2014 When Love is Empty - How to Know when Love is Real

 2014 When Love is Empty - How to Know when Love is Real

 Transforming Love from Feeling to Reality in Real-Time

For a while now I am in a long distance relationship where I am communicating with my partner over Viber, which is this new communication application like Skype, only on Viber there is a larger database of pictures - called 'stickers' - to communicate with. When my partner and I were physically together, we never talked to each other in a way where we used the kind of pre-ordained 'lovey dovey' statements and expressions such as 'I love you' or 'you are my world' or 'I can't live without you' or other such expressions  that form part of  how relationships have been programmed in the unconscious mind of most of humanity, with the help of movies, magazines and books, and which are mostly referred to as 'romance' and 'love'.

We specifically did not express such things because we are both quite aware of the preprogrammed nature of such expressions - preprogrammed from the perspective that those specific words of 'I love you', 'you are my soul-mate' or 'I can't live without you' are not in fact expressions of who we are within ourselves - they come from outside sources such as media and other cultural and environmental influences where we have both come in contact with words, concepts and ideas such as 'romance' and 'love'. I mean, what I have found with myself in relation to expressing words like 'I love you' is that, within actually speaking the words, there is a part of myself that is very much aware that the words that I am speaking in that moment don't come from myself, they come from somewhere else and I am just kind of following the 'program'. So, I personally always refrained from expressing words such as 'love' towards the people in my world and reality because when I looked within myself in self-honesty, I could not find a reference point for those words - I could not find a real, genuine meaning for those words, so to me they were empty expressions that I felt would render me equally empty inside if I were to accept and allow myself to express them.

And I considered (and consider) myself to be very fortunate to have been able to create a relationship with another person within that awareness - where my partner and I were in agreement in relation to  both having an equal awareness within ourselves in relation to the word 'love' being a rather empty expression as how it has been lived, expressed, experienced and defined in the world currently and it therefore not doing justice to describing our appreciation for each other. So, we were doing perfectly fine never expressing any of the 'romantic'-type expressions that you would find portrayed in the common image and idea of how relationships are defined in this world - which can specifically be seen and referenced within movies and books -- and we never felt the need to.

But then once we started communicating via Viber something interesting developed - which is that, because of all those 'stickers' available to communicate with, a lot of which was in accordance with the preprogrammed conception of 'a relationship', where you had for instance lots of stickers involving couples kissing, stickers with hearts, stickers saying "I love you", etcetera - and because we didn't have the opportunity anymore to physically express our regard and appreciation for each other, through physically kissing, hugging and touching each other - we started using those stickers and we started using the word 'love' to somehow try to express what we felt we weren't able to express anymore because of the physical aspect being missing. This just kind of emerged and developed 'naturally' so it felt like it was just us expressing ourselves with each other - and,in itself obviously there isn't anything particularly 'wrong' with expressing ourselves in that way, we're just using the means and tools at our disposal to be able to express how we feel towards each other.

After a while however a specific experience emerged within myself. The warm and fuzzy feeling that I initially experienced within my communication and interaction with my partner that I had defined as our 'connection' and as 'love' seemed to be 'fading' and making place for this experience of emptiness and even a slight resistance in relation to our interactions - where, more and more I found myself trying to 'bring life into' our conversations and kind of forcing myself to bring back the memories of how I used to feel when I talked with him. And in my mind I kept on looking back on these memories and thinking 'why don't I feel that way anymore?', together with an experience of desire and a want to experience myself and my relationship and interactions with my partner again as how I experienced myself in those memories. I mean, I could not put my finger on it, because it wasn't really our communication in itself that had changed - it was just my experience within and of it that had changed and within that it looked like 'I just don't love him as much as I used to anymore'.

So then I was starting to believe that this is 'just how things are', that this is simply how relationships go where initially things start out with lots of experiences and feelings of excitement and 'love' because everything is still new and both partners are still getting to know each other - but after a while as you get to know each other more, the excitement 'wears off' and so the 'love' experience isn't as strong anymore. But then I realized that what I was experiencing was in fact energy - I was feeling disconnected and empty as an energetic emotional experience within myself -- which means that these experiences that emerged within me are not based on actual reality, but are existent within an alternate reality that I have created within my own mind through having participated in the act of thinking and reacting to those thoughts with emotions and feelings over a specific period of time. And that thus, what was happening was not so much that my 'love' for my partner was diminishing or disappearing in fact, but that in some way I have been separating and disconnecting myself from my partner and from who I am in relation to him through my participation in thoughts, feelings and emotional experiences in my own mind - which then eventually had lead up to the creation of an emotional experience of emptiness and disconnection, that I then interpreted in my mind as a 'loss of love'.

When I realized this, I then investigated how, where and when it is that I had been accepting and allowing myself to create a separation and disconnection within myself in my relationship with my partner -- and I found that it was the moment that we started using the word 'love' in our conversations, together with all the stickers of the little hearts and kisses and stuff. Upon looking within my memories, I could see how there were reactions occurring within myself each time my partner said that he loved me and each time he posted a sticker with an image of a couple kissing or hugging - and that I was starting to experience specific feelings in relation to those expressions of 'love' from my partner that I hadn't been experiencing towards him before . At that time, I didn't realize or see it - but what was busy happening in those moments was that my actual love and connection that I experienced within myself in relation to my partner, was slowly but surely being replaced by a FEELING of love and connection -- a feeling that was triggered and activated by and connected to specific words such as 'I Love You' and images like hearts and kisses.

I mean, my actual love for my partner as how it existed before those feelings emerged within me, was not a feeling in my mind but more like a deep understanding and appreciation within myself in relation to who my partner is and what my relationship with him is in my life - which is why I didn't need him to actually use the words 'I love you' for me to be able to understand what he means to me. I saw and understood who he is as a being and my love for him was based on that understanding. Whereas now, with this preprogrammed system of 'love' as defined within specific words, images and feeling experiences entering my mind - it was overlapping and suppressing the real love that was already there -- and so ended up creating an experience of disconnect, separation and emptiness.

That was essentially what I was doing with allowing the preprogrammed definition of 'love' in my mind to replace my real physical relationship with my partner - I was disconnecting and separating myself from the reality of my relationship and so creating an 'emptiness' within and as my internal experience of my relationship because that is what the preprogrammed system of 'love' essentially is, it is empty from the perspective that it is an already pre-ordained construct of specific words, images, feelings and emotions wherein there is no genuine individual expression of myself - it is in a way 'void of life'. It is a program in the mind that runs on energy so it will initially generate a lot of positive energy of excitement, but that will start to 'wear off' eventually as the nature of energy is that it burns up resources and eventually fades out - at which point the reality of the energy reveals itself within and as that 'inner emptiness' and the experience of disconnection and separation.

With just realizing, seeing and understanding that point, of how I had accepted and allowed myself to be duped by my own mind and had accepted and allowed my mind to suppress who I am as a being within and as physical reality in terms of my experience within and of my relationship with my partner, which opened up as I was talking about the experience with him - the 'mist' in my mind already cleared up a lot, meaning that the entire experience of emptiness and disconnection in relation to my partner released for a great part.

So, I realized and understood something quite valuable from this experience - which is that, if I accept and allow myself within and as my relationship with my partner to in any way be directed by pre-ordained expressions, ideas and experiences - for instance within reacting with specific feeling experiences to words like 'I love you' and to specific gestures, behaviors and words that I have copied within myself from having watched movies, read magazines and observed other people within their expressions in their relationships - without establishing for myself who I am in relation to these copied and integrated expressions -- then the consequences of me giving my expression away to a preprogrammed 'format' of expression as Feeling experiences inside of myself will be that eventually I will start experiencing a disconnection and separation from my partner and an emptiness within myself in relation to those expressions and in relation to my relationship and my 'love' for my partner. And that is because of the energetic patterns involved within this preprogrammed expression and experience of love. The pattern of which will initially take the energy into a 'high' as lots of excitement and 'warm and fuzzy' feelings, that would be defined as 'love' - and will then take the energy into a 'low' as the experience of disconnection, separation and emptiness, which will be defined and experienced as apparently having 'lost love'.

And that is unfortunately the pattern that most relationships in this world follow because most people, just like me, tend to accept and allow preprogrammed ideas and conceptions in their mind to decide for them how they will experience their relationship and express and experience themselves within the relationship - instead of being Self-Honest and investigating and exploring who they really are as a being and how they can align their relationship with their partner to stand as a platform of support for who they are as a being. And this is also the primary reason why many relationships don't tend to last that long - as a consequential outflow effect of accepting and allowing the word Love to play into Feelings and emotions in the mind, instead of Self being the Directive Force and Deciding Factor of what that word Love actually practically entails within and as the physical reality of the Relationship.

In my next blog on this process of Transforming the Word Love from a Consequential Pattern of Energy into a Stable Platform for Self-Expression and Self-Expansion within a Relationship - I will share the next Step to be walked, which is to walk a Process of Redefining the word 'Love' and within that, establish a stable internal understanding and integration of what the word Love would practically mean and stabilize our relationship to the word Love, so as to ensure that using this word within our relationship and our interaction and communication with our partner doesn't create any detrimental consequences and doesn't in any way end up sabotaging our relationship.

2014 From Jealousy to Self-Expression

2014 From Jealousy to Self-Expression

How I Faced and Stopped the Jealousy Demon within Myself

I had this really vivid and intense nightmare last night and when I woke up and spoke to someone about it - within the process of looking at the dream and investigating it from the starting point of what it is that I am, through the dream, showing myself about how I exist within myself and what points I should be looking at within walking my process of Self-Change and Self-Realization, I didn't actually really look at the part of the dream that was the most intense and impactful. It was only when this person that I was having a discussion with about the dream pointed it out to me that I started to see and realize that what this part of the dream was showing me and also the fact that it was the most vivid and intense yet at the same time the most overlooked and ignored section of the dream - was showing me that this is a point that exists within myself that I have not been dealing with or facing and have not even been honest with myself about its existence within myself -- the point being Jealousy.

The events in the dream went as follows. I am looking at these two women having a conversation, where the one woman(woman A) is telling the other woman(woman B) how she met someone and she loves him very much and they are planning on moving far away together, upon which woman B becomes so overtaken with jealousy because she is not experiencing that joy, happiness and fulfillment in her life that she is seeing within woman A's expression, that she decides to keep woman A locked up in her house. Years have passed and I see that woman A who was locked up in woman B's house for all those years looks like a skeleton - skin over bones and extremely pale and weak. While I am watching this scene play out and sympathizing with woman A who was locked up, I start screaming for help to the people that I see walking passed the window (in the dream I identify myself with woman A so I am both bystander and observer as well as that woman - so in that moment when I am screaming, it is also her screaming) - then woman B becomes so absolutely enraged and filled with hate, fury and spite, that she digs into the flesh of woman A with her fingernails and rips out her spine. The dream continues for a bit after that but for the purpose of this blog I will be looking at this section specifically - as it reveals very nicely how the mind-construct of jealousy works and what it actually does within myself, or rather what I do to myself when I accept and allow myself to step into this mind-construct.

So, looking at the dream and in being able to understand  and see what the dream represents in relation to who I am within and as myself - I 'collapse' the images of the people and I look at the pattern that is playing out as a representation of a pattern that is existent within and as my mind -- wherein I see and realize that each person within the dream is in fact representing a part of myself and the relationships between the people show the relationships that I have created within my mind with those parts of myself. With this specific scene showing me how jealousy works within and as my mind and who I am in my relationship with myself with regards to jealousy.

The two women thus are both me - where woman B is me within and as the experience and mind-construct of jealousy and woman A is me as a being - and looking at the characters that they play in the dream, I can see that there is a polarity-construct going on, as the one woman is experiencing and exerting all this anger, fury, intensity, power, resentment and blind hate and the other one is completely weakened and had the life sucked out of her by this anger, resentment and hate that is being acted out on her by woman B. So, that is essentially what I do to myself when I go into an experience of jealousy, is that with me becoming emotionally enveloped within experiences of hate, anger and resentment and generating a feeling of 'power' within my mind through accessing spiteful backchat and internal conversations directed towards the person that I feel jealous of - I am simultaneously diminishing who I am as a being, to the point that actually I as a being don't really exist within myself anymore because I have channeled all of my existence and beingness into the experience of jealousy within the mind as I am busy focusing my attention on how someone else is living their life.

Also the point of the spine being ripped out from the woman who is representing me as a being - shows that when I go into the mind-construct of jealousy, I become 'spineless' - meaning that within my mind, my backchat and my reactions, there exists no integrity, self-respect, self-worth, self-value, self-acceptance or any regard for life within myself or another at all -- as I accept and allow the jealousy-construct to define me so completely that I lose all awareness of who I actually really am as a being, through accepting and allowing myself to access that specific secretive nature of hate, resentment and spite towards another being within my mind. And if I really have an honest look at who and what I become within that experience of jealousy and at the fact that when that experience comes up in my mind I tend to not even question it and immediately believe that it is 'me', then it becomes clear to me that I have not yet developed a real starting point within myself in relation to knowing who I am as a being - because I would so easily believe that such an essentially 'evil' nature, expression and experience is 'me' -- though I wouldn't consciously admit it to myself that this is in fact what is going on within and as my mind.

Then the point of me screaming to other people for help when witnessing this situation in my dream - implies and reveals to me that I tend to victimize myself in relation to such experiences of for instance jealousy within my mind. Meaning that I don't actually want to take responsibility for the existence of such experiences within myself because I don't want to face that sort of 'evil' within and as myself - I don't want to accept, see or realize that the 'evil' character and persona as depicted by that woman in my dream, is in fact a part of me that I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as myself. And so I will want other people to help me whenever I am facing these sorts of 'bad' and 'negative' experiences within myself because I have separated myself from it by having created the idea and belief that somehow it is 'not me' - that I am a victim of these experiences. Which is obviously ludicrous because I mean it does in fact exist within me, so it cannot be anything else but me.

Below I am sharing the self-forgiveness process that I have walked within opening this point up,  releasing it and correcting it within myself. However I will still have to walk a practical real-time process of proving to myself that my process of release and correction and self-change has in fact been effective -- which means that if I see and find that when the experience of jealousy comes up within myself and I am still accepting and allowing myself to get lost within it, that I will have to re-investigate and find the point in relation to the experience where I am giving away my self-responsibility and allowing this mind-construct to have power over me.

Self-Forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the mind-construct of jealousy to exist within myself in separation of myself - where in some moments, when seeing other people have things that I desire, I feel myself becoming overtaken with an experience of jealousy  that comes up within myself to the extent that I lose all track of myself as my integrity and dignity, self-respect and self-worth as I become so enveloped within and as that onedimensional experience of spitefulness, resentment and hate in relation to seeing this other individual have and experience what I want and desire  as something that i haven't actually given to myself

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the experience of jealousy to and towards something that I see within another woman - will specifically be in relation to a specific expression that I see within her that I haven't given to myself because I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and suppress my expression

And so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually go into that experience of jealousy, connected with hateful, spiteful and resentful backchat towards another being wherein I would for instance wish that they would in some way get hurt or that something goes wrong in their life so that they will feel afraid and inferior like I feel afraid and inferior within myself or where I would want to deliberately not offer them assistance and support when I see that they need it, just so that I could feel a bit better about myself -- instead of taking responsibility for the reason and starting point of why it is that I experience jealousy towards this being in the first place - which is because they represent specific expressions in my world and reality of which I know deep down within myself that I have not given those expressions to myself -- and so actually walk a process of developing and exploring those expressions within and as myself and within that correcting my relationship with myself as well as other people and ensure that I will not direct any emotional experiences or energetic reactions within myself towards other beings  that are in fact reactions to my own relationship that I have created with myself within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spineless within and as the experience of jealousy, by, when stepping into the experience of jealousy within myself, losing all integrity, self-respect, self-value and dignity within and as myself by experiencing and defining myself within and as an experience of blind hate, resentment, anger and spitefulness towards the person or persons that my jealousy is directed to - by never having questioned this experience of jealousy as a reaction to seeing other women and so never having seen, realized or understood that I react with jealousy when I see an expression within another being that I have suppressed within myself and so I am in fact seeing a part of my beingness represented by and within another being and within and as the experience and reaction of jealousy I am in fact suppressing this expression within myself even more by deliberately distracting my attention away from the reality of myself as the fact and the realization that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress that specific expression within and as myself and that I have thus made myself within and as myself 'inferior' to myself, by then directing all my anger as a reaction to this inferiority that I have created within myself to and towards this other person that is a representation for me of an expression of myself that I have suppressed within and as myself - and therein not seeing, realizing and understanding that I am in fact thus attacking this expression within myself as represented by this being, and thus perpetuating this vicious cycle of self-suppression

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I react with jealousy towards another person in my mind - I am actually attacking a part of myself as a specific expression that I am seeing projected within and represented by this person and I am within that reaction thus suppressing that expression within and as myself - and thus in fact fueling this experience and reaction of jealousy within myself even more as I continue suppressing that expression within and as myself and then projecting it outwards into and within other people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other people by using them within my mind to create an excuse for myself to distract my attention away from the fact that I have suppressed specific expressions within and of myself by having projected those expressions within other people and then reacting to them in my mind with jealousy and so creating the illusion that this expression 'them' and not 'me' because I have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to take responsibility for myself and to actually correct that relationship with myself by developing and nurturing and discovering those expressions of myself that other people are now showing to me within and as my world and reality --- and therein thus using the emotional reaction of jealousy coming up within myself as a tool for myself to be able to recognize and detect the specific expressions that I have suppressed within myself and so to know which expressions I must thus nurture and develop within myself and so give to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed jealousy to exist within and as myself in my relationship with other beings as myself - as an attack towards other people as myself wherein I am creating absolute separation within and as myself as life by not honouring, respecting and valuing the life and expression of life within and as another and so within and as myself in oneness and equality as the realization and insight that another is myself and what I see within another and what I am reacting to as another is in fact myself

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand what I am actually doing to myself as a being when and as I accept and allow myself to experience jealousy and define myself within and as the experience of jealousy towards another person -- which is that I am depleting, limiting and diminishing myself as my expression and beingness within and as myself  by reacting emotionally to the expression that I see within another and by not seeing, realizing and understanding that within that reaction to another person's expression, I am actually reacting to my own expression and therein keeping my expression suppressed and keeping myself within and as an internal experience of inferiority

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as a resistance in relation to taking responsibility for the fact that I have suppressed my expression within and as myself and so correcting that internal relationship with myself - and then from that resistance, go into my mind and create an excuse for myself to not take that responsibility for that relationship that I have created with myself within and as myself by then projecting those expressions that I have suppressed within myself onto other beings and the react emotionally within and as jealousy to those beings -- wherein I am then separating myself even further from my own internal expression as I keep on diverting my attention away from who I actually am within and as myself by placing it within other people and my emotional reactions to 'other people' - rather than seeing, realizing and understanding that those apparent 'other people' are really just parts of myself that I have not yet accepted and embraced within and as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself in relation to the experience and reaction of jealousy when and as it comes up within myself by first of all reacting to the experience of jealousy and the secret spiteful backchat connected it, with wanting to suppress this experience because I have judged it within my mind as 'bad' and 'negative' and because I don't want to see or accept myself as 'bad' or 'negative' and so I will also not want to accept the mind-construct of jealousy -- instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the only reason why I experience resistance and why I go into a reaction of suppression in relation to the emotional experience of jealousy is because of the fact that I have separated myself from this specific mind-construct by having judged jealousy as something 'bad', and that the experience and mind-construct of jealousy in itself isn't actually really 'bad' or 'negative', as it is a part of myself within and as the mind that I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within the pattern of self-victimization that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within in relation to specific emotional experiences and thoughts that I have defined as 'negative' and 'bad' such as 'jealousy', eventually even go into an emotional experience of giving up as a result of fighting and resisting the experience of jealousy within myself from the starting point of not wanting to be honest with myself and accept the reality of myself as how I exist within and as my mind - and thus within that point of giving up essentially make a statement that I am not taking any responsibility for my own internal reality and for the fact that I am deliberately creating a friction and conflict within myself and so eventually a giving up because I am simply not willing to accept and embrace and stand one and equal with the mind-construct of jealousy within myself

Self-Corrective Statements

When and as I see the experience of jealousy coming up within myself as a reaction to a specific expression that I am seeing within another person, wherein I see myself going into a secret space inside of myself wherein I participate within emotional experiences of hate, spitefulness, resentment and anger towards this individual as a projection of them in my mind, accompanied by and connected to secret backchat wherein I try to look for ways to diminish them and make them inferior within my mind, to try and make myself feel powerful - I stop and breathe - and I see, realize and understand that what I am reacting to and what triggered and activated the reaction of jealousy within myself is that when I saw this specific individual with my eyes I was confronted with a specific expression that I am seeing within them that I am actually suppressing and judging within and as myself and within and as the reaction of jealousy towards this individual I am in fact deliberately diverting my attention away from this relationship of suppression and judgment that I have created within myself in relation to that specific expression within and of myself because I don't really want to take responsibility for myself and actually face my suppressions and judgments that I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as myself

So within this I see, realize and understand that the solution for the emotional reaction and experience of jealousy towards other people - is to take responsibility for the suppressions and judgments as self-limitations that I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself in relation to specific aspects, parts and expressions of myself and to find a way to correct this relationship with myself and therein give myself those specific expressions that I experience jealousy towards, within and as the realization that the reaction of jealousy is in fact just me not being honest with myself about the fact that the expression that I am seeing within the person that I feel jealous of is in fact a part of myself and that within and as the reaction of jealousy I am in fact deliberately separating myself from that expression within and of myself

Where, I see, realize and understand that if and when I accept and allow myself to react within jealousy towards another person and a specific expression that I see within them, and I thus accept and allow myself to go into an 'attack' of that expression by participating in all sorts of hateful, spiteful and resentful backchat and experiences -- that I am therein in fact attacking myself as that expression within and as myself by not seeing, realizing and understanding that the expression that I am seeing within that individual is something that actually does exist within me, I have just never allowed myself to access it as myself and express it within and as myself -- because I have accepted and allowed this vicious cycle to exist within myself where I am constantly attacking my own expression by attacking the expression of other people by reacting within and as jealousy in my mind

And so I commit myself to find and detect and define those expressions that I have suppressed and judged within and as myself through for instance using the experience of jealousy as a tool - where, when I see the experience of jealousy coming up within myself, I step back within myself and I investigate what the expression is exactly that I am reacting to as that is the expression that I must discover, develop and explore within myself and so give to myself -- wherein thus I take responsibility for who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become within and as myself and for the suppressions and the judgments that I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself and to interfere with and sabotage my relationship with myself and my self-value, self-worth, self-respect, self-integrity and self-acceptance

And so within this I commit myself to develop self-value, self-worth, self-respect, self-integrity and self-acceptance within and as myself in my relationship to myself - by developing those expressions  in my relationship with other people through for instance not accepting and allowing myself to go into or define myself within and as the experience and reaction of jealousy and so not accept and allow myself to participate in hateful, spiteful and resentful backchat or experiences in relation to other people - as I see, realize and understand that whatever I think and experience towards another, is what I am doing to myself within and as myself

When and as I see myself going into a reaction of self-victimization to the emotional experience and backchat of jealousy in relation to specific people in my world and reality - where I start trying to suppress and fight that experience of jealousy within myself because I believe that it is a 'bad' experience and that I shouldn't be experiencing jealousy because I don't want to be seen as or see myself as a 'bad' person - I stop and breathe, and I see, realize and understand that this experience of jealousy within myself is not 'bad' or 'negative' and that, if anything, this negatively charged energetic experience within myself of 'jealousy' is a tool that I can use to assist and support myself in my process of developing and expanding and exploring myself as a being because I realize, see and understand that when I go into an experience of jealousy towards someone then that is an indicator that there is an expression within myself that I am suppressing and not giving to myself and I am now seeing that expression within this individual and is thus an opportunity for myself to explore  how I can develop and nurture that specific expression within and as myself

And I see, realize and understand that as long as I am judging jealousy as something 'bad' and as long as I am fighting and suppressing the mind construct of jealousy within myself - I am actually making it something consequential because now -- because I am not embracing and accepting jealousy within myself, I can also not direct it or redefine it or use it within my process of self-realization --- which means that this jealousy experience will actually start to have control and power over me and I am thus essentially making it into the 'monster' that I initially feared and believed it to be

So I commit myself to correct and transform this self-victimization pattern within and as myself in relation to emotional experiences such as jealousy - by first of all not accepting or allowing myself to go into or participate within any judgment to and towards what is going on in my own mind and to rather stand within and as self-honesty in relation to my mind in simply realizing and understanding that everything in my mind is me and that if I judge anything in my mind then it's like I am making the statement that that specific part of and in my mind that I am judging is not just 'me' but is somehow another kind of definition of either being 'good' or 'bad' or 'right' or 'wrong' or 'positive' or 'negative' -- which will then spark the victimization character within and as myself because obviously I don't want to be a 'bad' person so then I will start fighting and resisting and suppressing those parts within and of myself that I have judged as being 'bad', 'wrong' and 'negative'

So I mean, within this I see, realize and understand that I am not a 'bad' person and that nothing in my mind is 'bad' or 'wrong' or 'negative' - and that in fact all of who I am within and as my mind is just 'me', is just different parts of myself that I have separated from myself over time exactly by participating in judgment towards myself and towards other humans within and as this world and reality

Where I see, realize and understand that in fact nothing and no one in this world is 'bad' or 'wrong' or 'negative' and that, just like who I am within myself and how I exist within and as myself, everything and every being in this world exist as an accumulated consequence of how we as humans have accepted and allowed ourselves to separate ourselves in the within and without of ourselves throughout time and that as long as I am judging anything that exist in this world within and without of myself, I will never be able to correct or change or find solutions for the problems that I am facing in this world and in myself

2013 Miley Cyrus and the Justification of Greed

This is a continuation from my previous blog about Miley Cyrus, "3013 Miley Cyrus "We Can't Stop" Satanic Transformation is Our Creation??!" wherein I shined a light on how we use Celebrities, within the stories that we create about them and how they live their lives, where they will be 'loved' by some and 'hated' by others, and where we all will have an opinion about them in one way or the other -- to in fact entertain ourselves and deliberately give away our power to this apparent 'influential'/'powerful'/'wealthy' individual, so as to divert the attention away from ourselves and our personal responsibility with regards to how we are literally creating everything that exist in this world - including the lives of these 'Celebrities' like Miley Cyrus.

Where, in this blog, to share a perspective on the new Trend that is now taking over our Media Landscape and occupying the minds of the 'Populous' - in the form of the Miley Phenomenon and her new 'transformation', which I have already taken on largly in the previous blog from the perspective of how this 'transformation' that is being obsessed over in the Media, actually has got nothing to do with 'Who' 'Miley Cyrus' is as an Individual but rather about who we are as the Consumers of the Drama that is being displayed in our magazines and Gossip-programs/television-shows and how we as human beings have allowed ourselves to become within and as ourselves, and what we accordingly allow to exist in our world and reality, within and as the lives of our 'Celebs' for instance.

In this article "Was Miley in on the joke? Cyrus calls her controversial VMAs performance a 'strategic hot mess' in new MTV documentary" - where Ms. Cyrus 'explains' her overall frowned-upon half-naked and highly suggestive performance at the MTV Video Music Award show in August, within the words:

'I was born to become who I am right now ... I'm at a point in my career where I can be exactly what I want to be, who I want to be.'

'I have this freedom to do whatever I want, because I'm starting as a new artist now,'

 'Every time I do anything, I want to remember, this is what separates me from everybody else.'

 'You're always going to make people talk, you might as well make them talk for two weeks, rather than two seconds.'

What is interesting within this, if one take into consideration how the human mind works, is how these statements that she made is basically Justifications and Explanations around the main point, which is her Performance, her actions and behavior as what she actually physically lived out within this reality, as that which can be seen by All. How the human mind works within this context is how we will use our Words to talk ourselves and others into believing that our actions were in some way 'just' or 'right', to make ourselves feel 'righteous' about whatever it is that we have done.

I mean, here in the case of Miley Cyrus and her Performance at the MTV Awards, she is now being confronted with much criticism from practically all sides around how her performance was not according to 'moral standards' and how, within that, she was/is not setting a proper example for the children around the world that she is standing as a role model for and thus not taking responsibility for her position as an Artist in this world with regards to the influence that she may have on young people's minds.

And so, just as what happens in every single human beings' mind when it is challenged within its Design/function/existence, she will have all these Statements at the ready, which is like a Wall of Words that she's built up around her Persona that serve to protect and Defend her idea of Righteousness (which is inherent to the Identity-System that exist in each and every single Human Being in this world in the exact same way) - like: "I have the right to do whatever I want, because of this or that reason", "this is how I was born", "this is why I do this or that", etcetera.

This is how we use Reasoning to be able to not actually look at and investigate our actions and thus take responsibility for our actions and who we are as a physical expression here in this world - and to thus, very neatly, brush off any criticism, remarks or comments that comes our way with regards to our expression/actions/behavior and just carry on with whatever it was that we are doing -- because, within ourselves, we don't actually want to see, realize or be confronted with the possibility that 'who we are' may be 'wrong', in terms of how this would mean that in some way or form a punishment will ensue, according to how we have all been programmed during childhood within and as the Punishment-Reward System.

This is though not to say that Miley Cyrus was in fact 'wrong' in what she did and how she acted/behaved nor that the Media and other People criticizing her on that behavior were 'right' - I am sharing this perspective here to expose, show and reveal exactly how it is that we as human beings have created and manifested ourselves within and as our Mind in such a way that we have perfected the ability to completely abdicate any form of personal responsibility towards our own actions and words in this World and Reality -- and how we will accordingly allow these Celebrities such as Miley Cyrus, which is actually human beings that stand in a position of Great responsibility towards Humanity, to do exactly the same: Act and Behave in complete and utter Self-Interest, creating a backlash of Consequences that ripples throughout Humanity, and then Justify their actions in the name of 'Free Choice', as the apparent 'freedom' or 'right' to 'Choose' to be Greedy, Selfish, Ignorant, Self-Centered, Abusive, Misleading, Manipulative, Deceptive, etc..

And that is why and how, while we are criticizing, disapproving and condemning Miley's actions, behavior and expression - we aren't actually stopping or preventing it from playing out in any way what so ever --- which implies that we are in fact approving, honoring and applauding what she is doing. Because, what she stands for is our own self-interest, our own greed, ignorance and selfishness that we aren't willing to let go of and that we continue justifying through our words - in exactly the same way as what Miley is doing.

Where then, at the end of the day, the only principle that exists in our World and Reality, according to what we are accepting and allowing to exist, is Self-Interest at the expense of All and Everything that Exist. And where, it's our own words as Sentences that we speak that become the Wall around ourselves in which we have Sentenced ourselves to the Confinement of Ego, and don't even see the Reality around us anymore. I mean, did you know that there are many humans in this world who actually make the statement that the physical reality isn't real and that all that is real is what you create in your mind with your own thoughts and feelings?! That is the extent of how we have isolated ourselves within our Self-Interest, the extent to which we have lost any and all connection with this Real-Live Physical Existence, with each other, with the earth, with nature, with all that is real as all that is HERE, right in front of our very Eyes, every God Damn Day.

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To be Continued...

3013 Miley Cyrus "We Can't Stop" Satanic Transformation is Our Creation??!

For those who are not familiar with Miley Cyrus, she's been compared with Britney Spears due to the similarities in the process they've walked from young Disney PopStar to 'rebelling' and 'going off the rails' by for instance making dramatic changes to their hair cut and making deliberately sexually provocative musicvideo's.

Especially with her latest music video of 'We can't Stop' coming out, there's been much discussions in many media and on many internet forums regarding her 'transformation, about 'why she did it', 'what is the reason for it', 'how she is feeling', 'is it good or bad', 'does she need help', etcetera etcetera --- I mean, just type in 'Miley Cyrus Transformation' and you'll come accross dozens of articles on the topic:

• Miley Cyrus Talks Transformation to "Twerk Queen", http://www.complex.com/music/2013/06/miley-cyrus-talks-transformation-to-twerk-queen 

• The Bling Grin: Miley Cyrus continues her gangsta transformation with a gaudy gold grill, http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2340931/Miley-Cyrus-continues-gangsta-transformation-gaudy-gold-grill.html  

• Miley Cyrus' Shocking Transformation: Is Raunchy 'We Can't Stop' Video A Cry For Attention?, http://www.entertainmentwise.com/news/119296/Miley-Cyrus-Shocking-Transformation-Is-Raunchy-We-Cant-Stop-Video-A-Cry-For-Attention

• Miley Cyrus: wild-child transformation just a sign she's growing up, http://www.thenational.ae/arts-culture/music/miley-cyrus-wild-child-transformation-just-a-sign-shes-growing-up
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Then, there are all the blogs, vlogs and articles that criticize her for what she's implicitly teaching the youth watching her video's and listening to her music, as promiscuous behavior, consumerist attitude, glorifying decadence and rebellious and self-destructive behavior:

• Miley Cyrus Blasts We Can't Stop Video Critics, Admits To Singing About Drugs, http://www.take40.com/news/41253/miley-cyrus-blasts-we-can%27t-stop-video-critics,-admits-to-singing-about-drugs 
•  Miley Cyrus twerks something in new 'We Can't Stop' video, and critics respond, http://www.nola.com/music/index.ssf/2013/06/miley_cyrus_twerks_something_i.html

• Miley Cyrus: 'We Can't Stop' song of summer or sign of trouble?, http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2013/06/04/miley-cyrus-cant-stop-song-summer-or-sign-trouble/ 

• 'Dancing with Molly': Miley Cyrus 'references ecstasy use in her new single We Can't Stop' as she steps out in 'Sex, Drugs and Rap' top, http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2335307/Miley-Cyrus-references-ecstasy-use-new-single-We-Cant-Stop-steps-Sex-Drugs-Rap-top.html

So, the point I would like to shine a light on in this blog is how there's so many a due about what happened with that 'sweet little Hannah Montana' to turn into this 'Twerk Queen', where it's like people are dramatizing the situation, turning it into their personal little soap Opera, just like they do with the lives of all celebrities. I mean that's how 'Papparazi' were invented, is to please the desire of humans to use the lives of others as an excuse to 'experience' things, to judge, to react, to form opinions and accordingly create and perpetuate the illusion that 'Life' is some kind of Movie Feature, enticing us to React with Emotions and Feelings and create a 'Big Deal' about just about everything.

Where, we actually start believing that this is really 'who she is' rather than what it really is, as our own fictions of our imagination that we've imposed on the image that we see with our eyes - because, we wanted to see this in the first place, we asked for all this 'drama' --- why else are we giving all these 'artists' so much attention and money if not because they somehow function as something that adds 'experience' to our lives? Where, it's not about 'who she is' - the 'artist' Miley Cyrus, is just a puppet, a product, held by the strings of our economic system that we control, as the 'consumers', dancing according to the whims and wishes of the Human Mind and all its hidden desires -- it's why they're called 'artists', as they simply master the art of playing the strings of the preprogrammed predictable Nature of the Human Mind, which makes them very wealthy people - after all, if it wasn't for this cunning ability, do you think that people like Miley Cyrus would get all that attention for the things she does with her life? I mean, obviously not, she'd be just another girl, just a person like the rest of us -- like there are so many people with suicidal thoughts, who've been through an abusive childhood, who've had to struggle and go through many traumatic experiences, so many people who live and die silently, without ever being noticed in any way by society.

Whatever we have to say about how Miley Cyrus lives her life, about who she is in the choices that she makes, about what kind of a personality she has, etcetera --- is actually a life and condition that we as consumers have pushed her as 'an artist' in. Where, she's simply learned to use her expression to exploit the predictable human responses as a system of survival. And so, the 'art' that we know in our world today, is not real Art, nor are the 'artists' real Artists that bring something of real Value to life on earth --- the 'art' that they practice is the art of survival, of making money, of using the preprogrammed human condition as the Human Mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions within an Economic System of Competition to their advantage - they are the biggest deceivers and have simply mastered the art of deception. Because Deception is what it takes to be successful in this world.

And then we have the arrogance to blame these 'Celebrities' for being 'Evil' because they're deceiving and exploiting and manipulating us - which, actually, is just another way in which we use those 'famous people' as an excuse for us to create a Drama and divert and channel our attention to something other than actual Reality as Life on Earth. Go check out the multitude of vlogs on Youtube about how artists such as Miley Cyrus are a Creation of the so-called 'Illuminati', who are supposedly trying to 'Mind Control' us and abuse us:

• MILEY CYRUS- WE CAN'T STOP: ILLUMINATI EXPOSED, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X1s5upWAENU 

• The SHOCKING TRUTH! Miley Cyrus We Can't Stop Exposed HD Analysis, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRjCglJ_5FE 

• Miley Cyrus Illuminati Idol Exposed: "We Can't Stop" Video Promotes "Cutting," Cocaine, and More, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYc9aihlJUg  
• MILEY CYRUS - WE CAN'T STOP | EXPOSED - ILLUMINATI/SATANIC AGENDA w/ SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFjnHyN0qf4   

  
  

While, we seem to be forgetting who it is that is spending their money on the products that these people sell us in the first place. It's Us!! Because, I mean, Illuminati, Mind Control and Deception or not -- we are the Consumers who so very willfully allow ourselves to be deceived, manipulated, Mind Controlled and distracted and who are so eager to give away our power to the 'Elite'. It's what we've been doing all throughout Human History - always blaming 'those in power' and even 'God' or 'the Devil' for our messed up lives and world, while it's always been us that was looking for a 'savior', for a 'God', for 'something more' than ourselves and for someone to take this world and reality into their hands and be our Leader. And now it's 'the Illuminati' that's the apparent 'Evil Ones' - Please.

We've created so many excuses, so many scapegoats, to be able to convince ourselves that we are in no way responsible for what happens in our life and in this world. When, we are the majority, the consumer, the ones with the 'purchasing power', who, through our actions, decide where the money goes and so how our world is shaped. We have created the 'Elite', the 'Illuminati', the Celebrities and all those rich and famous people that we like to blame so much for apparently abusing us, through our own allowed gullibility -- because, how would it otherwise be possible for a Minority to rule and have power over the Majority, if not through consent of the majority?

And, in all these 'Exposing the Elite/Illuminati' youtube vlogs, they're accusing these Artists of using 'symbolism' and specific 'Codes' within their expression and the images in the Music-video's as a form of 'subliminal messaging' to practice 'Mind control' on the individual watching the video and listening to the music -- while, I mean, does it surprise us that this is going on? I mean, yeah, the human mind responds in a preprogrammed way to specific 'codes' and 'symbolisms', that's pretty much how the program works - there was this guy called Gustav Jung who did a lot of research in this, go check him out, it's like pretty well known and recognized in the psychology community. Everything about our society and the way we interact with each other and see and experience reality in and through our mind is Symbolism, do your Research.

So, obviously, if you want to become very wealthy in this world, you'd have to find a way to use and play into the subconscious symbolism programming of the Human Mind, so that you can control and direct the human without them even being aware of it. And that is just a consequence of the Economic System that we have allowed to exist here - where, this kind of deception and manipulation has become the accepted way of interacting with each other. It isn't just the so-called Illuminati or Elite doing it, we're all doing it to each other and so ourselves all of the time, consciously and/or subconsciously --- because we all need money to survive.


So, fact is that we've never taken responsibility for ourselves and now we don't want to see or realize the extent to which we've given up on ourselves and our capacity and potential to be Great as living beings here on planet Earth - and so we use Celebrities like Miley Cyrus to distract us from this fact in every possible way, where, it's us that is the abusers --- not Disney, not the Illuminati or the Music Industry, it's US.


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