Jet Blue Pilot gone Wild

Only two weeks after a flight attendant on a US commercial airplane 'lost it', on march 27th it is a pilot that scared the passengers on his plane when he started to show 'unusual behavior' like pushing random buttons in the cockpit, screaming that they were all going to die, adding in some other stuff about the Israel, Iraq and Iran and twitching and jerking his head muscles.

People were, needless to say, baffled and startled, as they didn't know what was going on and because no one ever expects this kind of behavior from pilots and/or flight attendants, as the ones who are known for their almost 'perfect' exterior presentation that seems to always convey that you can trust them, which is obviously necessary when you're on a plane - that you trust the ones who are in charge of the thing to not get you killed.

So, both cases left all by-standers and their own family and friends in a state of confusion as they had no clue why or how they all of a sudden went 'crazy' like that - according to this CBS News article, the landlady of the Pilot was absolutely shocked to hear of his apparent 'meltdown' because she knew him as a happy-go-lucky guy who was always friendly, never seemed to suffer from depression or stress and was always in a good mood.

These are events that basically shake up the foundational values and belief systems that people have about reality, leaving them behind in a state of confusion and an eery sense of not knowing what the hell is going on in this world - for instance in these cases, the belief that humans had about 'flight attendants and pilots being trustworthy and stable beings' got completely shattered as they were faced with these 'mental breakdowns' that seemed to come out of nowhere, that clearly showed that pilots and flight attendants are not as 'perfect' and 'stable' as they look and as they always present themselves to be.

Many structures, institutions and manifestations in this world are in fact based on such belief systems, wherein we trust certain people and institutions, such as politicians, teachers, parents, 'the government', 'hospitals', doctors, nurses, police officers, etc. because of how they are being presented and how they tend to present themselves - which is as if they are more trustworthy than the rest of us and that it is therefore safe to place our lives in their hands as that is what we do every single day.

What situations like this with the flight attendant and the pilot apparently 'losing it' are showing us is that basically our entire experience and perception of reality is based on lies and illusions - as we exist within gullibility, nativity and ignorance wherein we would much rather trust, have faith in and believe in a pretty and nice illusion such as 'I can trust a pilot/politician/nurse/my mother/my teacher/...' that makes us automatically want to follow and believe in what they tell us so that we can feel safe and secure within ourselves, than to look at reality as the FACT that all of these beings that have labeled themselves according to the position that they play in this world of money, are just people just like us - they are not more benevolent or trustworthy. In fact they are just as crazy, deceitful, manipulative and self-dishonest as the rest of us, and they themselves are also just looking for someone to trust and follow just like so many beings trust them.

It is fascinating to watch how human beings seem to exist in such denial of who they really are and of what is really going on in reality, as they allow themselves to be so easily influenced and duped by all the pretty presentations in this world, the pretty pictures wherein most people (especially the ones with money) seem to be 'good' - not realizing that if you have money, then obviously you have a wide range of possibilities to create a certain 'style' in which you will present yourself to 'society' to basically manipulate people into trusting you because you 'look the part' and obviously because people are so very easily misguided because of their own mind and the way they as the mind were programmed to always believe and trust in anyone with money and power as they will (apparently) show the way to survival/safety/security.

Which clearly explains why and how people tend to be mesmerized by the glitter and glamor of 'Hollywood Celeb-society' - almost automatically/instinctively trusting them, only because they look like they have a lot of money, as that 'natural tendency' of the human to only think about it's own survival and thus 'instinctively' turn towards and feel attracted to those that are most able to provide and support that survival like those with the most money in this world, not realizing that the very way the human mind was set up and programmed was to sabotage itself by for instance not being aware of itself and of how reality works and operates - thus often ending up making decisions that were definitely not what was best for life on earth as it was simply driven by a one-dimensional personal emotional experience.


So, what will now happen in this case of the Pilot 'gone mental' and in the case of the flight attendant 'losing her marbles', just like in all cases where these type of 'unexplainable' and unpredictable events occur, is that the 'rationalization-process' begins - and in this 'rationalization-process', various doctors, psychologists, psychiatrists and other apparently 'qualified' human beings will bring forth their 'theories/explanations/reasons' for why these two beings had reacted and 'stepped out of their normal programming' in the way that they did. For instance in the news report discussing the flight attendants 'rant', they mention that the reason for her behavior was (or could have been) that she hadn't taken her medication for her 'mental illness'.


And this will only be to appease and comfort the minds of mankind that were for a moment 'undermined' by and through experiencing/witnessing these 'freak events' - so they can once again slide comfortably into that trusted feeling within themselves that 'all is well' and 'all is as it should be' wherein 'everything (seemingly) has its place and can thus to a certain extent be predicted', so we may all once again delude ourselves within feeling that we have reality 'under control', obviously only until the next 'freak event' happens.


Though, instead of simply allowing ourselves to 'settle' for this kind of pre-programmed living that isn't actually living and expression, wherein we exist in complete willful ignorance of what is in fact going on in reality and of who and why we are, why don't we take this opportunity to stop within ourselves and stand up to no longer allow ourselves to exist as these programmed robots of the mind that always need some sort or 'rationalization' of why, how, when and where 'I' am and 'reality' is to apparently be able to 'be ourselves'?

This ignorance of us has gone too far because it does not only affect ourselves, but also all that exist here like nature, animals, children and all other human beings - we all are suffering the consequences of our allowed ignorance of the mind.

Investigate Desteni that will support you in your process of stopping the mind and standing up as a real trustworthy, constant and stable being that takes responsibility for all life that exist here!

2012 Should Reincarnation exist at all?

"A Past Life memory is the same as reading a few pages from a history book in the LIEbrary. The viewer is either a hero or victim in a story of self interest that is blown up to get attention." Bernard Poolman





My experience with reincarnation is that it fascinated me from the perspective of wanting to have a 'past life' that was obviously 'of importance' and 'special' so that i could feel 'profound', 'rich', 'deep' and 'important'.

I had some 'visions'/images/imprints in my mind when I was little which was a little bit like a memory of a 'past life', though back then I didn't pay any real attention to it, it simply existed within me as a part of myself, so what. It was only later in my life when I desired to feel special and unique in some way that I started digging into myself and giving much value to these type of 'curiosities', separating it from myself by glorifying this 'memory of a past life' as something that apparently adds much value to my existence here in this world - something that I could use as a reference point to show and prove to other people that yes indeed I am very special.

Though what I find shocking now, looking at how I have always existed in this world, is that while I experienced myself as apparently 'great', 'superior' and 'unique', I actually knew very little of myself and of reality - as I had taken just this one small part of myself, the 'memory of my past life' (which was really just like a vague short snippet from a dream), and blown it way out of proportion just so that I could feel 'important' and 'special' when I didn't even know where it came from, who I am or was within it, if I even really had a past life, if reincarnation is even real or anything, because I was so obsessed with just being able to feel like I am special for some reason in some way that I used this 'memory', of which I wasn't even sure that it was in fact a memory, for that purpose of blowing up and feeding my delusions of grandeur.

So in this way, the whole concept of 'reincarnation' has only been something 'fascinating', intriguing and apparently 'special' for me because of how thinking and believing that I have a past life made me feel, because surely it must mean that I am so much 'more' than who I am here within and as this life. I have always used the concept of reincarnation to serve my self-interest as the desire to feel special in this life here on earth, because it is obvious that I was basically very dissatisfied with myself and my life - I wanted suspense, I wanted adventure, I wanted to feel like a superhero of sorts, just like in the movies that I had watched. And compared to those movies, my life seemed and felt really boring.

So, realizing that there exist this image within my mind that almost feels like a distant memory but that is not from this lifetime that I am living at the moment, I immediately started going over and over this image in my mind to continuously generate the experience/energy of 'being unique/special'- desiring to remember more about past life times and to have these great eye-opening experiences and revelations so that I could talk about them to other people and so that I could get much attention and recognition for it.

I was so caught up with wanting to feel important in this world, that I deliberately glorified things about this reality such as the concept of reincarnation and the possibility of 'having past lives' so that I could personally feel special - though I never stopped within myself to realize and see what is actually really going on in this world. It never occurred to me to look at this reality as what it is without taking my personal desires, feelings and personality into the equation - but to simply see this reality for what it is. Because then I might notice just how absurd the existence of 'reincarnation' is - I might just notice how absurd my entire life is and has been, wherein I have always been existing within this inner experience of 'not being good enough', always looking for something outside of myself that will apparently 'make me better', without even knowing, seeing or being aware of why or how I got that way and experienced myself as such in the first place.

I might just have noticed that there is something really strange going on with and in this world - with all those spiritual leaders and scripts that speak about the apparent 'glorious process of reincarnation' wherein we are all on a journey to become 'the Buddha Consciousness' through having to come back here to this earth and suffer and learn lesson after lesson without remembering a thing about the previous lessons or if there even was a 'previous life' at all.

I mean, why does reincarnation exist in the first place? Why is there such a construct that has apparently been designed by 'God' or some sort of higher power/force that wants us to suffer like this, running around not knowing who we are, why we are and what is actually going on here?

And more importantly, why have we been accepting reincarnation as the governing force in our lives without ever questioning it's existence in terms of checking to see whether or not this is in fact what is best for all as what is common sense? Even those who say that they 'don't believe in God or a higher power and reincarnation' are still existing here on this planet as if this is not our home. All of us are seeing earth as some kind of 'space-station' on which we're just 'passing through' to get to our 'final destination' that apparently exist after death - which can clearly be seen in the way we interact with earth, nature, animals and all and everything that exist here in this physical reality - those who 'believe in god and reincarnation' and those who do not alike.

It is evident that reincarnation as the subconscious belief that 'there is something more after this life' and that 'this life is just a test/game' is what drives our experience and application of ourselves in this world, because we have as a human race collective not even once taken any form of responsibility for this reality and for ourselves within this reality - the consequences of which we are now slowly but surely coming to grips with.

So, indeed, reincarnation is just a way to side step immediate responsibility and action - it is an excuse that we have been using throughout the ages to postpone finding lasting solutions for this reality so we may experience heaven on earth and it is the reason why we are still postponing, waiting and hoping for solutions to come to us while we are literally standing in a sinking ship watching ourselves within the dysfunctional world-systems that we have allowed to exist go under as if we never saw it coming.

The problem here is that we actually did see it coming, but our 'power' to 'turn a blind eye' and claim ignorance towards what we are aware of deep down within ourselves has always been able to override common sense and taking affirmative action within seeing what should be done to in fact establish a world wherein our experience of ourselves here wouldn't feel like a lesson, punishment or tough job and wherein we wouldn't constantly be looking for a way out through either spirituality or entertainment, which both pretty much come down to the same thing.

So, is reincarnation real? Who is to say? The only thing that is clear in considering who we are and what is in store for us within common sense - is that whether or not reincarnation exist actually makes no difference because it is who we are here in this very moment that defines who we will be and it defines how our reality and experience of reality will be - no matter where we are, here on earth or in the 'after-life'. A change in scenery or situation will not change who we are in any way what so ever - if we do not stand within and as self-responsibility here and now, in this very moment, than we will never be able to experience ourselves as heaven, as life, as existence, as God, as all that is - not in this life, not in the next life and not if we were to 'ascend' to a higher plane in heaven or where ever.

The mess that we create and allow to exist here on this earth, will continue to haunt us until we stand up and take responsibility for it and actually direct it to creating a world that is best for all or until it is too late and we blow all chances of ever realizing and experiencing what life and living really is as what it could be - just like it has been haunting us up to this point where we stand at the brink of crossing the threshold of 'the point of no return' as the point of 'too late-ness'.

So what will it be? Will we stand up and take responsibility for ourselves here and direct this world into what it always should have been as a heaven on earth - or will we rather choose to continue stretching the ignorance of the mind of existing within the idle hope that a solution will come to us or that we will get another chance in our next life while all goes to irreparable shit and we push ourselves to that point of looking at what we've allowed to be done, saying to ourselves 'shit, if only I had moved myself sooner...', 'if only I had stood up when I still had the chance to make a difference'?

We do not want to experience the latter!


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2012 Anu the Reptilian God

This is the story of Anu - the Creator of humanity. The instigator of all that we know today as our experience of what 'life' is.

Anu was of the Reptilian Race and in this interview he shares his experience of himself when he was 'younger' with regards to existence - which was at that time already separated and fragmented, which turned out to be obvious as not only Anu acted out of selfishness by creating his 'Kingdom' and using all other beings, but also every other being in existence that has allowed itself to be seduced into 'becoming a part of this Kingdom of humanity'.

So, how was he able to create humanity as this manifested prison of separation?

What was life like before the emergence of Humanity, wherein all life in existence came together in this one form and this one earth?

Where did our Creator come from and what was his Starting Point in creating the Human being?

Discover this fascinating interview made by our Creator himself - and especially discover that there is in essence no creator and that we are here in this mess Alone Together, with no savior, no God, no 'supreme being', no 'divine answer or force' to save, help or rescue us - because Anu was essentially just a being that created a certain creation from the starting point of his personal experience, unaware of himself as Oneness and Equality.

Discover Our Creator Anu in his teenage years, as he grew up in existence and what lead him to consider taking control of existence as 'His Creation'.

Discover what it would be like to stand in the shoes of God - as the realization to have all of existence within yourself, within one being, to stand as the one point where everything comes together and ask yourself 'What would you do? Would you not do what ever it takes to hold on to that ultimate experience of absolute power that is in essence the most all-encompassing experience there exist?'


An important issue that is being discussed in this and in the following interviews of Anu is the question of 'Are we really aware of ourselves?' 'Are we really the directive principle of ourselves here within and as existence?' 'Are we aware of ourselves as existence itself?' and 'Do we even really know where we come from?' - because even Anu as the apparent 'God of existence' had to realize that what he created, who he had become, all that he experienced and every decision that he made in his 'life' was in a way pre-determined as all was merely an outflow of certain experiences of which he never really understood where it all came from as he had just accepted it as 'himself', just like how we are existing at this point.


Another interesting subject Anu takes a look at within his interviews is the concept of 'Birth and Death' as to why it exist and who we are within and as it and how this point of 'recycling' as birth and death has been directing us since the beginning of our existence - and especially why it is imperative that we now for the first time in existence stop ourselves and realize what is here and who we are as here - before it is too late. Before we have literally consumed all and everything that is here on this planet and destroyed it and ourselves and wasted every chance at ever finding out who we are here as life.

enjoy the Interview, I know I did.

2012 Is Individuality a Program? Unraveling the Design.

Century of Self

In the documentary 'Century of Self', the 'transformation' of the human being from a being that simply works/lives for survival to a 'spiritual being' as one that desires for there to be more to 'life' than merely surviving is very well laid out, walking through the changes in society that created the changes in the self-perception and world-view of the human being.

This documentary clearly shows that there is much more to ourselves than who we believe/think ourselves to be, that there are factors that determine and shape our very personality and experience of ourselves that we've always taken for granted - more specifically these factors are the economic system as businesses and corporations that shaped our society and our experience of ourselves within it that we know today.

It is fascinating that the human being never really sees itself as a part of a bigger picture, in that is very gullible and naive as it will believe and copy its environment very quickly and easily, quite like a robot/computer is able to be programmed by inserting certain programs as knowledge and information about 'who/what it is', 'why it is' and 'what it is here to do'. The human being will construct its views and experiences of itself and 'reality' based on copied and accepted information and experiences rather than to investigate itself and reality to find out what is really going on within and as 'the bigger picture'.

Therefore the human being as who/what it is today will never truly consider itself to be but a product of certain events, changes and evolutionary processes that occurred in the past, and it will simply live out its 'programming' based on for instance the belief of 'individuality' - without even realizing or noticing that this concept of 'individuality' in itself is a concept/idea that was 'programmed into us' by our environment.

This is a point that is very well explained and laid out in this documentary 'Century of Self' - wherein they show what changes the society went through in terms of new scientific development that in turn shaped the external factors of society that shape a human beings perception/experience of itself and the world

Shaping the individual through consumerism

The 'scientific development' that made a great impact on the economic (and later on the political) landscape was specifically the theories and discoveries of Sigmund Freud. He discovered that the human has a subconscious and unconscious mind/layer underneath its conscious mind that is actually the driving force of the human being in this world, and these 'sub-layers' are filled with various hidden and suppressed emotional experiences and desires that could trigger a being into doing irrational acts --which then implies that the human being would actually be very easily influenced and directed by someone/something who knows how the mind works and who knows how to push the unconscious/subconscious 'buttons'.


With the advice of Edward Bernays, Freud's nephew and 'public relations adviser', the Business world would eventually apply Freud's theory in their advertisement and marketing strategies to direct, channel and use the unconscious desires of human beings to their advantage, by linking their products through symbols to unconscious desires of the human being. Thus, consumerism started because corporations and industries were no longer only focusing on what the human needed to live/survive, but on what the human (unconsciously) desired --which didn't necessarily have anything to do with what they needed.

And so, also the idea of 'individuality' started growing - wherein human beings were supported in advertisement to 'express their uniqueness' and 'individuality' through the products that they buy. 'to live' became equal to 'to consume/buy', as people would basically be presented with this new idea that they are 'an individual' and that this 'individuality' must be cultivated through buying certain products to show to the world the kind of individual that you are.

The idea that arose at this point was that the human being is 'so much more' than merely a being that tries to survive in this world. This notion of there apparently being 'so much more'/'something special' to the human being, which was called into being by corporations seeking to make more money through going from a market of limited needs/demand to one with ever changing demand/needs , is what would lay the basic foundation for the 'spiritual personality' that we are growing into today - as we search ever more diligently for our 'special purpose in life' and for 'who we really are' as the apparent specialness of our human existence.

The power of powerlessness

Now, this was happening around the 1950's, starting in the US. Based on Freud's theories about the unconscious mind, governments and corporations sought to use and direct these inner unconscious desires of 'the masses' towards a specific mind-set that benefited both the political and economical world - because, as Freud claimed, the inner desires of the human being are inherently evil and therefore must be suppressed/repressed, and at the same time conformed to a single goal that is to be determined by those in power.

However, towards the 60's, people started to 'rebel' against this conformity, ignited by a few people like Wilhelm Reich and Martin Luther King - large protests and campains were held by students on American campuses against the society that they apparently had to conform to, which was capitalism, religious doctrines, racial segregation and manipulation through advertisement as these students began to notice that consumerism is in fact a way to keep the people docile and distracted while the government could wage its violent war in Vietnam without being questioned. These 'rebels' were then seen as the 'new left', to which the government reacted very violently in their attempt to keep 'the masses' controlled, contained and conformed.

As a reaction to this violent attack from the government that in a way rendered the 'new left' with a feeling of powerlessness towards ever being able to change the status quo - they turned to a new ideology: "If it is impossible to get the policeman out of ones head by overthrowing the state, instead one should find a way of getting inside ones own mind and removing the controls implanted there by the state and corporations".

This new idea sounded in the era of the 'new self', the 'self-actualized human being' - based on the idea that 'the external world, like governments and the economic system doesn't need to be changed - as the human is perfectly capable of being happy/creating happiness within its own mind'.

From this, many 'spiritual movements' and therapies came forth that supported the human in cultivating this 'inner happiness' and 'self-actualization' and thus human beings again felt like they had found purpose and meaning to their lives, they found their point of 'individuality' wherein they were apparently freed from the grip of the corporations and the governments that were apparently trying to conform them into docile slaves.

Though what was not realized is that they may have felt as though the world has changed by cultivating 'inner change' through generating certain inner experiences, yet the political and economical structures that actually shaped and governed the world and the lives of each human being were still here and still very much in control. In fact, they were very busy searching for new ways of using and directing this 'new self' to their advantage.

What actually happened here was that the hold of the political and economical structures on people and the separation between those in power and 'the masses' only became stronger/bigger as politics and economics in a way moved to the background into the 'unseen' as human beings now existed within this belief that 'the inner experience shapes the world'. In this they never realized that this 'state of mind' only made them more vulnerable to being manipulated by those 'unseen forces' that were actually governing their lives.

Human beings became completely consumed by the idea of individuality, wherein 'the self' as the inner experience of self stepped into the foreground and took the center stage - losing all touch with the basic foundational structures that direct and govern this world, as they had 'given up' when they stood in the face of the violence exerted towards them by their own government. Instead of facing this inner defeat and being self-honest about what is really going on to continue to look for a way to change the basic infrastructures of this world to create a world that is best for all, they gave in to the defeat by looking away from it and distracting themselves by creating the opposite experience within themselves, which was that of 'self-glorification' as the belief that 'if I change myself on the inside, then the outside world will magically change'.

This never actually worked as human beings didn't even realize their very starting point of wanting to 'change their inner self', which was the experience of powerlessness towards the world. This glorification of the inner experience was in fact but an excuse that human beings used to not take part in the world anymore, to not have to deal with the reality of what it would actually take to in fact change this world - as they had accepted themselves as 'powerless towards the powers that be', 'powerless towards the world-structures'. So the only power they could experience was inside of themselves wherein they apparently had the power to 'become whoever they wanted to be'.

Out of this flowed various forms of apparently fantastic, wondrous, great and glorious 'inner experiences' such as 'love, peace and understanding' with the hippie-movement in the 70's, in which they placed their faith, hope and trust that these 'wonderful inner experiences' will 'magically' change the world. Yet - it obviously never did as beings would continuously overlook the actual real workings of this world because they didn't want to be confronted anymore with the very things they feared and felt powerless towards.

The consequences of individuality

As a result and outflow of these 'evolutions' in the mind-set of human beings due to various events in society - what we now have is a human being that is lost within its 'self-glorification' as the idea that 'my individuality and my inner experiences is all that exist', that is cunningly directed by corporations to 'keep the economy going' and by governments to ensure that 'the masses' will never again question 'the powers that be'. We are now in an age of mass ignorance that grew over time - as a result of human beings accepting their apparent inherent powerlessness towards this world and towards creating a world that is best for all, eventually turning towards the 'light' of spirituality and television that feed an inner experience of power. Yet we never realized that this experience of power is not actual power - it is actually powerlessness in disguise.

This explains why many beings react with aversion and rejection towards the message and idea of an Equal Money system as a political solution that aims at bringing about practical change in this world in fact, using the basic infrastructures that is here - because people don't want to be confronted with reality anymore, as they'd rather believe in the light and the positive inner experiences as the illusion of power. We have at this point in time become so disconnected from what is real because we fear what is real, we fear the government, we fear economics, we fear money and what it could do to us, we fear the power of the system, we fear police - because we have come to identify ourselves with the experience of powerlessness towards the capitalist system and politics, and we have even accepted it as 'reality' that is apparently 'unchangeable' as if it were designed by the very hand of God, never to be questioned by us 'common folks'. Therefore apparently our only choice is to distract ourselves with love and light and inner experiences, to at least create the feeling that we have power.

Is there a solution?

What this 'Century of Self' documentary clearly reveals and exposes is that the human perception and experience of 'self' as 'an individual' at this point in time is in fact a 'construct'/program that has been built up over time through 'shifts in consciousness' that occurred as reactions to certain situations/events that happened - very similar to how differences in 'mentality' between cultures are defined and shaped within major events that happened in the timeline of that particular culture, that caused the beings within that specific 'culture'/country to react a certain way and thus 'shift' their understanding/consciousness of themselves and the world.

So, what this essentially implies is that we as 'individuals' as a collection of thoughts feelings and emotions within ourselves that we call 'our identity/personality' - are/is a program and that we/it can thus be 'de-programmed'.

The reason why this realization is so important is because it is clear to see that we have become lost in our programming and we have made a mess of this reality, because we never realized ourselves as who/what we are, which is basically programmable robots. Once we realize that we have been programmed, we can de-program ourselves and 'recreate ourselves' into a being that stands as what is best for all life within and as the self-directive principle of life, to ensure that we never allow ourselves to make such a mess of reality ever again.

Visit www.desteni.org to get to the practical how-to of the process of de-programming that is ahead for each one of us - so that we may stand up to direct this reality without fear and practically create a world wherein each living being can live in dignity.

And read about the Equal Money system to get to know what is possible within this world - in the first book about Equal money 'The Future of Money - Volume 1'

2012 Do we have Sex, or does Sex have us?

"Sex has become the very point, the very purpose, the very reason that exist within a human being to continue existing and living and walking within this world and this reality - it is sex that defines who you are as a human being and what you're doing in this world and this reality, whether having a family, having a job, traveling the world, participating in your religions, spiritualities, movements -- everything is driven by Sex."

"And we're going to show you exactly how and why through and within the 'What is Sex?' interviews - 'what is it that makes and drives human beings to be who they are?', 'what is it within us that is giving us that experience of 'being alive'?'"

~ Sunette Spies


The 'What is Sex?' interviews made by Sunette Spies is absolutely the most thorough, specific and radically eye-opening interviews that I have ever heard about the concept of 'Sex' - which, let's face it, is a concept we just can't seem to get enough of.

She has taken the time and effort to investigate the point of Sex, the entire existence of Sex, through asking the questions that no one in the history of mankind has ever asked - going beyond science and what is generally accepted as apparent 'research' into the 'what is Sex?' question.

She has discovered that Sex is in fact the most important aspect of the human beings' existence and experience in this world, even the very answer to life's most existential questions that our 'great' philosophers have been bending and cracking their heads over for aeons of time.

It is fascinating that Sex plays such a vital (in a very literal sense) role in not only our lives as human beings, but all life on this planet - all is birthed and created through Sex. And yet it seems that all humanity, and specifically those in power in this world which is religion, education and government, have been doing throughout history is to cover up Sex and sexuality, to a certain extent pretending that it doesn't exist and to even take it so far as to judge it as 'bad', 'impure' and 'sinful'.

And through time we have been tacitly accepting this way of living, which is in essence when really having a look at reality quite absurd if not completely insane - because it allowed us to 'evolve' to a point in time where sex and sexuality has become this perverted, 'back-door', secretive part of our reality as reflected in pornography in all its many different 'styles' and 'gradations' that are the 'image and likeness' of what exist in the Human Being's 'secret mind' as what they/we all secretly want/desire/demand.

Sunette Spies has conducted elaborate 'interdimensional research' - which is research and investigation into the very structures that make up reality as who we are here, pulling everything apart of who we believe ourselves to be and what we believe reality to be, to present us with this fascinating and magnificent Interview Series that has a serious look at this intriguing question of 'What is Sex?' in all it's various dimensions.

This Interview Series is exclusively available at the Eqafe Online Store:

What is Sex? - Introduction

What is Sex? - Part 7

What is Sex? - Part 8

What is Sex? - Part 9

What is Sex? - Part 10

What is Sex - Introducing the Relationship-System - Part 11

What is Sex - The Primary and Sub Relationship-Systems of Mind and Sex - Part 12

What is Sex - Relationship Profiling - Part 13

What is Sex - How we create Relationship Profiles - Part 14


And for those who are still not convinced - here is a free interview that she made as an overview of what to expect within the 'What is Sex?' Interview Series. Enjoy!

2012 What is 'Déjà-Vu'? - Investigating the Religion of Science

A 'Déjà-Vu' is that eery, uncanny feeling of 'almost being able to predict what is about to happen' within a situation - wherein one experiences oneself as if in a state of dreaming, where 'reality' seems to become somewhat strange yet at the same time more 'lucid'. Some Déjà-Vu's last for a second or two and are just a vague feeling of familiarity and others can be so clear and long-lasting that one is in fact able to predict what someone is going to say the second before they say it or what will happen the second before it happens - and almost all human beings experience this at one point or another in their life.

Science has tried to come up with an explanation, not wanting to leave anything to be claimed by 'spiritualists' and 'religious people' as apparently 'God's way of communicating with us' or 'a sign that there is 'more' to life than what can be scientifically proven' - so their research has come up with the theory that a Déjà-Vu is an 'anomaly' within the memory wherein our brain automatically constructs a way of interpreting/experiencing a situation based on a past experience, causing us to in fact in that moment exist in our memory, which then makes us experience this 'strange' sensation that 'I have been here before'.

Though, this 'scientific research' is not in fact based on genuine introspection and investigation into the actual inner workings of the mind - as what scientists basically do is look at reality, even their own minds/brains/inner workings, from a distance - poking and prodding around to get some kind of grip/control on 'who they are' and 'what life is', to in a way be able to feel safe and secure and to feel as though they have everything under control - which basically stems from an experience of fear within themselves, a fear of the unknown, fear of 'the unexplainable', fear of 'the great black void' within themselves that cannot be defined, which in essence is fear of death - as death is the one thing that human beings cannot possibly control and it scares the shit out of them.


So they try their best to make life/themselves as much 'under control' as possible through knowledge and information that they store in their minds in an attempt to cover up who they really are as the inner undefined/undefinable experience of self.

So really, how can we expect these 'scientists' that are basing their investigations on the fear of life/death as that which cannot be defined, that which simply 'is', to tell/show us what life is as what is actually real and what the truth is of this reality, while they themselves are in fact too afraid to even look at life, to look within themselves and investigate themselves within the realization that 'I am HERE - therefore I am LIFE'?

How can we honestly believe that we hold the 'answers to life' when these 'answers' in themselves are essentially based on knowledge and information as words that we have simply copied and cloned from our parents and all those that have gone before us - without ever even questioning these basic 'building-blocks' of our very understanding of this reality - therein merely basing all our so-called 'investigation' and 'research' on our 'belief' that what we learned/copied/cloned from our parents was 'the truth'? Therefore, when looking at science in this way - isn't science then not also a 'belief-system', a 'religion', wherein we place our 'good faith' in our parents, educational systems, books, teachers and previous generations as our 'Gods' that have presented us with the ways in which we should 'understand'/'see'/'interpret' reality?

So anyways, back to investigating the Déjà-Vu. Once one starts to investigate ones mind, and peel off the very layers of 'consciousness' through applying the practical tool of Self-forgiveness within self-Honesty, one starts to come to an actual real-live understanding/realization of what for instance the 'phenomenon' of Déjà-Vu really is, or any kind of 'illness'/disease of the mind - and this is accomplished through merely having the guts to look within self as the truth of ourselves that we have always been trying to hide within ourselves.

What a Déjà-Vu is within the context of ourselves as the mind as a pre-programmed, pre-designed program of predictable reactions is but the evidence that indeed we are a program, as an already pre-designed 'plan' that we are simply walking out, within the belief that we are 'unique' and 'special'. Yet, for those that have experienced the Déjà-Vu, you may notice that while the Déjà-Vu is happening, no matter how you react to it, it all seems to be part of it, even the thought of 'holy shit, I'm having a Déjà-Vu' - clearly showing/revealing to us that nothing of what we think, feel or experience within ourselves and about reality is in any way unique or special as it is all 'just happening to us' and 'just part of the program' and we're but 'watching it happen/unfold'. So then, when it has passed we just brush it off, saying 'wow, I just experienced a Déjà-Vu' and continue with our lives in complete ignorance of 'what just happened to us' as we are completely unaware of who we are.

At this point the human being is a system, it is not life/reality - and it is now walking out its pre-programmed path of reactive behavior wherein everything we experience just kind of 'happens to us', and we are in no way even aware of the fact that we are but a program, as we really believe that we are 'unique' and 'special', which is by the way also part of the program.

One should only look at this reality and the way that the human being has managed to fuck up earth, nature and the animal kingdom as that which is actually aware of itself as life - to realize the extent to which the human is not aware of what it is doing and who/what it is at all and consequently does not take any responsibility for its actions here in existence.

Though all hope is not lost for the human to realize itself as life, become aware of who it is and take responsibility for itself as existence - and to then direct existence within the principle of what is best for self as life/existence itself, instead of merely living out a program of destruction as what we are doing at this moment. Through walking a process of applying self-forgiveness within Self-Honesty, we are able to become aware of the system/program/robot that we have allowed ourselves to become and to stop ourselves as this program that is not life - to then birth ourselves as life as the actual reality.

Then we will not need scientists anymore to tell us what is real and who we are - as we will stand/exist as reality itself. So, investigate Desteni where you will receive support to start walking your process out of the program that is the mind and into life.

Also get to know about an Equal Money System - as our opportunity to consider that the capitalist system as the program of destruction that we are currently walking out in this reality, is not 'God' - and realize that change is possible!

2012 Do your Guide Still read the Newspapers?

As so many guides, angels and spiritual beings have given us messages of Hope, Light and Love through channels and psychics with regards to the year 2012 - and even 'mainstream' people like Oprah and Jim Carry start talking about 'the light', 'awareness' and 'eternal bliss' - I suppose it's about time, now that we are the year 2012, that we have a serious look at all these prophecies and predictions about what will/may/could happen in 2012.

The point that is for instance quite fascinating with regards to 'messages of Hope for 2012' is that simultaneously the earth is starting to fall apart extremely rapidly. Ecological and economical disasters are taking over life on earth - and more than ever has the internet as the global network of information confronted us with the lies and deceit that has been done by our governments and by the corporations that we have always trusted with our lives.

Many unpleasant truths about our reality are surfacing and being exposed through people like Michael Moore, David Icke, Michael Tsarion and Alex Jones. It's interesting that when we started getting to grips with just how much we have been destroying the earth and how severe the consequences of our existence here actually are - up comes the message of spirituality with 'the power of now' and 'mindfulness' - all these 'self-made Guru's' start popping out of the ground like mushrooms, telling us to look up towards the light, as there is where our true bliss, happiness, love and peace lies that we are searching for.

We are being offered 'an escape' if you will, a convenient 'way out' of the mess that we face at this point within our reality. And even though it seems as though we are at some sort of 'tipping point' in human 'spiritual evolution' where the human will apparently, according to many prophecies and messages of 'beings of light', go to a higher vibrational density/frequency and eventually 'dissolve into light as energy' - when we have a look at human behavior in terms of beliefs throughout history, we may notice that this 'belief in the light' and 'desire to follow the light' and 'desire to become one with/amalgamate with the light as God as all that is Good' has in fact always been here. We can see it in the artwork of humans, in their lifestyles and religions - humans have always desired to 'be of light', which basically means to want to occupy itself with all that is 'pretty', 'lovely', 'good', 'wonderful', 'magical', 'mysterious', 'shiny' and 'glamorous'.

Spirituality in all its aspects that we find in society today is in essence no different from for instance consumerism or any form of religion - as it is all founded and based on one singular desire, which is the desire of the human to 'possess the light', to experience 'the light' - and some do this through praying and others through meditating, chanting mantra's, playing or listening to music, shopping and spending lots of money, wearing new and clean clothes, having sex, dancing, eating, etcetera...
In fact every and any desire that the human has within anything that it does in this world within itself has got all to do with basically the desire to experience 'the light' as 'energy', as 'ecstasy', 'the divine' - always going and reaching 'higher', far away from this world and its apparent 'lower vibrational frequency'.

And if we have a look within common sense at our reality in relation with this desire that is apparently inherent within human beings - it seems to be evident that it is in fact this very desire to experience 'heaven' as some kind of energetic experience within self, that has caused us to not look at or notice what we are doing here on earth. So we were in fact creating a complete mess, by not paying any attention what so ever to what the consequences would be to our behavior here on earth, to our every action, as we have always been too busy looking for God 'up there', reaching for the light, hoping, waiting, attaining, longing, desiring. And now here we are, at the absolute breaking point of our existence where we are stuck in our own creation that is nothing but the result of ages of neglect of what is really here as earth, nature and the animals - and obviously, what do we do?

We do not take a moment to look around and consider that we may be responsible for what is happening on earth - we do not realize that earth has not always been Hell, as that just is what we humans have made of it through having allowed ourselves to be gullible and ignorant. Nope, what we do is turn towards the light even more resolute - blinding ourselves to the ultimate degree because we have gotten to the point that we simply cannot handle our own reality anymore - the chaos of this reality is driving us mad so we turn to meditation to numb us into silence and apparent 'peacefulness', believing ourselves to be 'one with everything', when how can that be as all we've done is silenced our minds instead of investigated reality and ourselves from the starting point of realizing that this 'chaos' that we experience inside of ourselves, as apparently due to 'the outside world', is our responsibility as what we have allowed to exist through our participation in the human reality of absolute unwillingness to take responsibility for earth, animals and nature and for each other as living beings.

Therefore, why do our 'guides' only offer 'a way out'? Why do our Angels, Guides and Spiritual Masters only tell us what we want to hear, which is to 'just follow the light and you won't have to look at your own creation, at earth' - instead of what we need to hear, which is to 'look at what you have created and take some responsibility, use your 'creative powers' as the living expression of yourself, stand up and create a heaven on earth for real as this is your responsibility as custodian of earth'?

As long as we desire for there to be angels, guides and masters and all other forms of 'magical beings/creatures' that give us lovely messages of hope, love, peace and happiness that we can seemingly lose ourselves in to for a moment escape what is actually really here - then there will be guides, angels and masters telling us exactly what we want to hear, because that is the world of consumerism as what we have created. In consumerism it is all about 'supply' and 'demand', wherein, as long as you have the money to pay for it - anything you 'demand', will be 'supplied', which is also why these guides, angels and masters have never done anything substantial to end poverty and starvation for instance, because they have always been just like us, which is only slaves to a capitalist system that doesn't actually really care about life.


So, don't be blind to what you read in the newspapers and what you see in the world - and realize that just because someone says it is OK to only look into the light and to not consider anything of this world, and just because it makes you feel good, doesn't mean it is the truth. Rather have a look within common sense at yourself and at the world - and consider that there is much that you don't know, much of this world and of yourself that exist and that you are unaware of, which is worth investigating instead of silenced through for instance meditation.

Investigate Desteni to receive support in being able to look at the world without turning a blind eye and to stand up to take responsibility for this existence as all that is here and to direct it to what is best for all life.

And support an Equal Money System as the practical solution for this world, one that considers all life and that does not support ignorance as what the human has always been living as.

2012 - Do the Ten Commandments hold the Solution to the World's Problems?

In these current times, it seems that to human beings nothing is sacred anymore as we're basically all set loose on a 'path of spiritual awakening' withing the principle of 'to each his own', wherein each human seems to basically be free to find their own truth, when there used to be a time not so long ago when everybody still went to church, prayed and believed in the ten commandments of God as our moral code.

As our capitalist system grew over time, religions like Christianity made way for the 'Religion of Self', where the holy gospel of God as what is written in the bible has been replaced by 'the Secret Law of Attraction' with the central belief-system being 'the Pursuit of Happiness' through accumulating wealth and our priests are now people like Oprah, Eckhart Tolle, Deepak Chopra, Bashar and other 'modern day Guru's' who's message is to seek your hearts true passion and basically focus all of your attention on yourself and personal accumulation of wealth - apparently breaking loose from the 'shackles' of religious traditions, rules and dogma where one was required to 'obey' the word of God as some entity seemingly separate from oneself.

It is at the moment clear to see if one were to look at the situation in the world on every level (political, social, economical, ecological) that capitalism, as this glorified idea of personal desires being the single most important point in the entire universe to which all life must bend and bow, isn't quite working out as well as hoped and planned. The consequences of having been consuming the earth within actually believing that resources our infinitely provided as if earth is some magic pot of gold at the end of a rainbow that never runs empty, are now starting to show in many ways, for instance in our world-wide debt crises (as an obvious result of no real understanding of how our economic system actually operates), nature going crazy (as an obvious result of no real understanding of how our ecological system actually operates) and human beings going insane by revolting, striking, killing each other and killing themselves (as an obvious result of no real understanding of how our human mind system actually operates).

So within all this mess in the world currently, human beings are looking for themselves, looking for the purpose to life because they start to feel lost and desperate - which explains the whole New Age Movement and the belief in 2012 as apparently 'The Year of Human Awakening'. And as we see that the whole point of 'individualism' as what consumerism basically represents has only caused us to make one big fuck up of our world by not having equated the actual consequences of our actions here - perhaps we should look back on more 'peaceful' times when human beings didn't seem so lost within themselves and looked like they had a sense of purpose, morality and principles to live by.

Let's have another look at those Ten Commandments of God for instance, as what our forefathers not so long ago lived by - we may find the answer to our unrest and general 'fucked-upness' and after all, history should be investigated as it is the very foundational structure which the current systems in society are built upon and it is in essence that which our parents have taught us as what was given to them by their parents as the knowledge and information that form the belief-systems that make up the way we see and experience the world and ourselves.

So, let's have a look at these ten commandments from the starting-point of considering their practicality in providing us with a real-live liveable solution for life on earth:

ONE: 'You shall have no other gods before Me.'

TWO: 'You shall not make for yourself a carved image--any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.'

THREE: 'You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain.'

These first three commandments are already in fact about pretty much the same thing, which is God trying to establish just how awesomely almighty and great he is - though when it comes to actual support with regards to life on earth, they prove themselves to be quite useless. So, that's a shame - three out of ten commandments wasted, lets hope/assume God knew what he was doing when writing these.

FOUR: 'Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.'

Oops, there goes another one - again God on his self-glorification trip.

FIVE: 'Honor your father and your mother.'

Ok, we may be able to work with this one - so lets examine shall we? How does honoring your father and mother contribute to establishing actual world-peace for all living beings? Firstly it seems pretty odd that out of the billions of beings in the entire world, I would have to basically only really listen to what just these two beings have to say and not because they are really special and have special super-powers with which they can save the world, but only because these two people just so happen to have created me. It seems to me that this statement has a rather deceptive effect, because based on this commandment one would be inclined to believe that for some reason my parents are more special and important than everyone else in the world, which makes absolutely no sense except for those who want to be worshiped by their offspring so they can feel special and powerful - which is total abuse because if we look at the practical implications of this commandment, this would imply that basically human beings don't have to honor earth as the plants and the animals as that which is life or anything and anyone else but only these two beings as 'mommy' and 'daddy', for no other reason than pure chance and coincidence. It is easy to see that this would make a convenient justification for a lot of abuse done to earth, the animals and other human beings that are not 'my parents' because apparently 'I only have to honor my parents'.

SIX: 'You shall not murder.'

Yeah, I guess this is a cool one - though this should be evident as part of the natural expression of my being. It's almost as though God is assuming that I will murder if he does not forbid me to, which means that he's basically calling me a murderer already within this commandment - and that would actually explain a lot when having a look at the behavior of humans in this world, where most are walking around with thoughts of anger, resentment, spitefulness and hate towards another though still restraining themselves from actually putting it into action and then some will actually go and kill other humans because they become so driven by their inner thoughts of anger and hate that actually exist in each human. Thus apparently proving that we need God to tell us to 'not murder' - though actually when having a look at this situation in common sense, the fact that murder exist in the first place is because we never bothered to investigate ourselves as to where, how and why we experience these thoughts and emotions of anger and hate towards others because we've come to simply accept that this is who we really are, murderous beings as that is what God is actually implying in his commandments.

When really it would have made a lot more sense if God would have made this 6th commandment look more like this:

"SIX: 'If you see and/or experience an emotional reaction and a thought of anger, resentment, hate, jealousy, or spitefulness existing within yourself - do not allow yourself to be directed by it and realize yourself as a self-responsible being. So, forgive yourself for having allowed yourself to separate yourself from and give your power away to these systematic thoughts and emotions as though they come from a higher power and thus apparently have power over you. Realize yourself as God as oneness and equality as all that exist."

Now, this commandment we can work with - because herein the responsibility of each human being is implied, wherein the human being is not just a slave or inferior being in relation to its own inner experiences and reality itself, but it is shown that it is in fact self-responsible in all ways, with the responsibility to always do what is best for all living beings in oneness and equality.

SEVEN: 'You shall not commit adultery.'

See commandment SIX

EIGHT: 'You shall not steal.'

With this commandment we again lack any form of expansion or explanation as to why a human being would want to steal in the first place - it is really as though God assumes that the human being is a lying, cheating, stealing, manipulative, hateful sack of shit that needs to be contained through these commandments to be able to more or less live together with the rest of humanity. Moreover it seems that God has not grasped the concept of 'tracking down the root and weeding it out permanently' which is done through introspection and taking self-responsibility wherein one is only able to really stop something (like a desire/behavior/thought) if one is fully aware of where it comes from, how it was created and how self is responsible for its existence. So, it's a shame that God didn't mention this in his commandments as it would have assisted humanity immensely in existing on earth in the best way possible (unless obviously that was not God's intent for the human).

NINE: 'You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.'

TEN: 'You shall not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor's.'

What strikes me as interesting about commandments EIGHT, NINE and TEN, is that they clearly imply that there exist some form of desire towards 'having certain goods' within the human that will then result in stealing, bearing false witness and coveting the neighbor's house - though God failed to mention completely where this desire comes from or what it is based on.

When we have a look at reality, all human desires to have goods are based on and result from our current monetary system of capitalism wherein we have to compete with each other in order to survive instead of working together and wherein some humans simply are left out of the system for some unfortunate reason or another. Yet, if we lived in a different monetary system that is here to support each living being equally and where humans learn to cooperate rather than fight each other, we wouldn't desire to steal, bear false witness or covet another person's goods because there would be no need to.

It's fascinating that God himself seems to, within his very commandments, already assume that the capitalist system is like something that is 'attached' to 'life on earth' and inherent to life itself, when really it isn't because it is an economic system that has been created by mankind over time that could in fact easily be changed.

In fact, it should be changed as the capitalist system has proven itself to be very unpractical, not supportive of life and generally abusive towards human beings, animals and earth and quite frankly we can do much better - the only reason why we never bothered to search for solutions as alternative systems that serve to coordinate human co-existence is because of God and his commandments wherein God himself has set the human up to be quite limited, short-sighted and ignorant in its view on life and itself, by tacitly implying that 'capitalism is life' and therefore all human behavior that is the result of the capitalist system of 'survival of the fittest', like rape, murder, theft, adultery, abuse, etcetera is apparently 'who the human being is' and consequently the human will need these ten commandments to keep the human 'in check' and to apparently ensure a relatively 'peaceful' co-existence ... how convenient.


So, the conclusion when having investigated whether or not these ten commandments will or ever have really provide(d) a practical, workable, real-live solution for the human being to co-exist in a peaceful way here on earth with all other life-forms, is that the ten commandments have in fact proven themselves to be quite deceptive and very dis-empowering towards the human being, and it is clear that God must have some hidden agenda to apparently want to make the human believe that Capitalism as the 'system of survival of the fittest' has in any way got anything to do with life on earth while it is actually clear that Capitalism has done nothing but destroy life on earth and make life on earth impossible, having turned the human being into an insane lunatic that takes absolutely no responsibility for its actions or for its own existence.

And if we at this moment believe that we have left this whole 'God' and 'religion' point with the ten commandments and the worshiping behind us, without having even investigated how it came to be in the first place and without even realizing that who we are at this point as humanity is nothing but a continuation of history as belief-systems of previous generations that in some form or another have mutated in something else that only better serves the ego of the human we are sadly mistaken - as everything that we have ever done and are doing at this very moment has been based on this idea/belief that 'capitalism is life' as how it was professed by God himself in the first place.


There will never be a 'grand awakening of the human mind' as the apparent solution to the mess that we're in as long as we refuse to take responsibility for ourselves here on earth and for all of life that is here and as long as we refuse to consider that what we are doing and who we are at this moment is nothing but a continuation of history - so therefore we will have to forgive ourselves first, wherein we walk backwards through our history, investigating who we are, why and how, to then re-establish ourselves as self-respecting, self-directive, self-responsible and overall trustworthy beings that can be trusted with taking care of life on earth.



Investigate Desteni where you will find the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application to be able to see through the deception that we as humanity have always been living and to get to the core of what is really here going on on earth - and to stand up for/as life and walk the change that is needed to establish a Heaven on earth as how life here was always meant to be.


Also check out an Equal Money System as the solution for earth we've been waiting for, that do not follow these bogus rules of a bogus God that brought us nothing but misery.

2012 why I heard to the Desteni Message

Desteni and their message can create much controversy in the realms of the internet, especially back when they had all their video's of Sunette as the interdimensional portal 'channeling' all conceivable beings in existence on youtube - these channels have been taken down by youtube because they were being flagged by beings who felt that the Desteni message wasn't 'resonating' with them, they felt threatened in some way - so, like I said, the Desteni message has created some controversy. Mainly because it is such an unusual message, that is brought in an unusual way - and human beings feel threatened by everything that is unusual, which we then all too automatically judge as 'weird', 'strange' and 'freaky', all words that we have assigned a negative emotional charge, so based on these judgments we will often decide that something is 'bad' and 'negative', not ever really fully understanding what is being presented to us because we're not really willing to investigate with an open mind.

This is something that I have noticed when I brought up Desteni in a conversation with friends and family and in the way that people sometimes react to the Desteni message as what those who are walking the Desteni process of self-change are expressing to the world. So what made me then hear the Desteni message? How come the Desteni message 'resonated' with me and not with many others?

The reason I ask myself this question is because if one were to fully investigate what Desteni is about and apply the tools that is being presented such as self forgiveness, self honesty and self-corrective application, one would come to the realization that what Desteni shares is the most important message that has ever been expressed in this reality - a message that would save us all, as something that we as all of humanity have been waiting for since the dawn of man. They present the ultimate solution to this world, a solution that is based on actual real life investigation and application of these tools that has proven its effectiveness through time and that has been brought forth by the people behind Desteni.

Looking back at when I discovered Desteni and the 'state of mind' that I was in that made me 'susceptible' to their message - I can say that I was in a general feeling of lostness, despair even, I felt like I had no sense of direction. Ever since I got out of high school I had been attempting to 'make something of my life' as what was apparently expected of me by my family and society, though all of my attempts ended up in me basically giving up within this feeling that I simply don't see the point. I didn't see the point of why I had to do all these things with my life, what is the purpose of life anyway.

this experience within myself, a sense of dissatisfaction with my life and not really knowing fully why or how I got to that point of feeling like I did, led me to start investigating into spirituality as the feeling that there must be something 'more' to life than what I was experiencing, a reason behind it all that I must have always been missing. I read books, I meditated, went to a meditation course (Vipassana), tried visualization, got into 'The Secret' (Law of Attraction) and eventually started doing research on the internet about various topics that seemed to go into the 'hidden reality of this world' like all the conspiracy theories, unexplained events, the paranormal, the supernatural, UFO's, cropcircles, etcetera in which I could dig deeper and deeper and deeper yet it never seemed to end. And I was just looking for something, some kind of answer, some kind of purpose, anything - because I had this experience within myself on not understanding who I am or what life is or why I am here.

And even though I meditated and participated in all the spiritual beliefs, I still didn't quite 'get it' - as to the 'why?' of everything, of this entire reality. Then I came across a video of Sunette 'portalling' Hitler from the afterlife - and the first thing that struck me was that this was definitely unlike anything I had ever come across. It's funny that even though here was this girl who could apparently leave her body completely and Hitler as a demon from the 'interdimensional existence' could step into her body entirely and speak to us on this youtube channel, as something that is in fact totally out of the ordinary - I still felt like this was the most real, honest and direct expression that I had ever seen/heard, maybe even in my entire life.

I immediately started investigating the Desteni material and found that their message was exactly what I had been looking for - because what they shared was not just one of many spiritual messages of love and light and divinity that is mostly based on belief, hope and pretty words, which had only seemed to be instilling this inner confusion only further. What they presented was an actual practical solution, a tool to work with, which is self forgiveness and writing to freedom - that anyone could apply for themselves to truly find out who self is. the only necessity was for me to find out for myself whether or not what they shared was real or not by applying the tools. And so I did - I started applying self forgiveness and I started writing myself to freedom and instantly I could see, within applying myself, that this 'works'.

I saw that this was the answer that I had always been looking for, the only answer that could ever be real - which was where I would, rather than meditating to some energy based on a belief or placing my hopes and expectations for a better life in the hands of some Guru, master or guide and their message of bliss and love, learn to take responsibility for myself and face myself as who I am completely. This is something that I have in some way always known to be the answer to 'life' as who I am though what had always been missing was the practical tools to do this - and these tools is what I found at Desteni.

Desteni did not expect me to believe in their message or to blindly follow them in their 'convictions', as opposed to what I had always experienced with all the beings in my life like my family, teachers and politicians - but they made it very clear that whether or not you will be effective in realizing who you really are as life itself as oneness and equality is completely dependent on your application of the tools, which is the point of self-responsibility.

this is the point that I have found to be all determining - having walked the process of self-realization since 2008. Because within me taking responsibility for me in every moment of breath, standing as me as the living statement of life itself - I determine and decide who I am, I decide my purpose. Therefore there is no more searching, hoping, expecting or longing for a 'purpose in life' as something separate from myself - as I am the purpose of life, within and as who I really am as I live here, within full awareness of who I am and within full responsibility of myself as the determining factor of my life.

Within applying these tools of self forgiveness, self honesty and self-corrective application, I have been able to permanently stop this experience of lostness, despair and uncertainty within myself as I realize that I am responsible for me, therefore I have the ability to stop all such experiences within myself - and the key has always been self-responsibility.

So, back to my initial question of 'why is it that I have been able to hear the Desteni message while others haven't?'. What I found is that I was open to try anything, to investigate anything, as I was determined to find out about life as what is going on in this world and who I am here - simply because I had lived a life that did not please me, I could not find anything that would make me feel good about myself anymore. It's like Desteni was my only option, my only 'Destiny' - so it's obvious that as long as people have things in their life that they do not want to give up, they will not consider that change is possible and even necessary. It's only when you lose everything that you will start looking for answers and start to open yourself up to the possibilities of what is here. This is the 'human nature' as the ego, wherein people will keep on participating in good, positive feelings as ignorance and unawareness as long as they possibly can - believing that this is who they really are, when really it is not.

So, what is necessary for humanity to start hearing Desteni as the message of change? Obviously what is necessary is for all of our lives to start collapsing, for us to lose the things/people in our lives that we keep holding onto within the belief that we need them to exist - so that we can realize that this is not who we really are and so we can stand up as the living expression of who we really are as life as oneness and equality within and as complete self-responsibility.

And why is this change necessary? Because if we do not start taking responsibility for who we are within ourselves, we are unable to really take responsibility for this world - and the result of that is what we are at the moment faced with, which is the complete destruction of this planet of earth due to to parasitic nature of the human ego that does not consider anything other than it's own personal feelings of happiness, bliss and love and that does not in fact see what is really going on in reality.

It's time we stand up and realize who we really are as life as self-responsible beings that take responsibility for all of life as what is here.
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2012 Is Sai Baba coming back to save us all?

He will give you everything. For He is everything. He gives you His Self without any conditions. The only way to love Him is to love without thinking. Never plan... forget worry... dismiss desire... do not even try to understand His ways. If you have called His name then whatever that comes your way is His plan... His will and His worry!
~Sri Sathya Sai Baba~

Sai Baba was an Indian 'Guru' who became popular during the seventies - he claimed to be the reïncarnation of several Indian Gods, to be able to perform miracles and to be brought here to earth to bring 'justice' and 'universal love' back to humanity.

His followers were, and still are, within the millions - though he has lost a lot of loyal devotees when word got out that he sexually harassed and molested some young male devotees, while he professed that he was free from desires as the apparent 'highest good'.


Now in this previous statement that he made, he advises human beings to basically place their lives/will/worries/... in the hands of 'God', who will then guide them through their lives and take care of everything - all they have to do is follow and accept whatever happens in their lives as 'the divine plan of God'.

He says 'dismiss desire' however this very statement here was made from a desire to have a purpose in life, the desire to make sense out of life, otherwise one wouldn't say such things about a God apparently handling everything if it wasn't for us desiring/expecting/wanting/needing it to be so. So here already is a point that does not make sense in his words and that proves his message to be contradicting itself and thus untrustworthy.

Also a quite impractical point in his words with regards to whether or not they will in fact serve life on earth, is that he basically suggests passivity as a principle to live by.

"If you have called His name then whatever that comes your way is His plan... His will and His worry!"

So, while it is obvious that the hell on earth currently that causes people to go and look for answers, a purpose and a God in the first place has been created by non other than the human being itself and not by God - he suggests to rather than fix our own self-created problems and live as the solution ourselves within the realization that we are in fact responsible for earth and our experience within it, to go and leave it all up to God and pretty much sit, wait and expect 'God' to simply fix it all for us. As if God in his all-knowingness will ever do this for us - because if God really is all-knowing then he is fully aware of the fact that if he simply helps us out of our self-imposed hell and gives us a 'second chance', that we're just going to fuck it up again as no real change is ever possible without an understanding and awareness of who we are and how we created this current mess in the first place.

Therefore God would know that the best medicine for our 'illness' is for us to 'sweat it out' - meaning that we face the fires of the hell that we have allowed to exist here on earth and then stand up from it and change it into heaven within the full awareness of our responsibility towards taking care of earth.


The same principle of 'no real change is possible without an understanding and awareness of who self is' goes for Sai Baba himself, for example where he would profess 'being without desires' without even understanding what desires is, where desires come from or why desires are seen as 'bad' - so it is no wonder that he would go and act out the opposite of what he preaches (by molesting the young males) as he doesn't even know who he is, because he simply accepted this idea and belief of himself being 'the reincarnation of this or that God/Goddess', without ever questioning it, which implies that there are things that he does not know about himself that are apparently directed by a higher power, like reincarnation and desires for instance.


So when it comes to changing the world in fact, the words and message of Sai Baba has proven itself useless and impractical - and only here for those who desire to place their responsibility entirely in the hands of a higher being/God/spirit and who thus want to hear these kind of statements as they make them feel good about themselves and the world.


There is no real change possible without taking responsibility for who we are at this moment - because the change will have to come from us, we have to be and live the change that we want to see in this world.


Investigate Desteni where you will find the tools for actually changing self within taking full responsibility for oneself - instead of hoping, waiting and expecting a 'higher force' to take care of things. We at Desteni have realized that the change will happen as a self-willed and self-motivated standing up of each one of us within realizing that I stand as the 'God'-principle of responsibility for all of creation and not the other way around.

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2012 The Road to Happiness is Paved with Lies and Deception

"Never let old shames keep you spinning in a stagnant sea of regrets. And never, ever let them sink you. For Life didn’t show you your mistakes so you could stay stuck in misgivings. It showed you where you went wrong so you might patch your vessel, pick up your lessons like oars, and row yourself down a more trustworthy route to happiness." ~ by Sandra Kring


So, the bottom line in this previous statement made by Sandra Kring is that 'life' wants for us to be happy, and happiness is apparently our 'goal in life', therefore 'life' will subtly give us hints and clues to gently lead us to the path of happiness.
And the things that we have done in our life that we feel ashamed about and that haunt us in our mind are the ways that 'life' is showing us where we 'took a wrong turn' so we may learn a lesson to not go down that road again, so that we may find happiness as what life apparently wants us to find.

Though this statement was specifically used to make human beings feel good about themselves and 'life' - it is showing us a shocking truth about 'life' that we seem to miss when we allow a statement like this to guide us into experiencing a state of bliss. And that truth is that 'life' apparently wants us to be and remain dumb, ignorant, blind and inferior - because it seems to determine what 'road' our lives should take by 'showing us our mistakes', thus it is basically dictating us what is 'right' and what is 'wrong', where 'happiness' is 'right'. This 'life' that Sandra Kring speaks of expects us to follow some kind of road to a glorious experience of 'happiness' as what all should apparently reach - without even telling or showing us why. We should just follow.

What is life then actually supporting and creating but beings that will not be able to take responsibility for life as what is here - as these beings want to be guided and expect to be guided and shown what is 'right' and 'wrong' and who they are and what is 'real', they will just follow like slaves, in search for some 'wondrous', addictive experience such as 'happiness', of which they know nothing about. They've simply come to accept this 'happiness experience' as 'the ultimate truth' as what has been presented to them by 'life' without having ever investigated for themselves if what is being presented can be trusted or not.

Something that for instance should raise the alarm that this 'life' as the 'happiness experience' cannot be trusted is that Real Life would not want to guide us or show us anything or to anywhere in the first place - because Life, as the animals and nature as the physical reality that is here, needs Self Responsible beings that actually know what they are doing in every moment of breath, beings that stand as Life, one and equal. Life definitely does not need beings that stand inferior to Life, looking for guidance and fixated on this one-dimensional experience as these junkies looking for a fix of 'bliss' and 'happiness' that don't see what is happening to life right in front of their faces.

Life does not need the Human as a creature that does not want to stand one and equal to life as God as the Physical reality as Animals and Nature, but that would much rather run around like a headless chicken, looking for answers to an 'unfulfilled' existence instead of taking responsibility for its existence and for the consequences of its own actions.

For some reason the Human sees itself as this 'special child' of 'life' that deserves a 'special treatment' as 'special guidance' to a 'special experience' of 'happiness' and 'bliss' - while it simultaneously ignores the absolute pain and agony as the hell that is happening to Life as the physical reality at the hands of Human beings, that is the result of the unwillingness of the human to stand one and equal to Life itself and direct itself within complete Self Responsibility to in every moment do what is Best for all Life, and not just what is best for its own personal 'spiritual path of enlightenment'.


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