2014 How I Stopped an Emotional Possession

2014 How I Stopped an Emotional Possession

Stepping Out of an Emotional Possession in One Moment

The following is my 'testimonial' of how listening to an Eqafe Interview assisted and supported me to in one moment step out of an emotional experience that I was dealing with within myself. This specific emotional experience was one that had started building up within myself the day before, where I had interpreted a situation and how someone behaved in a way that triggered specific thoughts and emotional reactions within my mind.

When I then noticed that I was experiencing myself in an emotional reaction and that there were thoughts spinning around in my mind that were activating, generating and fueling this emotional reaction and experience - and that this experience was starting to interfere with my daily activities, where for instance I found myself having trouble focusing on specific tasks that required my focus and awareness because I was allowing all my focus, awareness and energy to be completely absorbed by and channeled into the thoughts going through my mind about this particular individual and the emotional reactions to those thoughts in my body -- that's where I decided to apply some spoken self-forgiveness just to get myself out of the experience.

Then after a little while, I found that I had still not been able to effectively release the emotional reactions because, when I faced the specific individual in my reality again, every time there would be thoughts and emotions coming up that had now started to transform itself into an experience of anger, where, in my physical behavior and interaction with my environment, I was starting to act out the anger within my movements, which became noticeably more forceful and brutish.

I mean, at this point I was faced with the fact that my internal emotional experiences and what I was accepting and allowing myself to participate in within my mind, was having consequential outflows that were seeping through into my actual physical reality and would eventually start compromising my relationships with the people around me. Meaning that, I realized that if I accept and allow this anger to become a physical expression that comes out, not only in relation to this one person, but in relation to other people and situations as well - then I will create reactions within those people and those reactions will create ripple effects that will influence the relationships that I had built with them in my life.

I decided to go for a walk to stabilize myself a bit, because I could sense that this emotional experience had taken me over so completely that it was like I could go into an emotional breakdown over the slightest things - small things that other people said or did could trigger thoughts and interpretations in my mind that immediately triggered and activated an emotional storm within myself that lead to me just wanting to isolate myself and cry my eyes out. So on my walk I again applied spoken Self-Forgiveness and self-corrective statements - which brought me to a point of stability within myself  where I stood within the point of taking responsibility for my emotional reactions.

But then, as quickly as I saw the specific person in my environment again - there I felt the anger creeping up again and taking me over, where I felt like my head was taken over by this really dark cloud, which was that one energy of just anger. So at this point I was kind of at my whit's end because I had been writing all morning, applying self-forgiveness, going out for a walk, applying self-forgiveness - trying all sorts of things to get myself out of this emotional state that I had been experiencing myself in for the last few days, which is already way too long, but it was like nothing of my application was sufficient to really release the energy.

I then listened to an Eqafe Interview in the Reptilians series, about how we forget to walk our process because process is not preprogrammed, so it becomes easy to at a certain point just slip back into the mind if we don't in every moment find ways to remind ourselves to actually keep applying ourselves diligently, disciplined and dedicated. And, as I was sitting there, listening to Anu speaking those words,  I could see the point that he was sharing as in fact the point that I had been accepting and allowing to exist within myself - which is that I had at some point very subtly and almost unnoticed shifted back into the mind.

Meaning that instead of in every moment ensuring that I do not accept or allow myself to be guided and directed by energy, I had been here and there giving my power away to feelings, in that I had for instance at times made the choice to do specific things or not do specific things because of the positive feeling involved, where I had slowly but surely been accepting and allowing myself to more and more trust in energy as my feelings to tell me what to do and how to move myself in physical reality than trusting in myself as my decision to walk my process out of the mind and become the self-directive principle.

So, as he was speaking and I was seeing this point very clearly for myself - the energy started to release within myself, just because of that one realization in one moment. And when the interview was done, the energy was gone, more or less completely. I was Here again, clear within myself. And when I saw the person again whom I had been so reactive towards, there were small reactions coming up, but I was able to within the moment direct the reactions and make a decision to, instead of allowing myself to fall into emotional reactions and an eventual emotional breakdown, rather remain stable within myself  and go over into expressing myself in a way that solved the situation and 'evened out' my relationship with this individual.  Where then I for instance saw and realized that because I was in an emotional reaction, I was triggering reactions within this individual as well and I was perpetuating a sort of ego-dance of continuous reactions - whereas, with me moving out of the reaction and in a way 'renouncing' my ego, I also saw him becoming more relaxed in his expression towards me -- where eventually we started communicating again as we did before, in a relaxed, comfortable and open manner. And all this basically in just one moment -- where I went from absolute emotional possession, to self-direction and self-expression.

So, the point that I would like to show and share here is how listening to the interviews on Eqafe can truly be of significant assistance within our process of walking out of the mind. I mean, throughout my process I had created this idea that I am supposed to be able to walk myself out of my mind all by myself, without any help -- which was basically this rigid idea and belief that I had formed in my mind about what it means to walk process - where I had for instance not seen or realized that there have been many instances where the support of another individual had made the difference in my process, in relation to seeing a specific point or having a specific realization that in one moment quantified my process. And so it is with the Eqafe interviews, they can be so extremely specific in relation to a point that you are dealing with that by just listening to the words being spoken, you can simultaneously as you are seeing the point of realization opening up within yourself, release the energy and stabilize yourself.

I am sharing this specific instance because the difference between before and after within myself was so noticeable and significant - however there have been many instances before this one where just by listening to an Eqafe interview, I started to feel more grounded and clear within myself - because the words and the way that the words were spoken was exactly what I needed to hear in that moment to snap me out of whatever energetic experience I was finding myself in.

The Desteni of Living - My Commitment of Principle

The Following is my Declaration of the Principles that I commit myself to Live and stand by and as within my Life as an Individual Living Being Here on Earth - to Walk this Earth as a Living Example and a Living Statement that My Existence Is and Will Be a Living Testimony of What is Best for All.

1. Realising and living my utmost potential
2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all
3. Living by the principle of self honesty – to ensure I am pure in thought, word and deed: that my within and without is equal and one. Who I am within is who I am without and vice-versa
4. Self Purification through Writing, Self Forgiveness and Self Application – the action of realising I am responsible for my own thoughts, words and deeds, to forgive myself for transgressions and change myself to ensure I take responsibility for who, what and how I am and through this know that I can trust myself to always be honest with me and so others
5. Living the principle of Self Responsibility – realising only I am responsible for what I accept and allow inside of me, my relationships and my outside world and so with this responsibility: only I have the power and ability to change that which I see is compromising who I am, what I live and how this affects others
6. Realising that who I am in thought, word and deed affects not only myself – but others as well and so with Self Responsibility in thought, word and deed – I take responsibility for myself and so my relationships to be Self Aware in every moment and live in such a way that is best for me and so others as well
7. Living the Principle of Self Awareness – to be aware, to see, to recognize my own thoughts and Mind, to be self honest to the extent where I can take responsibility for when I see my thoughts / Mind is not what is best for me / others and commit to immediately take responsibility and change for myself and so for others
8. With taking responsibility for myself, becoming aware of myself – take responsibility and become aware of others in my life, to assist and support them as I am assisting and supporting myself – to give as you would like to receive and do the extra bit every day to see where I can contribute to other’s lives and so my own
9. Living the principle of self trust – as I commit myself to remain constant in my living of self honesty, self responsibility and self awareness, I stand as an unbending trust that I always in all ways know who I am no matter what I face and that in this I know, as proven in the constancy of my living that I will always honour and stand by what is best for all and so best for me
10. Making Love Visible – through me not accepting/allowing anything less than my utmost potential, I support those in my life to reach their utmost potential, to love them as I have shown love to myself by gifting to me my utmost potential, the best life/living experience and show others as I have shown myself what it means to LIVE
11. No one can save you, save yourself – the realisation that the tools and principles of Desteni is the guide, but I must walk the path myself. We are here to assist and support each other in this process from Consciousness to Awareness/LIFE and what it means to live – but the process itself, where you are alone with yourself in your own Mind: is walked alone
12. Not waiting for anything or anyone to take responsibility for me and this world – but that I realise I have created who and how I am in this moment, therefore I have the responsibility to change who and how I am and so the realisation that we as a collective created how and what this world is today and so it is the responsibility of the collective to change how and what this world is today
13. Honouring the life in each person, animal – everything from the great to the small of earth, that we expand our awareness and responsibility to creating the best possible life for everyone and everything and so ourselves
14. Relationships as Agreements: individuals coming together using agreements as a platform to one-on-one expand, grow and develop as individuals in life and living to support/assist each other unconditionally to reach their utmost potential where the agreement is a coming together of individuals understanding what it means to stand as equals and to stand as one
15. Sex as Self Expression – where sex is an united expression between individuals in honour, respect, consideration and regard of each other as equals, two physical bodies uniting in equality and oneness – a merging of two equals as one physically.
16. Realising that by the virtue of me being in this world – my responsibility does not only extend to my own Mind / my own Life, but to the minds and lives of everything and everyone of this earth and so my commitment is to extend this awareness to all of humanity to work together and live together to make this world heaven on earth for ourselves and the generations to come
17. I must in my thoughts, words and deeds – but most importantly in my living actions, become a living example for others in my world that is noticeable and visible when it comes to the potential of a person to change themselves and so change their world. So that more people can realise how we can change this world, by standing united in our self change within the principle of what is best for all to bring heaven to earth
18. I am the change I want to see in me and my world – to bring heaven to earth is to bring into being, into living the LIVING PROOF of a PRACTICAL HEAVEN that can be seen and heard in our actions and words. We are the Living Heaven that must come into creation in this living world.
19. Through purifying my thoughts, words and deeds – my inner becomes my outer, so I bring into creation me as heaven into earth, realising it is not enough to ‘see the change / be the change’ – for change to become REAL it must be a constant, consistent living of me through the words I speak and the actions I live visible and noticeable to all in every moment of breath
20. Realising that my physical body is my temple – my physical body is the living flesh through which and in which I will bring into being and create / manifest heaven on earth as me in my thoughts, words and deeds and so I honour, respect and regard – nurture and support my physical body as I would nurture and support me as equals: my body is me
21. We are the change in ourselves and this world we have been waiting for: and so I commit to dedicate myself and my life for each one as all to realise this, as nothing will change if we don’t change in all that we are, within and without
22. The realisation that for me to be able to change myself in thought, word and deed to the most effective living being that I can be and become – I first have to ‘know thyself’ and so commit myself to investigate, introspect and understand how I became who I am today, to prepare the road before me into self creation of a responsible, aware, self honest and trustworthy person for myself and so for all
23. The realisation that for me to be able to contribute to change in this world – I have to get to ‘know thyself’ as this world and so commit myself to research, investigate and introspect the inner and outer workings of this world and align the systems of today to present and give the best possible life for all on Earth

2012 The Spiritual Path of "you'll understand when you're older"

"You will see/know/understand when you get older", is a line that parents tend to throw at their children from time to time to get them to passively accept what the parent preaches/teaches without ever questioning the message. They speak these words when a child would start to ask questions about something that the parent said, that for the parent seem 'annoying' as the parent simply wants the child to listen and do what it is told from the notion that 'mother/father knows best - so then why question them?'

Maybe initially they'll attempt to explain why the child needs to do this or that when it starts asking questions - but eventually when it still doesn't 'just do what it is supposed to (according to the parent)' and continues to ask questions, it seems easier for parents to say to the child that 'they will see/know/understand it all as they get older', so for now they should just trust that the parent knows best and not ask so many questions.

So many parents use this phrase 'you'll understand when you're older', without fully looking into what this actually implies, the intention that really lies behind it and the consequences on the child's further development in the way they experience themselves and reality.

Essentially what is being conveyed within this statement of 'understanding what is going on in the world and why we must do certain things only when we've grown up', is that 'life', 'reality' and 'the world is apparently so much bigger and greater than the child and the child is thus placed in an inferior position towards life/reality/the world, eager to grow up as fast as possible to apparently be able to step out of the experience of inferiority and into an experience of 'being a worthy and complete part of reality' just like mom and dad.

Within these words, the child believes that it needs lots and lots of knowledge and information about the world, just like mom and dad, to be a complete and worthy being in this reality - thus believing that 'I will only become complete when I have gathered information and knowledge through growing older in this world'.

This not only creates the experience within the child that they are 'not good enough' as who they are because apparently 'who they have to be' exist somewhere in the distant future - but it is also a self-destroying prophecy because it is in asking questions that children learn about reality, thus they are being kept from expanding themselves and their understanding of reality by being blocked from asking questions through statements like this.

I will now share my experience of living within and as this statement that I had learned from my parents to show that this statement is in fact false and does not serve anyone or anything but the ego of the parents.

Based on the belief that I am 'dumb' and 'stupid' because 'I don't know enough' as what I had learned throughout my childhood in the way that grown ups like my parents and teachers interacted with me, often using these types of statements like 'you'll understand when you're older' to basically shut me up and stop me from asking questions, I existed in this belief and feeling within myself that I have to accumulate as much information and knowledge as I possibly can in as little time as possible to 'become full' and 'whole' as a being.

this started when I was around 10 years old. I just wanted to feel powerful, I just wanted to feel smart so that no one would ever again have 'intellectual superiority' over me and I would never again feel inferior as what I experienced towards my parents. So I would make it a sport of using vocabulary as these big and expensive words and being creative in finding ways of explaining a point so as to convince the other person that I am right and they are wrong and thus I would experience myself to be 'intellectually superior'.

Later in my life, around 18 years of age, this desire of 'being really smart' transformed into a 'spiritual quest' - as the fear of 'not being smart enough' and 'not understanding reality' and thus feeling inferior, had fully integrated itself within me as a part of the personality that I believed myself to be. I believed that knowledge is 'life'/'reality' and therefore I believed that I must get to know all that exist in reality, I must learn about everything, every theory, every conspiracy, every structure, every teaching in this world to make sure that I become a full being - just like buddha. I wanted to make sure that I become 'enlightened' in this lifetime through gathering knowledge and information about 'the universe' and 'reality' in the form of spiritual teachings as fast as possible so that I could eventually stand in that position of being able to say to other beings that 'they will understand when they grow up' or that 'they aren't ready to understand/grasp this or that yet' as what my parents told me, wherein I would draw from my vast amount of knowledge and experiences about reality to prove that 'I am superior in my understanding of life' and that everyone should just listen to me and trust me.

This is also the way many 'spiritual leaders/guru's/teachers' have set themselves up - to stand as that point of ultimate superior 'understanding' within having accumulated 'life-experiences' and 'spiritual wisdom/knowledge' from where they will apparently 'know' who people are and how/what reality is and are able to brush off people that dare question them by stating that 'they are not yet aware' or 'they will see/understand in another life-time' or 'they are not yet mature'. The same goes for beings that have gone to college and earned a college-degree, who have thus gathered more information about reality than others and apparently now stand as 'intellectually superior' and apparently having the 'right' to make claims and statements about 'what reality is' and 'who other beings are' - with their degree as the 'official recognition' that 'they have something to say'.

Now, to come back to my initial point of creating this belief within children that 'they will only understand reality when they've grown up' and that they apparently thus have nothing valid to say in this world - only reveals to us how we have missed the point of what life actually is completely. A child is here, it is alive, so is an animal, a rock, plant, car, and anything that exists here, just like any of us - no matter how old you are, whether or not you know a lot of stuff, read a lot of books, earned lots of degree's, experienced a lot of things, etc.

In fact, the reason why we 'grown ups' have never been able to effectively direct this world into a world that is actually nice, enjoyable and fun to exist in, is because we've completely 'skipped the basics', as we have suppressed ourselves as life completely - only to get lost in knowledge and information within these 'spiritual quests', eternally looking for ourselves within some kind of 'evolutionary process' - instead of realizing that we have in fact always been here and the answer to life, the answer to creating a heaven on earth, has always been here within the simplicity of a child as who we really are.

Now that we're older - would we say that we really do 'understand' what it is all about? Or have we only gotten more lost and confused within the maze of knowledge and information inside our minds? - having forgotten completely that the reason why we became so 'wise' and 'intelligent' is because we just wanted to feel better about ourselves, because we believed that we weren't already complete and ok just the way we are, and not because we necessarily needed all of that knowledge and information.

I got so 'wise' and apparently 'intellectually superior' that I got stuck in questions such as 'Who am I?' and 'What is real?' - because there existed so many concepts about reality within myself as this 'spiritual wisdom' that it leaves one to wonder if all of it is necessary in fact or even real in the first place.

It took a process of self-forgiveness, which I am still walking (since 2008), to completely walk backwards through all of what I had allowed myself to construct within myself as belief-systems about 'what is real' and 'who I am' - as I had eventually realized that while I believed that I was 'evolving' through becoming 'wiser' within and as the mind by accumulating wisdom and knowledge about myself and reality, I was actually 'devolving' because I had been suppressing myself as who I really am as the simplicity of life by defining myself within the belief that 'I will only become a full/complete being when I am older through having accumulated knowledge and experiences that apparently tell me 'what life is all about''.

So, in essence, all that I have understood when and as I got older, is that I've been duped and mislead by human beings that have equally been duped and mislead into believing that I as 'life' require knowledge and information to be able to exist, never realizing that I had only been suppressing life within myself through growing up as a 'knowledge-processing system'.

Investigate Desteni and give yourself the chance and opportunity of getting to know who you are as life and to stop the lie of the mind as knowledge and information.

2012 A child that died from Leukemia enlightens us about Reality

In this interview "History of the Interdimensional Portal - Part 2", a child comes through that died from leukemia a few years ago at the time the portal opened and the process of stopping the mind started in Heaven.

Listening to this fascinating interview, I very much enjoyed the absolute clarity, sincerity and unconditional nature of the child's expression - which made the 'story' that he was sharing very unique and absolutely interesting.

Having lived a short life full of pain as he suffered from leukemia and died of it, he looks at certain questions about life that, when we have a look at it, are in fact very valid though they have always been brushed off by us 'adults' living in this world as 'childish questions' - such as "why have I come into this world only to be sick - then what is life/reality?". Being confronted with questions like this, we've managed to create all sorts of sugar-coated reasons and excuses to not in fact truly consider this question and ask it towards ourselves, by believing that for instance 'everything in life has a purpose' and 'God works in mysterious ways' that apparently serve to validate and justify the sheer horror that lots of beings go through while existing here on earth for example within experiencing sickness like leukemia.

Listening to him sharing his experience and his observations towards life, I was able to realize that we human beings would actually be quite able to stop all the various atrocities and pain in this reality if we would only look at this question in self-honesty instead of turning away from it by looking for a purpose and reason for the suffering of the world in 'God' and his apparent 'mysterious ways and reasons'. If we would only stop for a moment and look at what is really going on in reality, inside ourselves and inside the world that we exist in - and realize that this is simply not an acceptable way of existing, no matter what kind of 'special purpose or reason' that 'God' may or may not have for all of it.

I loved hearing his story about how he experienced the first moments after he died, what he did and what he saw, and then when he first met the portal - as this opened up a lot of common sense perspectives on reality for myself that I had not considered within my existence here.

As I am in the process of stopping my mind, slowly but surely I am starting to consider another being as myself, wherein I can place myself in their shoes to consider and see that for instance what this child is sharing with us, is not 'just a story', it is real as he is a real being just like me. I am able to understand, while listening to these interviews of beings that share their experience of themselves and heaven through the portal, that there is much about this reality that is not being considered by us human beings at all - there are beings that are suffering unimaginable pains simply because the rest of us isn't willing to realize ourselves as one and equal with them, to place ourselves in their shoes and see what we are actually allowing to exist in this reality.

This interview is definitely a revelation to hear - a child speaking of their experience within dying of leukemia and of how they saw/see the world.

The interview is available for free through Youtube - enjoy!:

The first and third interviews of 'History of the Interdimensional portal' can be found on the Eqafe Online Store:

2012 Is Inner Peace the answer to life?

"May inner peace flow wherever it is needed and specially to those of us who fear our parents and so it is." (quote from spiritual person)

"This is an example of the ineffective bullshit way spiritual people handle what they refuse to take responsibility for and what they refuse to understand and investigate and what they refuse to confront to stop.

This type of allowances will hold us captive to the ego as consciousness forever unless we confront our self deception and bring an end to this through a dedicated practical real self transformation through self honest self forgiveness to make sure the accumulative effect of part in the world is always what is best for all and that we realize we must expect the same from all other beings or we will be the slaves to their whims and believes and abuses through allowing it. We have been warned throughout time that the sins of the fathers are visited upon the children and thus upon the world, but under the disguise of love we do nothing to stop the spread of sin as social disease making love a social disease as well. Remember – self honesty is the most difficult thing you will ever face as it will be your own self deception as the part you play in the mess as civilization that you will confront and must change if you ever want to become a real living being." ~ Bernard Poolman

‘Inner peace’, ‘awareness’, ‘the power of now’, ‘mindfulness’ attained through meditation or various exercises seems to be today’s answer to the apparent ‘unrest’, stress and negative/unpleasant inner experiences that the human being faces – and millions of beings gladly accept this as ‘the ultimate answer’, often even going as far as believing that the entire world will transform according to their ‘inner peaceful experience’ or that they will, through generating certain energies of love/positivity/peace, transcend this ‘earthly plane’ like Jesus to reach/obtain/attain ‘heaven’.

I must admit that I actually believed this as well – I use to be very much ‘into’ generating energy, expecting/believing/hoping that the energy will truly ‘lift me up’ and allow me to ‘amalgamate’ with the universe as pure love (which is how I understood ‘the universe’, based on various books I read and things I heard from ‘spiritual people), because that is what it felt like on the inside. On the inside through energy it felt as though I could go ‘higher’ and ‘greater’, and I really was experiencing ‘love’ and ‘compassion’ as these ‘energy waves’ that would flow through me, and it really did feel as though I could ‘send out’ these ‘love vibrations’ to others in the world – so therefore I believed that I could really change the world this way, I believed that I would reach ‘heaven’ this way as that is what it FELT like.

However there was also a part of me, waaay down within me, that was aware that what I was doing was not actually ‘real’. what do I mean with ‘real’? Sure the energy was ‘good’ and ‘nice’ and ‘positive’ and stuff, though I could see if I was really honest with myself that this was not REAL, because it was energetic experiences that I had been creating myself – I was doing all of it and I was merely experiencing my own self-created ‘vibrations’ of ‘love energy’, so what I was experiencing was myself though within denial and without the realization that it was in fact myself that I was experiencing. I basically pretended through believing that this energy that I was experiencing was ‘the universe’ or ‘something greater than myself’ – all the while evoking the energetic experience myself from the starting point of my desire to ‘experience a greater power’.

Through a process of applying self forgiveness within self-honesty – I could face myself in this, confront myself as what I had been allowing myself to participate in, which is the pretense that these energetic experiences that were ‘flowing over/through me’ where from a ‘greater source’ and not simply created by myself, because I WANTED to believe/feel/experience that there was in fact ‘something greater than myself’.

“Remember – self honesty is the most difficult thing you will ever face as it will be your own self deception as the part you play in the mess as civilization that you will confront and must change if you ever want to become a real living being.”

Indeed, facing/confronting myself is not easy – to stand in the face of myself and the liar/self-deceiver that I had become was not easy, though for the first time I could see that this is REAL. I actually realized that everything that gives me a ‘positive’/’nice’ feeling about myself or the world, is always self-created by me deliberately to not face myself as the world in fact and to be able to believe and get lost in this experience of ‘some greater power/entity’, while that which is REAL has got nothing to do with how I feel, let alone the positive feelings. In fact, I saw how I had been blatantly ignoring/suppressing/denying that which is actually real within existing in these self-evoked experiences of ‘love’, ’positivity’ and ‘peace’ wherein it feels/seems as though I have power over the world through my ‘vibrations’.

I realized that the energetic experiences of ‘love’, ‘peace’, ‘harmony’ and ‘positivity’ are of Ego – as they only serve the ‘peace of mind’ that is actually all self-directed by desiring a certain experience. My personal desires of how I would like/want to experience myself actually have no place in the REAL world, because in the real world I am actually not the center most important point of the universe – I exist HERE along side with all of existence that is HERE.

And all this ‘love’, ‘peace’ and ‘positivity’ has got nothing to do with actual caring for existence because it is all still based on ‘inner experiences’ based on personal preference and desires – therefore with love, peace, understanding and positive vibrations we will never truly change the world into an actual heaven for all living beings. Because if we’re not even willing to face our self-deception and to realize our responsibility towards ourselves as who we are here and how we experience ourselves by believing that ‘a greater power’ is making me experience this energy, then how could we possibly take responsibility for all life that exist here.

It takes guts, time and effort to investigate ourselves and the world as what is really going on here – and to stop the ego that we have allowed ourselves to become so that we my stand up as actual living beings within and as what is REAL, one and equal with reality.

And frankly, if we’re really honest with ourselves – it would be an illusion/lie to believe that change (inner as well as outer) will happen through good feelings because if we have a look at this world and at our own past, it is clear that we have made a mess of it. Therefore it should be common sense that we first have to walk backwards through the mess to face what we have created as our own life and this world, forgive ourselves for what we have created and then correct ourselves to make sure that we never create it again. And that is what it means to truly take responsibility.

If you are ready to get real and face yourself as existence, then Desteni is the place where you will find the necessary support and tools to get started on your process of walking backwards through self-forgiveness within self-honesty.

Also check out an Equal Money System as the physical platform that will be implemented to give every being on earth a chance at change.

2012 Do we have Sex, or does Sex have us?

"Sex has become the very point, the very purpose, the very reason that exist within a human being to continue existing and living and walking within this world and this reality - it is sex that defines who you are as a human being and what you're doing in this world and this reality, whether having a family, having a job, traveling the world, participating in your religions, spiritualities, movements -- everything is driven by Sex."

"And we're going to show you exactly how and why through and within the 'What is Sex?' interviews - 'what is it that makes and drives human beings to be who they are?', 'what is it within us that is giving us that experience of 'being alive'?'"

~ Sunette Spies


The 'What is Sex?' interviews made by Sunette Spies is absolutely the most thorough, specific and radically eye-opening interviews that I have ever heard about the concept of 'Sex' - which, let's face it, is a concept we just can't seem to get enough of.

She has taken the time and effort to investigate the point of Sex, the entire existence of Sex, through asking the questions that no one in the history of mankind has ever asked - going beyond science and what is generally accepted as apparent 'research' into the 'what is Sex?' question.

She has discovered that Sex is in fact the most important aspect of the human beings' existence and experience in this world, even the very answer to life's most existential questions that our 'great' philosophers have been bending and cracking their heads over for aeons of time.

It is fascinating that Sex plays such a vital (in a very literal sense) role in not only our lives as human beings, but all life on this planet - all is birthed and created through Sex. And yet it seems that all humanity, and specifically those in power in this world which is religion, education and government, have been doing throughout history is to cover up Sex and sexuality, to a certain extent pretending that it doesn't exist and to even take it so far as to judge it as 'bad', 'impure' and 'sinful'.

And through time we have been tacitly accepting this way of living, which is in essence when really having a look at reality quite absurd if not completely insane - because it allowed us to 'evolve' to a point in time where sex and sexuality has become this perverted, 'back-door', secretive part of our reality as reflected in pornography in all its many different 'styles' and 'gradations' that are the 'image and likeness' of what exist in the Human Being's 'secret mind' as what they/we all secretly want/desire/demand.

Sunette Spies has conducted elaborate 'interdimensional research' - which is research and investigation into the very structures that make up reality as who we are here, pulling everything apart of who we believe ourselves to be and what we believe reality to be, to present us with this fascinating and magnificent Interview Series that has a serious look at this intriguing question of 'What is Sex?' in all it's various dimensions.

This Interview Series is exclusively available at the Eqafe Online Store:

What is Sex? - Introduction

What is Sex? - Part 7

What is Sex? - Part 8

What is Sex? - Part 9

What is Sex? - Part 10

What is Sex - Introducing the Relationship-System - Part 11

What is Sex - The Primary and Sub Relationship-Systems of Mind and Sex - Part 12

What is Sex - Relationship Profiling - Part 13

What is Sex - How we create Relationship Profiles - Part 14


And for those who are still not convinced - here is a free interview that she made as an overview of what to expect within the 'What is Sex?' Interview Series. Enjoy!

2011 No more International Woman's Day - Life in an EMS

No more International Woman's Day and for that matter no more Men's Day, Child's Day, Labor Day, Animal Day, and all other apparently 'special' days that we use to 'celebrate' something/someone in society - because the starting point of feeling the need to celebrate something or someone is to 'make people feel better about themselves' - which basically proves/indicates that they're not already ok.

In fact any form of 'celebration' wherein you get 'special attention' is all from the starting point of realizing that we live in a shit world system, and life is hell, so therefore we apparently need 'celebrations' to occasionally be able to feel good about ourselves and life. If anything those celebration days are only here to distract us from the reality as what is actually going on - it is here to give us the feeling that we 'matter', that we are 'important' to the system/world, when really we're quite insignificant.

So, as long as there are such a thing like 'holidays' and 'celebrations' and 'vacations' and as long as we participate in them - we will not question reality, we will not question the fact that life is pretty shitty because we work day in and day out for a system that can spit us out at any moment, we suffer from stress, depression, fear, anxiety, uncertainty and a lack of self esteem.
Though as long as we have these brief moments of 'fun' as exiting events like holidays, celebrations, and vacations to look forward to, we're not seeing what is currently here as the actual reality/situation that we find ourselves in, as we are only thinking about the future as what 'lies in store for us', when we can finally 'relax' and 'take a breather'.

Instead of realizing that this is actually not normal - the need for holidays and celebrations as 'momentary relaxing' is in fact not normal, because we should be relaxed 24/7 - life should be a celebration in every moment, because life is a present, a gift, not a prison camp.
The Capitalist system is in fact like a prison camp because it is entirely based on the principle of 'fighting for survival' wherein each one is actually on their own to make sure that they can survive, which then requires working every day, just to get that pay check - and the capitalist system as employers and companies as those who are truly benefiting from the current way of the world use the 'days of celebration' and 'holidays' to make sure that people don't actually notice what is going on, so that we don't notice that our lives look like that of slaves and we are living a slave's life.

In an Equal Money system, every day will be a celebration - because the EMS is community based instead of ego-based, this means that the EMS's primary objective is to not leave people to die and starve if they can't find a job, but to rather make life as enjoyable and fun for all as possible - so no more unnecessary labor for the sake of 'having a job and a pay check'. Each and every day will be 'day of the woman' and of the man, child, animal and earth - because that is really the only thing that actually matters, all life here, and the money system is completely secondary.

So another point that is unacceptable about the current existence of 'day of the woman', is that apparently the 'woman' gets one day in an entire year wherein they are apparently 'valued', which is completely crazy - why haven't we considered asking ourselves how it is possible that we as living beings are not valued in the system every day, because we are here, breathing, living - whereas 'the system' is but an idea kept 'alive' by human beings' participation in it.


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2011 No more Gangs - Life in an Equal Money System

No more Gangs as means through which human beings from a very young age exert their anger that exist within themselves unto others in an organized way.
No more gangs as the cultivation of hate that is all based on the 'fight for survival' that the current monetary system is based upon.

Gangs are formed due to the principle of 'we have to stick together in a group to survive in this dog eat dog world' - the Gang is like a 'family' as a group of beings that come together and stick together in their fight for survival in a world that is a war zone, wherein every being only thinks about their own personal survival and the survival of their own personal 'gang' as 'family' as their group of 'support' in this world.

The 'socially accepted' form of 'gangs' is the families in which each being is born into - as this is also a group that sticks to certain 'rules of conduct', beliefs, ideas and rituals wherein the beings in the family can separate themselves from 'the rest of the world' because apparently 'we belong together' and we constantly and continuously show this to each other and the world through these set ways of speaking, walking and behaving that are based on similar shared belief systems.

The 'biological family', like the 'gang family', is only a survival method in this world as the capitalist system, that is all created out of fear of not surviving - so we stick together in groups of 'families' that are personal support systems that we may use to defend and protect our personal wealth - these 'ties' within the family that apparently 'justify' this behavior is the bloodlines. We give value to these 'bloodlines' as if the fact that our genetic codes look alike is a reason for why we are 'connected' - this idea of being 'connected in a special way' to our family members through genetics as bloodlines, is actually only an idea that exist due to the way our money system operates, because our money system forces us to look for support in our survival and so it forces us to create 'relationships' and 'ties' that are completely based on competition in our 'fight for survival' in this world.

This construct of families that look more like gangs - that are willing to destroy others that dare threaten our existence and that only care about the wealth in the family, wherein this type of family construct is the very cause and core of the existence of 'famine' in this world, as we do not care at all about any other living being in the world except for our own family with which we are apparently 'connected in a special way' as the only people who seem to be of any importance.
This will not exist anymore in an Equal Money System - as we will no longer experience the 'fear of not surviving' and so we will no longer feel the need to have 'special connections and ties' to 'family-members' - we will for the first time in the existence of man consider 'life on earth' as 'our family' and we will realize that in fact what is best for all life on earth is inevitably what is best for me, because i am a 'member of earth' and in fact not just a 'member of my family as a small group of people'.

What we've always missed is the point of realizing that our family is in fact also on earth, so it is not our little family group that is the most important, actually the most important is earth and all living beings as without earth my family wouldn't even exist. So in an EMS we will end famine because 'family' will not be about personal survival anymore - the word 'family' will get an entire different meaning as 'survival' will not even exist anymore, we will learn to see every living being on earth as 'my family', as 'my responsibility'.

Gangs, as the result and product of the lack of real support in the current money system, will thus also cease to exist in an EMS because they have no purpose what so ever besides teaching beings to fight others and win, as what is currently needed to survive and what is basically promoted by capitalism: 'be the winner' 'compete with others' 'beat others' 'leave another to die so that you may live', etcetera.


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