2008 pslekjtraomsigh

i m afraid of letting go this time on the keyboard
cause everytime i do that
stuff comes out
that is
yes
quite uhmmm
inovative?
no, whats the word
cool
yes quite true
and cool and stuff
but
i m afraid that if i keep doing that
everyting
all of my stuff will start looking the same
like
ok
what am i then
is this not just
rambling of an old fool
who s only talking about what he found
and not anymore about how he found it
and is that not the most important

being able to talk about who you are in process of becoming who you are
not just about 'rules of being'
pluh
bah
poeha

ok then, kimmy, what would you like to talk about?
uhmmm
dunno
maybe myself
ok what about yourself?
euh....me?
yeah you, got it, but what about you?
ummm....how about you
who..me?
yes you are a part of me yet your asking me questions as if i m not you
treating me like a goddamn kid

hey where did you go
?
i m right here
but where are you
?
i m right here
but where are you
?
i m right here
but where are you
?

I M RIGHT HERE!!

and here i shall stay

dammit i still didn t talk about what i wanted to talk about again