2012 Search for Self with Self Forgiveness

A fascinating aspect of the 21st Century is the 'Search for Self' - we've all met someone, or we know someone, it may even be ourselves, who is 'in search of themselves'. They/we came at a point in their/our lives wherein they/we obviously felt somewhat lost, therefore a 'search for self' ensued. And the interesting thing is that they are most likely 'searching for themselves' by traveling around the world, doing things they've never done before, taking risk or spending a lot of time meditating in a forest or meadow. Why is this so interesting?

Why would we go searching for ourselves in places we've never even been, in things we've never done or in new relationships with people we don't even know so well? Doesn't it make more sense to, if you've 'lost yourself', go and search for yourself in the places that you have been throughout your life? After all you'd probably have a much bigger chance at actually finding yourself there, as we can obviously only 'lose ourselves' along the way that we have already walked. In fact it is completely ludicrous to even think about going into a new path when you are searching for something that you have lost along the road of the 'old path', yourself.

So what is this obvious self-deception all about? Why do we claim to be searching for ourselves and then do the one thing that will only take us further away from ourselves as what we've apparently 'lost'? Why do we not, in search of ourselves, retrace our steps to see if, where and how we have lost ourselves in our lives? Are we really that stupid or is it that we have a hidden agenda that we are not willing to voice when speaking words like 'I am in search of myself', 'I am searching for myself' or 'I am soul-searching' as to the reason why our words and our actions do not equate?

An interesting point to look at within this question is the realization that we only experience this sense of 'restlessness' as a feeling that 'something is missing', 'I am missing a part of me' when we are adults. When we were children we never even considered that we had to go 'searching for ourselves', that this was at all necessary or desirable, because WE WERE simply OURSELVES. It's not too difficult to figure out that the reason why the adult experiences this desire to go 'search for self' and the child does not, is because the being has in some way lost itself while growing up from being a child to being an adult - thus the feeling/experience within themselves that there is something missing, that a part of 'me' is missing and that they must now go and search for that 'missing part', grew.

So, how did the being become 'lost' through growing up? Actually it is within and through its participation in this illusion of 'searching for self' and 'soul searching', wherein they are not really interested in truly getting to know themselves as who they really are, they are actually looking for 'more', they want to be 'more' than who they really are and thus become completely lost in the search for more to the point that they eventually feel as though they're 'not themselves anymore'.

Thus begins the 'search for self', which is, as we can see, just another excuse of the human to keep participating in its desire to be and become 'more' than who they simply are, as the being doesn't consider that in order to in fact 'find self', one would have to walk backwards throughout ones life, retrace all steps that one has taken within the creation of the illusion of 'more' wherein one has actually lost oneself completely. Instead, the being chooses to only lose themselves even further in the illusion of 'more' by using the 'search for self' as an excuse to in fact do the opposite and basically flee as far away from themselves as they possibly can within 'going to new places', 'trying new things', 'making new relationships', 'creating new personalities', all of which are attempts to add 'more' to life (as if that is possible).

So, basically when human beings make the statement that they are 'searching for themselves' within the desire to 'travel new roads', know that they are lying to themselves and that the truth of what they are actually saying is that they want to get as far away from themselves as they possibly can, because all they really want to do is to not be with themselves, to not be confronted with the life that they have been living, to not look at their own life and themselves within it. They seek change, but not as an actual self-willed self-change wherein one has taken complete responsibility for ones entire being by having walked backwards through ones life and having applied self forgiveness to stop the old patterns that self had created in unawareness of who self really is to then walk the self-directed self-correction as the actual real re-creation of self. They rather want the illusion of change wherein they simply put on a different 'personality-suit' so they can FEEL as though they are a different person without ever having actually faced themselves or having taken responsibility for who they had allowed themselves to become.

No real self-change is possible without self-forgiveness! It is only common sense that the process that is required to be walked in order to really change as a being is not like it is being portrayed by all the self-development guru's and spiritual leaders, as something that is apparently 'wonderful' and 'magical' and 'a heavenly experience' of sorts, wherein you just kind of 'awaken' and all you have to do is 'be still within yourself', etcetera. That is again the attempt and desire to add 'more' to life, to make 'life' seem better than it actually is within and as certain feelings and experiences within self.

The real process of self-change is not nice or pretty, as you would have to actually face what you have allowed yourself to create within your greed for 'more' as you grew up in this world that caused you to apparently 'lose yourself' in the first place. The application of Self forgiveness is required to be able to look yourself in the eyes and to be able to embrace yourself so that you can start with a 'clean slate' to re-create yourself according to what is Best for All Life as who you really are as Life itself.


Stop participating in these mind games of apparent 'soul searching' that will never lead us anywhere but completely lost within our own desires for there to be 'more' than what is simply HERE as who we are as life. Life as who we are is the simplicity of a child and does not require us to go 'searching for it' within traveling to places or by meditating - we rather simply require to forgive ourselves for having allowed ourselves to deceive ourselves within our greed as the desire for there to be 'more' to ourselves as life, and not realizing that we have in fact within this only diminished ourselves by not wanting to accept ourselves fully as who we are HERE within and as the simplicity of life as HERE.

Visit the Desteni Forum and start your process of walking backwards through your life within applying self forgiveness and changing your self for real to stand up as life itself as an actual real-live being that is whole, complete and absolutely HERE.

2012 why I heard to the Desteni Message

Desteni and their message can create much controversy in the realms of the internet, especially back when they had all their video's of Sunette as the interdimensional portal 'channeling' all conceivable beings in existence on youtube - these channels have been taken down by youtube because they were being flagged by beings who felt that the Desteni message wasn't 'resonating' with them, they felt threatened in some way - so, like I said, the Desteni message has created some controversy. Mainly because it is such an unusual message, that is brought in an unusual way - and human beings feel threatened by everything that is unusual, which we then all too automatically judge as 'weird', 'strange' and 'freaky', all words that we have assigned a negative emotional charge, so based on these judgments we will often decide that something is 'bad' and 'negative', not ever really fully understanding what is being presented to us because we're not really willing to investigate with an open mind.

This is something that I have noticed when I brought up Desteni in a conversation with friends and family and in the way that people sometimes react to the Desteni message as what those who are walking the Desteni process of self-change are expressing to the world. So what made me then hear the Desteni message? How come the Desteni message 'resonated' with me and not with many others?

The reason I ask myself this question is because if one were to fully investigate what Desteni is about and apply the tools that is being presented such as self forgiveness, self honesty and self-corrective application, one would come to the realization that what Desteni shares is the most important message that has ever been expressed in this reality - a message that would save us all, as something that we as all of humanity have been waiting for since the dawn of man. They present the ultimate solution to this world, a solution that is based on actual real life investigation and application of these tools that has proven its effectiveness through time and that has been brought forth by the people behind Desteni.

Looking back at when I discovered Desteni and the 'state of mind' that I was in that made me 'susceptible' to their message - I can say that I was in a general feeling of lostness, despair even, I felt like I had no sense of direction. Ever since I got out of high school I had been attempting to 'make something of my life' as what was apparently expected of me by my family and society, though all of my attempts ended up in me basically giving up within this feeling that I simply don't see the point. I didn't see the point of why I had to do all these things with my life, what is the purpose of life anyway.

this experience within myself, a sense of dissatisfaction with my life and not really knowing fully why or how I got to that point of feeling like I did, led me to start investigating into spirituality as the feeling that there must be something 'more' to life than what I was experiencing, a reason behind it all that I must have always been missing. I read books, I meditated, went to a meditation course (Vipassana), tried visualization, got into 'The Secret' (Law of Attraction) and eventually started doing research on the internet about various topics that seemed to go into the 'hidden reality of this world' like all the conspiracy theories, unexplained events, the paranormal, the supernatural, UFO's, cropcircles, etcetera in which I could dig deeper and deeper and deeper yet it never seemed to end. And I was just looking for something, some kind of answer, some kind of purpose, anything - because I had this experience within myself on not understanding who I am or what life is or why I am here.

And even though I meditated and participated in all the spiritual beliefs, I still didn't quite 'get it' - as to the 'why?' of everything, of this entire reality. Then I came across a video of Sunette 'portalling' Hitler from the afterlife - and the first thing that struck me was that this was definitely unlike anything I had ever come across. It's funny that even though here was this girl who could apparently leave her body completely and Hitler as a demon from the 'interdimensional existence' could step into her body entirely and speak to us on this youtube channel, as something that is in fact totally out of the ordinary - I still felt like this was the most real, honest and direct expression that I had ever seen/heard, maybe even in my entire life.

I immediately started investigating the Desteni material and found that their message was exactly what I had been looking for - because what they shared was not just one of many spiritual messages of love and light and divinity that is mostly based on belief, hope and pretty words, which had only seemed to be instilling this inner confusion only further. What they presented was an actual practical solution, a tool to work with, which is self forgiveness and writing to freedom - that anyone could apply for themselves to truly find out who self is. the only necessity was for me to find out for myself whether or not what they shared was real or not by applying the tools. And so I did - I started applying self forgiveness and I started writing myself to freedom and instantly I could see, within applying myself, that this 'works'.

I saw that this was the answer that I had always been looking for, the only answer that could ever be real - which was where I would, rather than meditating to some energy based on a belief or placing my hopes and expectations for a better life in the hands of some Guru, master or guide and their message of bliss and love, learn to take responsibility for myself and face myself as who I am completely. This is something that I have in some way always known to be the answer to 'life' as who I am though what had always been missing was the practical tools to do this - and these tools is what I found at Desteni.

Desteni did not expect me to believe in their message or to blindly follow them in their 'convictions', as opposed to what I had always experienced with all the beings in my life like my family, teachers and politicians - but they made it very clear that whether or not you will be effective in realizing who you really are as life itself as oneness and equality is completely dependent on your application of the tools, which is the point of self-responsibility.

this is the point that I have found to be all determining - having walked the process of self-realization since 2008. Because within me taking responsibility for me in every moment of breath, standing as me as the living statement of life itself - I determine and decide who I am, I decide my purpose. Therefore there is no more searching, hoping, expecting or longing for a 'purpose in life' as something separate from myself - as I am the purpose of life, within and as who I really am as I live here, within full awareness of who I am and within full responsibility of myself as the determining factor of my life.

Within applying these tools of self forgiveness, self honesty and self-corrective application, I have been able to permanently stop this experience of lostness, despair and uncertainty within myself as I realize that I am responsible for me, therefore I have the ability to stop all such experiences within myself - and the key has always been self-responsibility.

So, back to my initial question of 'why is it that I have been able to hear the Desteni message while others haven't?'. What I found is that I was open to try anything, to investigate anything, as I was determined to find out about life as what is going on in this world and who I am here - simply because I had lived a life that did not please me, I could not find anything that would make me feel good about myself anymore. It's like Desteni was my only option, my only 'Destiny' - so it's obvious that as long as people have things in their life that they do not want to give up, they will not consider that change is possible and even necessary. It's only when you lose everything that you will start looking for answers and start to open yourself up to the possibilities of what is here. This is the 'human nature' as the ego, wherein people will keep on participating in good, positive feelings as ignorance and unawareness as long as they possibly can - believing that this is who they really are, when really it is not.

So, what is necessary for humanity to start hearing Desteni as the message of change? Obviously what is necessary is for all of our lives to start collapsing, for us to lose the things/people in our lives that we keep holding onto within the belief that we need them to exist - so that we can realize that this is not who we really are and so we can stand up as the living expression of who we really are as life as oneness and equality within and as complete self-responsibility.

And why is this change necessary? Because if we do not start taking responsibility for who we are within ourselves, we are unable to really take responsibility for this world - and the result of that is what we are at the moment faced with, which is the complete destruction of this planet of earth due to to parasitic nature of the human ego that does not consider anything other than it's own personal feelings of happiness, bliss and love and that does not in fact see what is really going on in reality.

It's time we stand up and realize who we really are as life as self-responsible beings that take responsibility for all of life as what is here.
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