i am in fact very able to simply face and walk through the fear to step beyond my self-imposed limitations of the mind - wherein i would rather make a statement that apparently i am 'too limited' to face a point than to unconditionally assist and support myself in transcending all limitation

i forgive myself that i haven't allowed myself to realize when facing a point of fear within myself, when the emotional experience of self pity within and as the belief that 'i am too limited' to face and walk through this point of fear comes up within myself, to breathe through this experience and realize that i had allowed this experience to exist within me as a manipulation technique within and as the false survival- and value-system as the reward system that i have allowed to be programmed into me by my parents and that thus this emotional experience of self-pity and the belief of myself as apparently 'too limited' is an illusion that is based on false reason and a false vision of reality as what i have allowed to be imprinted and programmed into me by my parents within the first 7 years of my life

Redefining Words:

redefining the word 'whining'

Dictionary definition:

whine

1.

to utter a low, usually nasal, complaining cry or sound, as from uneasiness, discontent, peevishness, etc.: The puppies were whining from hunger.

2.

to snivel or complain in a peevish, self-pitying way: He is always whining about his problems.

 

Sounding of the word 'whine':

 

the word 'whine' sounds like 'wine' because when i am whining I start to feel intoxicated/drunk with the inner energetic experience of which i am apparently a victim. Within whining, I sink into a pit/feeling, as in 'drowning in my sorrows', to then 'drown my sorrows' with wine.

Also the word 'whine' sounds 'high - in - e(=energy)', which implies the 'drowning' in my own energy within my participation in whining, wherein i deliberately constantly and continuously regurgitate the same emotions and thoughts over and over again within myself to be able to whine over it, and pity myself, wherein the state of whining becomes like an addiction, as the constant deliberate repetition and surging of the same emotional experience of sadness and thoughts of self-blame and self-judgment within myself

Experience of the word 'whine': 

 

whining is a manipulation technique to get attention from other people within trying to make myself seem like the victim of the situation, of my own feelings, thoughts and emotions. Whining occurs when I don't want to realize my responsibility for my inner experiences within a situation because I don't want to realize that I have allowed myself to become an ego, thus I try to make everything seem a lot worse than it actually is within my mind, so that I can pity myself as an apparent excuse and reason why I cannot/should not get up and take responsibility for myself.

Redefining the word 'whine': 

 

Whining is a self-sabotaging technique of the ego of the mind, that serves to keep me from realizing myself as life as self-responsibility by regurgitating thoughts and emotional experiences of self-blame and self-judgment as self-victimization within myself wherein I attempt to create the illusion that I am a victim of this world/reality, without ever realizing myself as the creator and starting point of thoughts, feelings and emotions. Thus the energetic experience of whining is not in fact real as it is self-created.

 

 

self correction statements:

when and as i see and experience the emotional experience of self-pity as the whining system coming up within myself when facing a point of fear, i stop and breathe and i do not allow myself to go into this experience of self pity as a self-sabotaging technique of the ego of the mind as an attempt to keep myself confined to the limitations of the mind, wherein i am actually only fighting for my limitations - rather i stand up within and as myself to face the point of fear and to assist and support myself within walking through this fear to free myself from any and all perceived limitations of the mind as fear

thus i do not allow myself to go into the emotional experience of self pity and to then give up on myself and on walking my process of stopping the mind within the apparent excuse that 'i am too limited', because I realize that self-pity is in fact a false experience within myself that is entirely defined within and based on the reward system as the false survival- and value-system that i have allowed to be programmed into me by my parents - and i realize that the emotional experience of self pity actually has nothing to do with reality wherein i am ALONE responsible for myself and wherein I as life am responsible for directing this reality to become a reality that is best for all life as me in oneness and equality - whereas the emotional experience of self-pity is of the illusion of the ego as self-interest based living that is not in fact worthy of life

I commit myself to unconditionally assist and support myself to face any and all perceived points of limitation within myself as what i have allowed to exist within myself through having allowed myself to be programmed by family and parents

i commit myself to unconditionally walk the process of completely stopping the illusion of the mind as the program that i have allowed to exist within myself through my upbringing in my specific family because I realize that this program as my specific life experience as memories within and as thoughts, feelings and emotions, is in fact extremely limited and narrow-minded as I have never actually considered the bigger picture through having allowed myself to exist within and as self-interest as programmed by my parents and because i had allowed myself to define myself within and as self interest

I commit myself to walk the process of completely stopping the self-interest that i have allowed to exist within myself as programmed by my parents, because i realize that any and all forms of self interest are in fact a complete lie and illusion of the mind as the program of abuse that has been passed down from generation to generation and to then stand up within and as this reality one and equal with myself as life as what is actually really HERE as NOT A PROGRAM that has a beginning and an end

i commit myself to walk the process of ending all that which has a beginning within and as the realization that all creations that have a beginning, have an end, and are therefore not actually real in the first place - thus assisting and supporting myself unconditionally to get to know myself as life as what is in fact real as i do not allow myself to exist within and as an illusion

i commit myself to researching the consequences of how children are being programmed into the reward system of family and humanity by investigating myself within and as my programming as what i have allowed to exist within myself as humanity, so that i may prove to all that we as humanity have been living out a complete lie as a program that has been passed down from generation to generation and always tacitly been accepted as 'absolute' - and is required to change as it is clearly not benefiting anything or anyone in this reality except those that are standing at the top of the reward system as our monetary system - which is really but a handful of beings that in itself do not hold any power over anything in this world


i commit myself to taking full responsibility for myself HERE within and as myself in each and every moment of breath within and as the realization that i am HERE and that i am thus responsible for all that exist here - therefore i do allow myself to attempt to wash my hands clean of anything that exist

Will you align your aptitude with establishing the altitude of a life that is best for all?

"Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude."

It may seem unnecessary and redundant to examine statements like this because we hear them all the time, especially from our Celebrity New Age Guru's. They are sweet words that are supposed to be some kind of self-empowerment support brought to us by those that apparently 'have a handle on life' or have got something figured out about life and are now so kind to share their 'wisdom' with the rest of us that are 'lost in the maze' of the mind.

However I would definitely like to point out that  it is exactly because we hear them so much to the point that we have come to tacitly accept them as 'wisdom' and 'truth' as it often is uttered by famous or wealthy people, that it is imperative to have a look at it and investigate it from the perspective of not taking reality for granted and truly assisting and supporting ourselves in becoming aware of who we are here within this reality. After all, 'awareness' should not imply that we blindly follow a certain path that is laid out by those that claim to 'have the answers', but that we have the courage to open our eyes and dare to question everything about ourselves and reality that we've come to accept as 'truth', so that we may have a clear standing within ourselves of who we are here and what is going on in reality. 

Thus, we should not allow statements such as this, or any other type of statements that people speak as though it is 'how life is' or 'what reality is', without fully grasping exactly what it is that we would be living out if we were to follow and believe in statements such as the above mentioned.

So, let's take this thing apart to see exactly what is being implied to be lived here:

Your Attitude: An 'attitude' is a word that especially indicates a certain 'state of mind' that is not really dependent or based on anything of this world as a physical reality. Where one person can have a 'positive attitude' towards life/themselves/an object/another person, another can have a 'negative attitude' - thus attitudes in itself are not actually REAL, they are completely formed and created within the individual mind of a person.

Not your Aptitude: The definition of Aptitude:  "ability; innate or acquired capacity for something", "readiness or quickness in learning; intelligence", "the state or quality of being apt; special fitness" (quotes taken from Dictionary.com). So an aptitude refers to a physical ability that can be physically measured in this reality, as something that will in fact determine how well a being will function in this physical reality in terms of how much money they will make and the physical comfort and quality that they will achieve/obtain in their lives here on earth.

Will determine your altitude: The definition of Altitude:  "the height of anything above a given planetary reference plane, especially above sea level on earth". So, practically speaking, the altitude here referred to, is how 'high' a person can go/fly/move.

In a pure, real, physical, practical sense, this statement of "Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude." doesn't make any sense because in reality, it is actually the other way around. In this reality, according to the laws of the physical that govern all that is here, your aptitude and not your attitude, will determine your altitude. You will only be able to climb a mountain, fly or 'build up an empire', if you have the skills, talents, knowledge, language and thus the aptitude within being able to function in this physical reality. A mountain will not move by itself purely by your 'attitude' as a 'state of mind' within yourself wherein you may feel like you are or have climbed a mountain, yet in reality you are actually not.

However, judging by the clear fact that this statement is completely backwards when applied to reality, what it is most likely implying is that it doesn't matter if you can physically climb a mountain and go 'higher', all that matters is that you 'climb' a 'mental mountain' of energetic experience within yourself wherein you FEEL as though you have actually reached or attained or obtained something. All that matters is the FEELING. And yes, within the mind as thoughts and feelings, anything is possible, you do not need the aptitude to have altitude because your attitude will determine the altitude of your energetic experience within yourself, as either negative/low or positive/high.

One big, fat, giant, enormous point that is missed in this statement that seems to be completely reasonable within the realm of the mind, is that if you do not have any aptitude in the physical reality as skills, talents, abilities and capacities, you will never even be able to participate within the minds energetic experiences of perceived altitude within self-created attitude. Just look at those in this world that have no money and thus no education, thus no skills, capacities or capabilities to reach or obtain anything in this world, let alone feed themselves, would they experience much 'altitude' within themselves? Would they even be able to have an 'attitude' about their situation? Wouldn't whether or not they have an attitude about the physical pain that they experience on a daily bases due to undernourishment and bad health, be completely irrelevant as it does not in any way create any change in their lives.

The people that preoccupy their minds with believing and trusting in statements like "Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude." seem to have become so disconnected from the physical reality and lost within the 'ethereal' of the energetic mind reality that is only real when you personally choose to believe that it is, that they don't even realize anymore that they actually need their physical body to even be able to experience the highs and lows as the altitude of the attitude of the inner experience and as long as this physical body is not functioning properly or being cared for properly, you will not even be able to have any kind of attitude about it as you will be too distracted by the pain you are experiencing. The inner experience of every being is determined by the outer experience as the physical reality and not the other way around. 

Sure it is nice to believe that it works the other way around but I have yet to meet a being that is willing to test this theory out and trade places with someone currently starving to death or suffering from severe physical illness.

And lets also not bring people like jesus who walked on water and who, out of his very beingness, multiplied a few loafs of bread into a thousand or like certain munks or spiritual beings in this world who allegedly don't need water or food to live, because that would be nothing but a pathetic attempt to not look at the issues that we are facing within humanity - which is that we are being preoccupied en masse with delusional statements like the one that we have just debunked that glorify the 'inner experience' up to the point where we actually believe that our feelings are what creates reality and not realize that our feelings only create our feeling about reality, but what really creates reality, is reality itself as everything that exist here as the physical existence. And really, if our minds actually would be able to change, alter or influence reality in the way that so many people love to believe, then they wouldn't be here living on the same planet like the rest of us, in the same global mess like all of us. And that is not an 'attitude', that is simply what is going on, it is REALITY. So let's FACE IT!

If you are interested in releasing yourself from the lies that are minds are filled with and face reality so that we can once and for all deal with the problems in this world in real-time practical considerations, then visit http://www.desteni.org, where we focus on creating a world where each living being is supported equally in reaching the altitude of life as what we would want for ourselves. We do not accept a reality where some beings achieve personally experienced 'altitude' while leaving all others to rot without taking any responsibility for their part in this global system of inequality that we call Humanity.

The Rotten Child: The Imposter Pattern

For perspective on the Rotten Child Syndrome, see blog by Bernard Poolman "Day 18: Dementia – The Rotten Child Syndrom"

One pattern within the Rotten Child Syndrome that I have specifically lived out during my childhood and consequentially during adulthood, is the emotional experience of feeling like 'an imposter' within my family/reality. My parents never actually really communicated with me or my brother about anything, I do not remember much talking from either of them towards me. So, while growing up into teenage years, I experienced a LOT of insecurity about my developing female body as if it wasn't supposed to happen to me and as if it was very 'weird' and 'strange' and I experienced myself as very ALONE within the entire process, always comparing myself to other children to make sure that I was still 'normal' and acceptable, as I did not get any feedback from my parents about what I was going through or what was happening to me.

When I first got my period at around twelve years of age, the only information I had received about it was in school during sex education class, so I panicked and felt really ashamed about myself and about telling it to my mother and especially my father. The overall experience during my childhood and during developing and growing into teenage years, was that I was ALONE in everything that was happening to me, that led me to feeling like a 'stranger' and an 'imposter' in reality as this world. I was always watching other children and their interaction with each other and wondered why I wasn't like that, so 'normal' and 'natural', why did I not experience myself in that 'naturally social' way as what I saw in other children.

All I ever experienced around my parents was a sort of 'disconnectedness' due to a lack of communication, wherein I felt 'left' to deal with reality on my own without any sort of guidelines - ultimately getting stuck in a pattern of constant comparison with other children/people as my 'guideline' that came from the experience of insecurity within myself and a search for security and safety and identity in this world, as a feeling of 'belonging'.

I felt as though I was a burden in my father's life because he had his own hobbies and friends, his own 'life' of doing the things that he liked to do, that didn't have anything to do with his family - so he was always off hanging out with his friends or tinkering in his garage on his latest project or helping someone else fix something, but he was never actually with his family - and the only time that I would get to see him, was at the dinner table, and even then he would tend to be late for dinner as he was so preoccupied with what he was doing in his work-shop. I would long for getting to spend just a little time with him, getting just a little attention from him and having him notice me and recognize that I was there. So, I felt like the imposter in his life, that has messed his life up because now he can't spend so much time with his friends and on his hobbies anymore, and he really didn't like that - I remember a lot of discussions between my mother and father about him always being away and not spending enough time with his wife and kids.

So, as a result from the growing experience within myself of insecurity and alone-ness, I started feeling like my life 'isn't fair' when comparing myself to other children. I thought to myself 'It isn't fair that other children can be so self confident because their parents love them', 'it isn't fair that their father loves, accepts and respects them and mine does not' - which is an experience that would start to consume me throughout my life. And then as a reaction to that experience within myself, I activated the construct of self-pity. The self-pity point is the ego reaction as an attempt to create the feeling within myself that I am special in some way because 'poor me, I am so wronged' and 'nobody loves me, I am such a poor soul' as the positive reaction to the negative experience of 'unfairness' and inferiority towards others within myself, to in a way balance out the energetic experience - thus keeping myself enslaved and stuck within this personality construct as experiencing myself as 'the imposter'.

So, within all this, a point that I see as actually supportive for me in my process of stopping the mind, is that I never felt as though I had much to do with my family, with the people/reality that I saw around me, in the sense that I wanted to 'fit in' and 'be like them' but within myself I felt like a stranger, like I was standing on the outside looking in at their lives. So, in this, I see that it would actually be easy for me to simply let it all go because I was never really a part of that anyways, meaning that I never experienced myself as fully integrated as a being within this world-system and within the entire family-system as a complete 'part of it', even though I really wanted to be.

So this is the entire construct of 'the rotten child syndrome' that i have allowed to exist within myself, having allowed myself to be 'spoiled' by my up-bringing as a physical result and product of the 'input' that I have received from my parents, during the first 7 years of my life here on earth.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as 'an imposter'

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself to be an imposter here in reality as how i experienced myself within my family

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that i am an imposter in the life of my father because that is how he saw me

i forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to follow and trust my father as an automatic preprogrammed 'instinctive' act to guide me through this reality

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father and how he interacted with me for the insecurity that i experience within myself

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be spoiled by my parents within the first 7 years of my life wherein i have allowed myself to be completely programmed within and as a 'self-image' in this world according to my experience in relation with my parents - of feeling like an imposter and a burden on those around me

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel like a burden on the people around me because that is how i experienced myself in relation with my father within and through defining my self-image within how my father saw me

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel guilty for being a burden in the life of my father

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that i owe my father something because i was 'a burden' in his life that he had to 'bare' according to how he saw and experienced me

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel responsible for how my father experienced himself towards me and to believe that i shouldn't exist because apparently i am a burden in my father's life as how he sees and experiences me

i forgive myself for having allowed myself to be programmed within backwards reason wherein i felt responsible for my father instead of realizing that it is in fact the other way around, my father is responsible for me as i am his child - the problem is that he never took this responsibility as he was a spoiled child as well, still stuck within blame towards his environment for how he experiences himself and not realizing his responsibility towards his children as his creation, as he was also the product of his spoilt rotten parents that did not realize their responsibility towards him as their creation and thus did not raise him within giving him the support necessary for him to become a self respecting, self trusting, self-responsible and effective being in this world that is able to in his turn take proper and effective responsibility for his children

i forgive myself that i have allowed and accepted myself to fail to see my father as the spoiled child/adult that he has allowed himself to become, as someone that is not trained effectively in how to take responsibility for his children nor educated properly in how this physical reality works and what is required for him to teach his children to create effective beings that are able to take responsibility for themselves and their children in their turn in this world - as he has become nothing but the result and product of the self-interest of his parents, thus having copied the rotten nature of his parents before him, as what he passes on to his children within and as 'the sins of the fathers'

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have failed to see that i am in no way guilty of anything as i truly came into this world within and as absolute unconditional innocence as the product and creation of my parents as a physical human body that they have created through the 'amalgamation' of their physical bodies and that therefore everything and anything that I express here on this earth in this reality is the 'output' as the result and product of the 'input' as what my parents programmed into me - thus the fact that they programmed 'guilt' into me only reveals their self-interest and self-dishonest nature of wanting to blame their experience on me within and as their spoiled rotten nature that they have allowed themselves to become wherein they did not want to take responsibility for themselves and what they have created which is me as their child, not realizing that within this they are creating a rotten child that would become a rotten adult in their image and likeness

i forgive myself that i haven't allowed myself to see/realize/understand that the experience of guilt is an illusion and a lie that my parents programmed into me as a manipulation technique within their games of self-interest, as how they have also allowed themselves to be programmed by their parents, in their attempt to exert power and control over their environment - wherein they failed to see/realize/understand that my expression is only showing them who they are as I am their creation and my expression in this world is equal to what they programmed into me from the moment of conception, thus I cannot possibly be 'guilty' of anything

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed within and as the belief in 'guilt' and 'being guilty' and 'feeling guilty' that is the minds replacement for responsibility - wherein the experience of 'guilt' is nothing more than a manipulation technique used by parents, family, teachers and religion in their self-interest attempt to exert power and control over me, which taught me to move and motivate myself based on fear of 'being/feeling guilty', as a puppet of the self-interest of my environment that did not take any responsibility for their actions and their creation and are living as spoiled children/adults that have no principles or morals as how they have allowed themselves to be programmed by their parents

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become a spoiled child and adult as self-interested living as an ego that only seeks self-gratification and satisfaction by not living within principles



I commit myself to walking the process of stopping myself as the spoiled rotten adult that i have allowed myself to become, to start living within the principle of what is best for all life - as i assist and support myself in the process of birthing myself as life from the physical and re-programming and educating myself according to what is best for me as life to correct that which is not best for all life as what i have allowed to be programmed into me during the first 7 years of my life here on earth

i commit myself to walking the process of doing what is necessary to be done in this world to make sure that parents actually take responsibility for their children so that no child will ever have to go through what i went through in my life experience in this world - because I realize that humanity is at this point no more than a play-out of the sins of the fathers that have been blindly and ignorantly passed down from generation to generation, ultimately resulting in the world that we have today of total abuse and destruction and that this world requires the parents of humanity to become aware of themselves and take responsibility for their creation as their children, to within the realization of themselves as one and equal with their children, live as the example of who the human has to be as a self-responsible and trustworthy being, so their children may be the fruits of this tree of what is best for all life

i commit myself to walking the steps that are required to undo the harm that i have allowed to be done unto me during my upbringing within the first 7 years of my life here on earth - to then stand up and take the responsibility to recreate myself as an effective human being in this world that is able to take responsibility for this existence in all ways

i realize that i am not an intruder as i have been birthed into this world by my parents and i commit myself to educating myself as my parents to assist and support myself as them in understanding their responsibility as parents and understanding and investigating all the various aspects of what this responsibility implies - to be able to effectively welcome a being into the world and to effectively assist and support this being in every way to reach their utmost potential -- wherein I STOP such mind-constructs of 'the imposter' from being created as I realize that this particular mind-construct was nothing but the result of poor parenting-skills within and as communication

i commit myself to explore and investigate myself within and as communication - to become effective within communication as i realize that effective communication is the key to creating, molding and shaping a being that is aware of themselves and is able to direct themselves within and as the awareness of what is best for all life


I commit myself to walking the process of aligning myself with what is best for all by completely stopping myself as what i have allowed myself to become as the mind as the self-interested way of seeing and experiencing this world that i have allowed myself to be programmed into me during the first seven years of my life here on earth - thus I realize that I will have to start from scratch as I can trust NOTHING of anything that i 'know', see or experience about this world as it all exist within me from the starting point of the mind as separation - so to get to know myself and establish myself as life, I will have to in fact start from the innocence of myself as life HERE as I have birthed myself as life from the physical within having stopped the mind through the process of applying self forgiveness, to then 'build myself up' again within and as the skills, capabilities, realizations and understanding of living a life from the starting point of what is best for all life wherein i can trust nothing but myself HERE within and as breath